LOGIN✦ 𝐉𝐔𝐋𝐈𝐀𝐍 𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐓 ✦
I stared up at the dark ceiling of my bedroom, my hands tucked behind my head. The digital clock on my nightstand read 2:43 AM, but my mind was stuck in a loop, replaying the exact moment the kitchen table felt like it had tilted on its axis.
"I'm getting married."
That sentence alone was enough to keep me awake. But it was the second phrase she had murmured that really refused to leave me alone.
"I want you to meet them."
Them.
She hadn't said him. She had explicitly used a plural pronoun. The more I thought about it, the stranger it became. My mom wasn't the type to play games or keep secrets, especially not from me. So why keep something this important hidden until now? And in the quiet stillness of the night, that single word began to take on a life of its own.
My thoughts raced down a dozen different tracks at once. How long had she been dating this person? Why had she kept it a total secret from me? Who was this man, and why did it suddenly feel like an entire, unannounced family was about to materialise out of thin air? If she said them, did he have kids? Was I about to be introduced to a set of ready-made siblings I had never asked for? Had they known about my existence this entire time while I was kept completely in the dark?
The questions hit me so fast I couldn't answer a single one.
A sharp twist of resentment flared in my chest, a defensive instinct screaming that our perfect, two-person circle was being invaded. But as I rolled onto my side and stared at the moonlight cutting through the window blinds, the anger deflated.
I thought about my mom.
She had spent the last twelve years putting her entire life on pause to raise me, working extra shifts, sacrificing her own desires, and making sure I never felt the gaps left by an empty house. If anyone in this world earned a shot at absolute happiness, it was her.
I took a slow breath, letting the tension drain out of my jaw.
If she's happy, I'll support her, I told myself quietly. That's all that matters.
Holding onto that thought like an anchor, I finally managed to close my eyes and drift off.
The next morning, I woke up feeling like I had been hit by a freight train.
I stumbled into the kitchen and poured myself a mug of black coffee, leaning against the counter as the first sip of caffeine hit my system.
My mom was already at the stove, lifting a plate of eggs. The second she turned around and saw me, the air in the room grew slightly awkward.
She took in the heavy dark circles under my eyes and winced. "Julian… I'm so sorry about last night. Dropping that on you after you had just spent the whole day working on your fellowship was incredibly unfair of me."
I offered her a soft, reassuring smile, shaking my head. "You don't owe me an apology, Mom. Honestly. I was just caught off guard, that's all."
She let out a breath, her shoulders visibly relaxing. "Thank you."
She opened her mouth, looking as though she was right on the verge of adding something else—maybe a name, maybe an explanation—but she hesitated, closing it instead.
I noticed the sudden restraint, but I didn't push. I didn't want to break the fragile peace we had just established before I even finished my first cup of coffee.
Stepping onto the university campus a few hours later felt like a relief. The familiar routine of assignments, lecture halls, and notifications on my phone brought me right back to reality.
I could control my grades.
I could control my future.
On campus, I knew exactly who I was.
But apparently, I wasn't hiding my internal distraction as well as I thought.
"Who died?" Leo asked, sliding onto the bench opposite me at the campus courtyard table. He dropped a heavy textbook onto the wood and peered at me. "Seriously, Julian. You look like someone just cancelled coffee forever."
I rolled my eyes, dragging my fingers through my messy black hair. "Good morning to you too, Leo."
"I'm serious. You're staring at that syllabus like it personally insulted your family name. What's going on?"
I hesitated, looking around the noisy courtyard before leaning in slightly. "My mom is getting married."
Leo froze, his water bottle halfway to his mouth. He blinked once. Twice. Then he actually choked, coughing into his fist as he slammed the bottle down. "Your mom? Elena? The woman who practically monitors your nutrition via text message? Married?"
"Yes. Married."
A massive, ridiculous grin broke across Leo's face, and he immediately leaned across the table. "Okay, we need to run the data. Who is he? Give me the profile. Is he a secret billionaire? A retired movie star living undercover in the suburbs? An international spy? Oh, wait—is he a mafia boss? Please tell me you're getting a mafia stepfather, Julian. I need the connections."
I couldn't help it; a genuine laugh broke through my stubborn mood. The sheer absurdity of his guesses instantly cut through the lingering anxiety from last night.
"He's definitely not a mafia boss, Leo. And the truth is, I don't actually know. I haven't met him yet."
