When her question is followed by silence, I see her watching me through the rear view mirror.I just avoid looking at her.In my wolf form, I can’t talk to her and the link we used to have is long gone. Or at least, I’ve never tried using it.There’s a strange look in her eyes when I finally meet her gaze and she finally asks, “Shift back.”I refuse, silently. The only reason I got in the jeep was so that she would not freeze to death outside. I see her expression tighten at my stubbornness.“Fine,” She mutters.She starts the jeep and then stops it, pulling out the keys from the engine.It would be easier for me to simply shift back and ask her what’s going on in her head but I refrain from doing so. Finally, after a long few seconds, she says, “Peter is a friend.”I go still at her words and then before I can even think further, she is starting the jeep. Her voice is quiet, restrained in a way it had never been before, “You shouldn’t run out into a
“I did ask her,” I say, slowly. “I asked her once before and I asked her this time.”Ezekiel freezes at my words, “What?”“I begged her,” I say, hollowly. “But she refused. She said she didn’t blame me for anything but she has no more desire to try anymore.”My gaze lifts to meet his and I feel weariness deep inside me, “You think I don’t want to just take her back with me? Despite everything I’ve done to that woman, you think I still don’t want to be selfish enough to drag her back and fix things? You say I’m playing the martyr and a coward but I don’t want to take any step which will cause any further damage to Sarah. I’ve caused her enough. If you were in my position, you would do the same. She has to choose me herself this time. She has to forgive me herself. All the groveling int he world or forcing her isn’t going to make a difference till she is ready to forgive me. And I don’t think she is.”Ezekiel is silent, “So, you’re going to just watch her choose another man t
Sarah’s hold is tight as I rest my head against her chest, trying to get myself under control.She doesn’t let go of me, even when I stop shaking.I don’t know how much time has passed but she hasn’t stopped stroking my head, trying to comfort me.At some point, I finally mutter, “I’m okay. I’m fine.”Her arms tighten around me, momentarily and then she let’s go. But she doesn’t move away.I don’t meet her gaze, feeling ashamed.I can feel that she wants to say something and a moment later, she does. But it’s not what I was expecting.“How long has this been going on for?”Her words are not soft but sharp and she sounds a little upset. Or maybe I’m just projecting.I scratch my head, still not looking at her, “Don’t worry about -““How long, Lucas?”This time there is no hiding the anger in her voice and my jaw tightens, “Does it matter? It’s my problem. It’ll go away.”“That’s not an answer.”It does occur to me, a dim thought, that when it comes
I’ve seen a motorbike only once in my life. It was a bar in a town I had once hunted down a rogue wolf shifter too.The machine had been a work of art, all sleek lines, emitting a sound that was like a fierce roar and a purr. I had admired it from afar but things like jeeps and motorbikes are not human technology that shifters ever embraced, partly because as Sarah had revealed during one of her meetings where she enforced change in the pack, the more we embraced technology, the more dangerous we would have become to the organization that is hunting us down.So we were deliberately kept in the dark ages by the moles planted in our packs.“What is that thing?” Peter asks, doubtfully.I don’t even bother to reply, walking over and running my hands over the machine, a little excited, “Where did you get this?”“I ordered a few from one of the bigger cities,” Sarah replies, quietly, after a brief hesitation.“How did you-?”I’m so excited about it that I lift my gaz
Sarah’s jaw clenches at my words but she doesn’t say anything.But her silence makes me begin to calm down and regulate my breathing. “I am not a fool,” She finally says, watching me. “But I am tired, Lucas. It doesn’t matter to me what any of them think about me.”“But Peter is -““A friend,” She says, firmly.“But you smiled at him!” I burst out.“What?” She stares at me as if I’ve suddenly grown a second head. “You smiled at him,” I mutter, feeling a little bit like an idiot now. “Back then, in the woods.You were smiling at him.”She blinks at me, “I’m not following.”Maybe it’s just me who’s gone insane.“Never mind,” I mutter, trying to push past her but she steps in my way, blocking my path.“I don’t need your permission to smile at people,” She says, tightly.I stare at her before saying quietly, “No, you don’t.”I try to walk past her again but she grabs my upper arm, stopping me. She looks frustrated, “Why are you acting like this?!”
Before the conversation can progress much further, I hear the sounds of the soldiers returning.Along with them are Sarah’s wolves who pad over to her and rub against her in lazy motions as if in greeting. Two of them wander over and give my face a few licks before settling down at my feet. I see Sarah look in my direction and for a moment, I feel as if her face has softened when’s he sees Kayla holding on to me. But when I blink, she’s already looking away.A trick of the mind, I assure myself.Kayla pets one of the wolves and I ask, idly, “What happened to that wolf pup that you used to carry around?”She blinks before letting out a childish laugh, “He was a she. She mated with one of Sarah’s wolves and has a lot of pups of her own. She brings them to all the time in my room.”I give her a blank look, before saying softly, “Time really has flown by quickly.”“Yeah,” She snuggles into my side and I give her a fake scowl.“I’m not your personal heater, you know
Before I can stop myself, I’m already next to Sarah, ready to shift at the first sign of danger.I hear the sound again and this time it’s moving closer.A few of the soldiers, roused from their sleep by the sound of Sarah unsheathing her swords are on their feet as well.The crunching of the snow is getting louder and I move towards Kayla and Sarah, protectively. I ignore the frustrated look that Sarah sends my way. Her wolves surround us, including me, their hackles rising, their teeth bared in ferocious snarls.A tired voice comes out from the trees before a familiar looking male panther steps out, “We come in peace.”The Alpha of the Night Stalkers Panther tribe looks like he’s just walked through hell and back. There’s no trace of his usual cocky smirk on his face, weariness, grief, and anger lingering in his eyes.When he takes another step forward, I notice the limp in his leg and then I see the way his left leg is badly mangled. There’s a short woman assis
I go still at that.Worry is a sharp feeling inside of me, “What do you mean?”My eyes flicker to where Sarah is handing out some medical supplies to the injured soldiers, “She seems fine.”“It’s nothing bad,” Aliya says thoughtfully. “I mean I don’t sense anything harmful in it. It’s just strange. it’s like a barrier almost.”She narrows her eyes and when I glance at her, I can see the strain on her face, “It’s like I can’t see anything. It’s nothing that can prevent physical harm. It’s more like she’s shielding Sarah against anyone who can pry within her.”“Pry within her?”Aliya’s face is red with exertion before she lets out a breath I didn’t know she had been holding, “It’s something witches can do. Or something a Phoenix might be able to do. It allows us to look inside a living creature’s body to look for illness and health. It’s an ability that healers also have to some extent. When I meet a shifter, I know who they are because I can see their wolf. That’s how