When will this end

Rose pov

I was not my self when Sean and Layla finally came. I was more than happy to enjoy our day here watching movies and eat all the snacks that we could in preparation for the fresher's ball. However as much as I tried to keep my mind off all that had happened, it somehow found it's way back. I just kept thinking about the incident with Many a few hours ago. 

Her voice keeps ringing into my head. About her love confession towards me. I know many of you are calling me a bitch or rather stupid , that maybe I should go for it. But I just cannot . I just feel it is not right for me. You just don't know how we are. To us such kind of relationships are forbidden in our culture and forbidden. They are not to be heard about. I think you all can tell where I am coming from and why I am this damn confused with life. 

" Rosey , what is wrong with you you ?" Sean asked me out of the blue. 

"What do you mean ?" I say trying to feign . I didn't