Leo's eyebrows shot up, but his tone softened into something genuinely supportive. "Well, look. Your mom is awesome. Whoever he is, he's got to have good taste if she picked him. Everything will probably be fine. You just have to survive the initial awkward dinner."
"Yeah," I murmured, tapping my pen against my jawline. "The dinner is this Saturday."
An hour later, I was sitting in my academic adviser’s office, the atmosphere shifting back to high stakes. Professor Harrison flipped through the latest printed pages of my Vanguard application essay, nodding slowly.
"This is exceptionally tight, Julian," he said, looking up from the desk. "The framework you've built for the London corporate residency project is exactly the kind of forward-thinking analysis the panel looks for. You're easily one of our strongest candidates."
A quiet sense of pride settled in my chest, but Harrison raised a warning finger before I could smile.
"But remember, the final interview stage is brutal. Tristan is pushing hard, and his family has a lot of leverage in the corporate scene. Stay focused. Don't let anything distract you over the next few weeks. This is the home stretch."
"Nothing is going to get in the way of this fellowship, Professor," I promised him, my voice steady and absolute. "I've worked too hard to let anything pull me off track now."
Walking out of the department building, that determination was still buzzing in my veins. This fellowship was my ultimate goal. It was my guaranteed path to total independence, and no family surprise was going to change that.
"Well, if it isn't the star of the department," a smooth, overly familiar voice called out.
I stopped at the top of the concrete steps, my slate-gray eyes locking onto Tristan as he walked up. He had his leather bag slung over one shoulder and wore that signature, fake-friendly smile that always made me want to test the structural integrity of his jaw.
"Tristan," I nodded coldly. "Heading into Harrison's office to ask for an extension?"
Tristan laughed, a light, effortless sound that didn't reach his eyes. "Please. I submit my work early. I actually just came from a meeting with one of the regional board members. We were discussing the London placement criteria." He stepped a little closer, his smile turning sharp. "I just wanted to make sure you were pacing yourself, Julian. I'd hate for life to get too busy for you right before the final interviews."
It was a subtle, passive-aggressive jab—a classic Tristan move to try and plant a seed of doubt.
I offered him a lazy, entirely unbothered smirk. "Don't worry about my schedule, Tristan. I've always been great at multitasking. For instance, I'm currently holding a conversation with you while simultaneously forgetting everything you've just said."
Tristan's smile tightened ever so slightly. For the briefest second, something ugly flickered behind his eyes before his polished mask slipped neatly back into place. "We'll see how that quick wit holds up under the interview panel's scrutiny."
"I look forward to it."
I stepped past him without another glance. The rivalry was alive and well, and strangely enough, it grounded me. Competing with Tristan made everything else fade into the background, even if only for a little while.
For the rest of the afternoon, I buried myself in coursework and fellowship preparations, refusing to let my thoughts wander back to Saturday night. But no matter how many articles I read or notes I revised, the same question kept slipping into my mind.
Who am I about to meet?
By the time Saturday evening rolled around, my focus was completely shot.
I stood in front of my wardrobe, pulling out a dark blue button-down shirt, holding it up to my chest, and shaking my head. I tossed it onto the bed, joining a growing pile of rejected clothing.
I tried on a structured black jacket, looked in the mirror, decided it made me look like I was attending a corporate deposition, and tore it off.
I caught sight of my own reflection—my raven-black hair completely unkempt from my frantic pacing—and let out a sharp, breathless laugh at myself. "Why am I so nervous?"
I wasn't trying to impress anyone. I didn't care if this mystery family thought I was charming or polite. I was simply walking into the dark, stepping into a completely unknown situation where I wouldn't have the upper hand. And for someone who planned almost every aspect of his life, walking in blind was one of the most uncomfortable feelings imaginable. The lack of information was driving me insane.
A soft knock rattled my bedroom door, and my mom peeked her head inside. She was wearing an elegant, understated dark dress, her hair pinned back neatly. She looked beautiful.
But as her eyes swept over my semi-dressed state and the mountain of clothes scattered across my bed, a soft smile touched her lips. "You look handsome in whatever you pick, Julian," she said gently.
I reached for a clean, well-fitted dark gray shirt, pulling it over my shoulders. "Just trying to make sure your mystery family approves of me, Mom. Wouldn't want to ruin your street cred on day one."
She laughed. But as she walked into the room to help me straighten my collar, I felt her hands trembling slightly.
I looked down, my slate-gray eyes catching the anxious tightness around her mouth. She was terrified.
