NOT ME PART 46

It was late at night, it was very cold outside. And I still don't know where the island we are currently occupying is. I don't know what happened, but suddenly—after finishing work—I felt exhausted and fell asleep immediately. However, I woke up dreaming about it again. My eyes are now teary, and I'm starting to catch my breath. I always thought, what would happen if my father was still alive. And mother is not like today. And, in my dreams that keep me awake. It materialized. Losing-was something I was never ready to face. No matter how strong I stand right now, even in the midst of many problems. Still I always wanted to feel the presence of father and mother. I want to see their smile, just one more time. The right side of my chest was pounding in pain, I felt like I wanted to cry loudly. I want to be just like any other girl, who can cry when something happens. I don't know why, but what about my disease. Am I destined to be a girl who