LOGINI stood in front of the mirror for what had to be the fifteenth time that day.
"What am I supposed to wear?"
I hadn't planned on going clubbing.
In fact, I hadn't stepped foot inside a club in... years.
So much for a relaxing vacation.
I'd spent almost the entire afternoon trying on clothes I'd packed for sightseeing, nice dinners, and lounging by the pool.
None of them screamed *Las Vegas nightclub.*
Finally, I gave up.
The black dress I'd worn to Sophie's rehearsal dinner a few nights earlier would have to do.
Thankfully, the hotel had laundry service.
At least it was clean.
I curled my hair, kept my makeup simple, and slipped on a pair of black heels that my feet were already threatening to protest.
Looking at myself in the mirror, I shrugged.
"This will have to do."
I met Darlene and a few of our old friends from San Diego outside one of the newest clubs on the Strip.
The music was so loud I could feel the bass vibrating through my chest before we even made it inside.
Lights flashed across the crowded dance floor.
The DJ stood high above the crowd while people danced like they didn't have work waiting for them on Monday.
I immediately regretted every outfit decision I'd made.
"Oh my gosh..." I muttered.
"What?" Darlene asked.
"I look like I'm going to church."
She looked me up and down before bursting into laughter.
"You do not!"
I looked around the club.
Women wore sparkly mini dresses, sky-high heels, and outfits that left very little to the imagination.
Meanwhile...
There I was.
In my simple black dress.
I suddenly felt like someone's aunt who accidentally wandered into the wrong building.
"I am severely overdressed," I said.
"I think you mean under-fun," Darlene corrected.
I rolled my eyes.
"I feel ancient."
"Mylene..."
"I'm twenty-seven."
"And?"
"I swear everyone here looks twenty-one."
She hooked her arm through mine.
"You are overthinking everything."
Maybe she was right.
Fortunately, we'd reserved a table.
The moment we sat down, I sighed with relief.
"My feet thank you."
Darlene laughed.
"I forgot how much of a grandma you are."
"I'm not a grandma."
"You've been here five minutes and you're already excited about sitting down."
"...That's fair."
Within minutes, Darlene was making friends with nearly everyone around us.
She chatted with the bartender.
She complimented strangers' outfits.
She somehow convinced an entire group of girls to join us for a selfie.
I shook my head, smiling.
Some people had that kind of personality.
Darlene could walk into a room full of strangers and leave with twenty new best friends.
I, on the other hand...
Preferred sitting quietly with my drink, watching people.
Eventually, I noticed Darlene talking to a group of guys across the club.
She laughed at something one of them said before waving enthusiastically in my direction.
Oh no.
Please don't.
I quietly pulled out my phone beneath the table.
One hour.
I started the timer.
If I stayed for one hour, I'd done my part.
I'd come out.
I'd socialized.
I'd supported my friends.
Then I could go back to my hotel, order room service, and pretend clubs no longer existed.
The hour passed surprisingly fast.
Before I knew it...
My phone vibrated.
**Timer Complete.**
I smiled to myself.
Perfect.
I slipped my phone back into my purse and quietly stood.
I'd barely taken two steps when I heard someone call my name.
"Mylene!"
I turned.
Darlene was practically dancing toward me.
"Where are you going?"
"I think I'm heading back."
"What? Already?"
"I told you I wasn't built for clubbing."
She grabbed my hand before I could protest.
"Oh, come on!"
"Darlene..."
"No excuses."
"I'm tired."
"You can be tired tomorrow."
She pointed across the club toward the group she'd been talking to all night.
"Come meet our new friends."
I laughed nervously and gently pulled my hand back.
"No thanks."
She wasn't giving up.
"Mylene..."
"I'm serious."
"It'll take two minutes."
"I don't even know them."
"That's the point!"
I shook my head.
"No, really. I'm good."
Darlene smiled the mischievous smile I'd known since we were kids.
"Oh, come on."
Before I could think of another excuse, she linked her arm through mine and started pulling me toward the group.
Against my better judgment...
I let her.