The realization immediately softened the defensive walls I had spent the week building. This wasn't a corporate merger or an academic competition. This was my mother's heart. If she was standing here smiling through this level of nerves, then tonight really, truly mattered to her.
I swallowed my pride, giving her a small, supportive nod. "We're going to be fine," I murmured.
The drive across town was quiet.
A soft, ambient jazz track filled the car, a stark contrast to the loud hum of my own thoughts. Outside the passenger window, the city streetlights blurred into long streaks of yellow and white as the night deepened.
We were heading toward the upper-class district, away from our cozy neighborhood and toward the side of town where the houses turned into gated properties. Mom and I rarely had a reason to come to this part of the city. The streets were quieter, the houses were larger, and every passing gate looked like it belonged to people who had never worried about next month's bills. The contrast was impossible to ignore.
I glanced over at her, the silence finally becoming too heavy to bear. "So... are you going to give me a hint? Who exactly am I meeting tonight?"
My mom kept her eyes on the road, a small, playful smile tugging at the corner of her lips. "You'll find out soon enough, Julian. Be patient."
I let out a dramatic, long-suffering sigh, sinking back into the leather passenger seat. "You're enjoying this mystery stuff way too much. It's cruel."
She laughed quietly, but she didn't drop another clue, leaving the thick veil of anticipation hanging in the air between us.
Ten minutes later, the car pulled up to the valet stand of L'Étoile—a notoriously exclusive, high-end restaurant hidden behind a discreet stone façade. This wasn't just a nice place for a date; this was the kind of establishment where reservations had to be booked months in advance, catering to the city's old-money elite.
My stomach dropped a solid inch.
This definitely wasn't the kind of place people casually chose for a first family dinner. Whoever my mother's fiancé was, he clearly lived in a very different world from ours.
As we stepped out of the car, my mom took a long, slow breath, smoothing down the front of her dress. She looked up at the heavy mahogany entrance, her anxiety practically radiating off her skin. For a brief second, I wondered if she was even more nervous than I was.
I instinctively stepped closer, squaring my broad shoulders and slipping my hands into my pockets, falling back into the protective part of myself that always appeared whenever something felt uncertain.
A waiter in a tailored black suit greeted us the moment we reached the entrance. "Good evening. Reservation under Cole?"
"Yes," my mom replied, her voice slightly tight. "Elena Hart."
"Right this way, ma'am. They are already inside waiting for you."
The waiter turned and led us through the dimly lit dining room. Soft conversations blended with the quiet clinking of crystal glasses. Expensive artwork decorated the walls, and warm amber lighting reflected off polished marble floors. The restaurant felt elegant without trying too hard—the kind of place where everyone already belonged.
Everyone except me.
We passed the main dining area entirely and continued toward a quieter hallway lined with private dining rooms. The further we walked, the louder my heartbeat seemed to become.
Every step carried another question. Who was this man? How long had he been in my mother's life? Why hadn't she trusted me enough to tell me sooner? And why did I have the strange feeling that tonight was about to change everything?
The waiter finally stopped in front of the last door at the end of the hallway. He reached for the polished brass handle.
I straightened unconsciously, my slate-gray eyes narrowing as I braced myself for whatever waited on the other side.
The heavy wooden door clicked. It swung open slowly.
For one suspended heartbeat, all I saw was warm golden light spilling acro
ss polished hardwood floors and the edge of a long dining table.
Then...
