ONTF- 6

JOANNA'S POV

They said in order to forget your problems, all you need is to be drunked with alcoholic drinks. But I never tried dinking and going to the bar for my entire life. Jea would pushed and invited me to the bar before, but I had always refused to go with her and some of her friends. I find it not good or not suitable for girls hanging out with that kind of place.

Even though I am already at my legal age, I just wanted to be pleasing to the eyes of Papa so I just stayed home after school instead. I don't know what's that they usually call "night life", this is the first time that I am going out of my own.

I don't care anymore if Papa will get mad at me.To hell with his manipulation, this will be the start of my rebellion. From this moment on, I will say goodbye to my old self, the good daughter, obedient and honest.

Instead of heading home, I turn the engine towards other direction not minding the bad weather.I don't even know a single name of a bar or any club.So, I just parked at the nearest convenient store to buy some soda and beer drinks for myself.

I bought one dozen beer in cans and some chips. I payed in cash to the counter.I had kept some paper bills in my wallet. I am a thrifty person so I had an abundant savings.

Although my father was a billionaire, I don't put that on my head and spend extravagantly.I still believe in the saying that frugality saves a person in times of need.

I drove the car away from the store and headed to my fave spot, where I can be in solitude. It's still early for bar hopping as what Jea usually mentioned when she invited me to go with her and I will just said that I can join her at six in the evening only.

When I reached my secret place, I off the engine and stopped the car, I looked outside to see the bursting and outpouring rain. I can't go out and view the setting of the sun. Anyway, Mr.Sun hid himself from me now.Only Mr. Rain sympathized of how I felt right now.

I am on the top view of the whole city. I discovered this vacant lot with an uphill view, overlooking the grandiose city when I was still sixteen years old when I missed to locate the exact address of Jea.Out of nowhere I just found myself being here.

It was also my first time to ride a motorbike that was a gift from Papa at my sixteen birthday.And that started how I love this place to visit from time to time; to breath and to relax. I felt a feeling of homage and tranquility in here than our huge mansion.

I wondered why this vacant lot has not been cultivated and being put up with buildings or even developed by the owner. Usually, at my free time, I brought my sketch pad here and draw my heart and mind out.

I breathe out a deep sigh and opened a can of beer.I drunk it all the way and throw out the empty can at the back of my car. I turned on my playlist at my built-in music player on my car.

I hummed my favorite sentimental music while tears kept falling on my face. I am a sad person ever since I was just a kid. Maybe, the loneliness I had inside me will never go away for the rest of my life. It's so difficult to be happy.Why does fate made me this way?

I munched some chips while drinking beer. I was not able to count how many cans did I consumed when I looked at the cans beside me there were three cans left. I just made a fake smile to myself. Yes, I did it. This was my first time to drink but it looked as though I was expert already.