My son

Chase's POV

"I know what I said when we spent the night together. However, I didn't know that there would be a child. I want to get to know my son," I say. I look at Connor, who he is playing with the other kids. For the first time in my life, I feel proud. He is tall for his age. I want to know him. I want to be a part of his life.

"If he wants to get to know you, I will not stop him. It is all up to Conner. You can also not make false promises to him. You cannot walk away again if you want to be part of his life. What will happen if you get married, and your wife wants nothing to do with him?" Belinda asks. 

"I am not planning on getting married soon. Like you, I enjoyed my life as a single person. I'm not seeing anybody anyway," I say. 

"It doesn't mean you will not want to get married sooner or later," Belinda says.

"It will take a remarkable woman to make me want to give up my freedom. Same gloves for you. What if you get married, and your husband wants nothing to do without Connor?" I ask.

"My son comes first. I will never be with a man who does not want him," Belinda answered without even thinking about it. I still have a lot to learn about being a parent. I never expected to have a son. I'm glad I had a child with Belinda and not with any other woman I have slept with. I can see that she loves our child very much. I know she will never allow anybody near Connor who does not love him. 

"I'm glad I had a son with you, not someone else," I say. Nick is quiet, and he cannot take his eyes off Belinda. It irritates the living hell out of me. 

"I will make a perfect father. I'm sure Chase will not mind if I become his son's stepdad," Nick says out of the blue. I glare at him because I do not like him flirting with Belinda. I told him Belinda was off limits, but he did not seem to have heard me. 

"Why don't you go and do something else, Nick? Belinda and I have a lot of personal stuff to discuss. I am sure Belinda knows about your reputation by now. She's not interested in men like you than are players. Everybody knows you are a player and do not take any relationship seriously. Everybody knows you are a player and do not care about the woman and breaking hearts. I do not want my son near you," I say. I do not know why I feel so jealous. What if Belinda wants to see Nick? I want Nick to stay away from Belinda. If he becomes her client, he will always be around her. And I wouldn't say I like the idea of that.

I want to see Belinda and want her to become closer to me. Is it because she has my child? It must be it. I am not interested in a serious relationship. Women only use you and will use you for whatever purpose and throw you away. I've learned it's a heart way. I was young. I was not always a heartless player. I have lost my heart once, but the woman I fell in love with left me for another man. I have not seen Sarah Harper in a very long time. I do not know what I will feel if I see her again. I was young and stupid and in love. I know Belinda also went through a very heartbreaking experience with her ex-fiance and stepsister. I cannot believe that Jake was that stupid to take a woman like Amanda instead of somebody like Belinda. Belinda's not only more beautiful, she's also much more mature than the woman he has married. 

"Wow, I thought we were friends. Why are you so hostile toward me? I am sure Belinda knows that everybody can change, and I have changed over the years just like you have. I am not the only playboy around you. You were also a payer once. I know you stopped being a player after sleeping with Belinda that night. Are you having feelings for her?" Nick asks. I feel like I can hit him because he is trying to make me look like a fool in front of Belinda. He is my best friend, but he is a pain in the ass sometimes. 

"I do not care what you say, but I feel it has nothing to do with you. Can you please leave us alone? Nick, we have to discuss our son," I say. Belinda looks at us with amusement on her face.

"Gentlemen, please. I do not want Connor to hear what you are talking about because I want my son to be a gentleman one day, not players like you. If you are going to teach my son to be like you, I will not allow you near him. I want my son to respect women, and I want him to take women seriously," Belinda says. I keep looking at Conner and see that he keeps looking at me. I know it's very curious about me, and I am as curious about him as he is about me. I can see that he is very clever in the way he talks. I know my son is not stupid at all. I think he's above average and intelligent. I wonder if Belinda is homeschooling him or if he is going to school. There's so much I want to find out. But Nick is not even looking like he is planning to get up and leave us alone for a little while. I glare at Nick one more time. He gets up because he knows that I am now irritated with him.