I lifted my eyes……
✦ 𝐉𝐔𝐋𝐈𝐀𝐍 𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐓 ✦The morning sun hit the kitchen island in soft light, filtering through the blinds.I was leaning back against the counter with my mug, watching the steam rise off my coffee. My eyes kept drifting over to the spot near the sink where Xavier and I stood last night.I took a slow sip and shook my head.*I’m overthinking this,* I thought. *He was just being normal for once.*A few seconds later, footsteps sounded on the hardwood floor. Xavier walked into the kitchen wearing a dark hoodie and sweatpants. He didn't look at me right away, heading straight for the espresso machine."Morning," I said softly."Morning," he grunted, pressing the button on the machine.Usually, this was the part where one of us left the room to avoid the awkwardness. Instead, I stayed put. I picked up the pot of hot water I had just boiled and pointed toward his mug."Want some?"Xavier looked down at the mug, then up at me. He paused for a beat before sliding his cup closer. "Yeah. Tha
✦ 𝐉𝐔𝐋𝐈𝐀𝐍 𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐓 ✦When I woke up the next morning, the very first thing in my head wasn't my morning alarm. It was the low sound of Xavier’s voice from the night before, sitting right in the quiet of my bedroom.*Some things are hard to forget.*I stared at the ceiling for a long minute, letting the words bounce around my head before I caught myself and let out a dry laugh. "Why are you even overthinking this?" I muttered to the empty room. It was just nostalgia. He remembered a stupid habit from when we were kids, that was all.I shook my head, swung my legs out of bed, and grabbed my towel to head down the hall.At the exact same time I pulled my door open, the door down the corridor clicked open too. Xavier stepped out into the hallway, a dark towel slung over his shoulder, wearing sweatpants and a plain grey t-shirt.We both stopped dead in our tracks, hovering in the middle of the hall.The silence stretched for a second. I let out a dramatic sigh. "Race you?"Xavier's ga
✦ 𝐉𝐔𝐋𝐈𝐀𝐍 𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐓 ✦The stairs creaked softly under my sneakers as I followed Xavier up to the second floor. The weight of my backpack pulled at my shoulders, but I kept my eyes fixed on his back as he carried the heaviest box of my finance books ahead of me like it was nothing.At the top of the landing, he turned down the left hallway and stopped outside an open door. He pushed it back with his foot, stepped inside, and set the box down near the closet before turning around to face me."This is you," Xavier said quietly, his voice dropping to match the stillness of the house. He pointed out toward the hallway. "The bathroom is the second door on the right. Laundry room is at the very end. If you have extra coats or stuff that won't fit in here, the linen closet out there is shared storage. There’s plenty of room."I stood in the middle of the bedroom, looking at the large window facing the dark backyard, then back at him. The room was nice—way bigger than my old
✦ 𝐉𝐔𝐋𝐈𝐀𝐍 𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐓 ✦I woke up before my alarm even had a chance to go off on Saturday morning.The house was completely, strangely quiet. I sat up slowly, resting my elbows on my knees as I looked around my room. The space felt entirely different today. My old wooden desk was completely bare, the high shelves that used to hold rows of finance textbooks were empty, and the walls where my old high school photos used to hang were nothing but blank plaster and tiny nail holes. Most of my life was already packed away into three heavy cardboard boxes sitting by the closet.There was a strange, heavy tug of nostalgia in my chest as I looked around, but remarkably, there wasn't any regret.A soft, hesitant knock sounded at my door, and it pushed open a few inches. My mom stepped inside, already wearing her silk dressing gown, her hair pinned up neatly for the ceremony. She looked beautiful, but her eyes were wide with a mix of nervous energy and pure excitement.She looked at
✦ 𝐉𝐔𝐋𝐈𝐀𝐍 𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐓 ✦Campus was practical chaos on Friday morning, which turned out to be exactly what I needed to keep my mind busy. I spent three straight hours in the department office sorting out the final recommendation letters for the vanguard fellowship. Between tracking down professors who were already checking out for the weekend and double-checking the code requirements on my submission portal, my brain was completely fried by noon.It wasn't until I was walking down the library steps into the warm afternoon sun that a sudden thought hit me, making me pause on the concrete. I hadn't thought about Xavier all morning. Not once.A wave of pure relief washed over me. I let out a slow breath I felt like I’d been holding for weeks, a small smile touching my lips as I pulled my backpack strap tighter over my shoulder. Finally, I thought, looking out over the crowded quad. I’m getting my life back. The universe is resetting.Right on cue, the phone in my back pocke
✦ 𝐉𝐔𝐋𝐈𝐀𝐍 𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐓 ✦I woke up the next morning thinking about the dinner at Richard’s house.As I sat on the edge of my bed, staring at the floor, I realized something that actually shocked me. I wasn’t dreading the thought of seeing Xavier anymore. The tight, heavy ball of anxiety that usually hit my stomach every morning was completely gone.I immediately shook my head and stood up, trying to brush the thought away. You’re just getting used to the situation, I told myself as I grabbed my clothes. It doesn't mean anything has actually changed between you two. But deep down, even I didn't fully believe it.Campus was incredibly busy, which turned out to be a good thing. I spent the morning in the computer lab, completely focused on the final data adjustments for my fellowship application. The deadline was creeping up fast, and the pressure was a helpful reminder that my life and my goals were still moving forward.By the time I met up with Leo near our usual spot outside t