That was the last time I ever heard Matt's voice.I think he knew.If we'd kept talking...If we'd seen each other just one more time...He would have changed his mind.Instead...We kept the promise we'd never made out loud.We let each other go.Sophie handled everything I couldn't.She canceled the wedding venue.The florist.The photographer.The caterer.She informed everyone we'd invited that the wedding had been canceled.She never once complained.She simply told me not to worry about any of it.So I didn't.I couldn't.Instead...I buried myself in school.Every class.Every assignment.Every exam.If I wasn't sitting in a lecture hall, I was studying.If I wasn't studying, I was working on another project.Keeping busy was easier than sitting alone with my thoughts.Four years passed faster than I expected.I graduated magna cum laude.As I walked across the stage to accept my diploma, I couldn't help but look up.I smiled through the tears gathering in my eyes.Mom...I did
Chapter 40The flight back to Washington was surprisingly empty.When I boarded, the flight attendant smiled."Looks like you got lucky today."I glanced at my boarding pass before finding my row.No one else was there.I slid into the window seat and rested my forehead against the glass.I watched the terminal slowly drift past my window.Somewhere inside that building...Matt was still there.The engines roared louder.The plane picked up speed.Then suddenly...The ground disappeared beneath us.The roads blurred together.The hotels became tiny blocks of color.Eventually...Everything disappeared beneath a blanket of clouds.I stared at them in silence.For what felt like forever.My mind replayed the last few days.My mom.The funeral.The empty house.Matt.His quiet presence.The way he'd stayed without asking for anything in return.He never complained.Never blamed me.Never got angry.He just...Stayed.My chest tightened.A wave of shame washed over me so suddenly it stole
Matt stayed.He didn't ask me to talk.He didn't ask me what I was thinking.I could tell he felt it.The distance between us.The emptiness behind my eyes.The way I looked at him without really seeing him.He knew something had changed.He just didn't know how much.Instead of asking questions, he stayed.He picked up his bag and followed me inside.For the rest of the afternoon, he moved quietly through the house.He took out the trash.Washed the dishes piled in the sink.Carried the wilted flowers outside without asking whether I wanted to keep them.I watched him from the couch.He was trying.I knew he was.But every kind thing he did only reminded me that I had needed him days ago.Not now.Later that evening, we sat on the back porch.The sun had already disappeared, leaving the sky dark and empty.Neither of us spoke for a long time.Matt leaned forward, his elbows resting on his knees.I stared at the engagement ring on my finger.It felt heavier than it used to.Finally, h
The house still smelled like her.Her favorite lavender candle sat on the coffee table, half melted.A mug rested beside the sink.Her reading glasses were folded neatly on the arm of the couch.It looked as if she'd walk into the room at any moment."Mom?"The word escaped before I could stop it.Silence answered me.My knees gave out.I collapsed onto the living room floor, clutching the edge of the couch as sob after sob ripped through me.This wasn't supposed to happen.I was supposed to graduate.Bring home my diploma.Watch her cry happy tears as she told everyone how proud she was.Instead...I was planning my mother's funeral.I barely had time to process that she was gone before the responsibilities began piling up.The next few days blurred together.There were forms to sign.Phone calls to answer.Flowers to order.People asking questions I never imagined I'd have to answer."What songs would your mother have wanted?""What color should the flowers be?""What would you like
Keeping my promise to my mom became the only thing that kept me moving.Every morning, I'd wake up before sunrise.Go to class.Study until the library closed.Then return to my dorm and study some more.I told myself that if I stayed busy...I wouldn't have time to think.It worked.At least during the day.The nights were different.Every time my phone rang, my heart skipped a beat.Sometimes it was Mom.Sometimes it was Sophie.Sometimes it was Sophie's mom.Each call became part update...Part reassurance."I made her soup today.""She finally ate a little.""She smiled when I showed her your picture.""We watched one of those old Asian movies she likes."Over the yearsSophie's mom became more than my best friend's mother.She became my mom's best friend.Just as Sophie and I had found each other years ago...They found each other too.Knowing she wasn't alone made carrying the distance a little easier.Not much.Just enough.Whenever I spoke to Mom, she always sounded tired.But
Matt did everything he could to make up for not being there.A few days before Christmas, boxes started arriving at my dorm.A scarf.My favorite chocolates.A matching wallet and purse.Even a customized snow globe with two people standing beneath falling snow.Every gift reminded me of how well he knew me.And how badly he wished he could be there.I smiled as I opened each one.I thanked him over the phone.I meant every word.But if I was being honest...I would've traded every single gift just to have him beside me.I'd have given anything to feel his arms around me.I picked up the tiny snow globe and gently shook it.The snow swirled around the little couple standing together beneath it.I wished that was us.Together.Holding each other.I smiled through watery eyes before setting it back on my desk.My phone buzzed.It was Sophie.The moment I answered, I was greeted by the sound of laughter.Someone shouted while kids ran through the background.Christmas music played merril