"I will call your office as soon as possible to make an appointment with you, Miss Morris. I am serious about giving all my business to you because I do not trust the Greens anymore, and old man Jones is retired," Nick says. He greets us and walks away because he knows he is in my way. I look up at Connor again, seeing the longing in his eyes. He sees me looking at him, and he smiles. He turns away and plays with the children again. I wonder if he's longing for a hug from me.

"Is Connor in school yet?" I ask.

"I did not want to put him in a school. I did not want you to find out about him. I will just be honest with you. I didn't want you in his life. He's been homeschooled, but the teachers who homeschool him say he is much more clever than his average age. They say he's a little genius," Belinda answers. I know she didn't want me to know about him because she was hiding him from me. I would not have known about him if I didn't see him today.

"So you were planning to hide him from me forever? How long did you think you could hide him from me before I learned about him? You could not hide him forever, and he will have to go to school soon," I say. I am furious at Belinda for trying to hide my son from me. Did she think I would not find out about Connor? I would have found out eventually, even if it was when he went to college. Everybody would know about him because he is a handsome little man. Women will one day chase after him. I know how it feels because women are always all over me. And now I will have to tell my parents about my son, and they will not be pleased with me. Especially my mother for not knowing him since he was a baby. She always wanted me to have children. And I know she will be very excited to get to know her grandchild, but I must get past Belinda. I will have to convince Belinda that I will be good for Connor. It won't be easy to ask, as Belinda does not trust men, especially not men like me. I used to be a player, but I'm not anymore. I used to want to hurt women until I slept with Belinda, and everything changed. She had made a lasting impression on me for a very long time. I do not understand myself. I do not know what I am going through. Am I only interested in Belinda because she's the mother of my child, or has she already made an impression on me the night we slept together? Somehow, I believe it is the latter. I do not want to admit it. I wouldn't say I like to acknowledge that I have lost my heart again. What if Belinda does want me, and she hurts me as Sharah did? Am I willing to fight for her heart? I do not know. I will have to decide when I am alone. I won't tell her about the house I am buying and that I will be moving in next door. I am unsure how she will feel about it and if she will be happy to see that I am her neighbor. I want to be close to my son.

"I don't know what I was thinking, but I just knew I wanted to keep him from you. I did not know how you would react when you found out we had a son together that night. I still don't know how that happened because we used protection. I did not expect that you would want to see him. I thought you would think that I wanted to catch you. I know that women are running after you. Not that I don't know why, but that is none of my business. I'm not one of those women. I treasure my independence, and I love my son. I don't need anybody in my life. I am happy to be alone with my son. Like I said, I won't keep him from you if he wants to see you. I know he's missing a father, and I know every boy wants to have a dad. I want to warn you if you are going to hurt him, I will come after you, and I will hurt you," Belinda says. I know she is serious, and I will not take any chances. 

"I will never hurt our son. I want to ask you if my parents can meet him, please. My parents have been looking forward to a grandchild for a long time, and they will be furious at me if they cannot see him. They will never hurt him. They will never do anything that will hurt their grandchild. They will instead protect him from anybody hurting him than anything else. I know that they will kill me for what I have done. They will tell me I should have checked up on you and ensured you were not pregnant. My parents are very good people. They are not like me. I know I was not a very good person. I have changed, though. I promise you that. I am not the player I used to be," I say.

"Let's take one step at a time. If your parents want to see him, they can see him at my house. I know you know where I live because you trove behind us when we went home," Belinda sees, and I'm surprised that she noticed I was following them. She is a remarkable woman. Other women would not have noticed that I have been followed.

"So you still went home even though you knew I was following you?" I ask.

"What was the use you have already seen your son? I couldn't hide from him from you anymore. I knew you knew he was your son the first moment you saw him because he looked like you. What was the use of me trying to hide him from you? I cannot keep him from you anymore, can I? He wants to get to know you because he longs for a father. I have noticed how he's looking at you," Belinda says. I know she's a lawyer and sees things other people will typically not see. Connor looks at us again, and I open my arms. He comes running to me, and he jumps into my arms. I hug my son for the first time. It feels good holding my son in my arms.