Aubree's Pov
*Then*
We began to have clashes, a lot of them. Not only because Jaden was lying, but also because he wasn't spending his time with me. He used to come home late at night, then claimed that he had work to do.
But I knew best. He wasn't out for work, he was out there with Isla. She told me about this everyday. She called me each and every day and told me that Jaden still loved her and that he spent his whole time with her. It broke my heart to know this though. My heart drained with the knowledge of this information. Isla told me this, just because she was being a good friend and wanted me to know the reality. She told me that she wanted him to stop, but he never did.
He was married to me, yet he wasn't into me not even now. What did this mean? He just married me so that he could be good in the eyes of his parents, and this world. He had married a broken girl, but was
Aubree's Pov*Now*The love that I gave him, was never reciprocated by him earlier. The love that he felt for me, never even reached me. And when we were finally on the verge of getting together, we were ripped apart all over again, that too by my own best friend.What did I do to deserve this? If I was betrayed because of the trust that I withheld in my best friend, then I would never be able to trust anyone else again.The girl who asked me what to wear, how to dress up, who copied all my homework, the girl who sang with me when we were all drunk and rolled down the streets, laughing and screaming profanities at all the passerbys. She actually shared each and every moment of her life with me. The woman who was now married to my best friend. How could I even face him and tell him about what she had done?You have no idea what people are capable of doing if pushed enough. It may not seem rational, but then, again, nothing
Aubree's POVOne step forward, then the other following the same ordeal and stepping further, just a robotic movement and I knew I could do it. After all, I had endured much worse situaions in my life, other than walking on the aisle.My emotionless face, my tear stained eyes, my smudged blush and the imperfect lip gloss were hidden from the eyes of this world with a white veil. But now I knew that it would be the last day that I would cry for such a person. The last day that I had cried for my best friend Laura.The entire hall was full with people that I knew, who used to love me, but then, who knew the truth any longer?My face was still emotionless, just staring at the man who stood at the altar, ready to accept me as his love again, and this time, no one could separate us.It strained my heart. Well, strained wasn't even the word to define how my heart felt. Ever since I met her, I knew she would be my best friend forever. Who
Aubree's Pov*Beep Beep Beep*Was this an alarm clock ringing above my head? Its voice was getting louder and louder, hence making me nauseous. Oh god! I just wish someone would come and switch that thing off.I tried to open my eyes, but my head was throbbing with the wildest pain that I have ever experienced in my life. This pain was hundred times more than the pain I experienced during the worst of hangovers. What did I do to end up like this?*Beep Beep Beep*I heard the noise again; this sound was making me sick. Was this another hangover? If it was, I would never drink again, because it was hurting in every joint of my body. I was trying to open my eyes, but it felt as if my entire body was bound with chains and was being controlled by some external force. I could not move my hands or my feet.I wondered why I was feeling such a pain in my entire body. I did not even remember why I was feelin
Aubree's Pov When you start thinking about what your life was like 10 years ago--and not in general terms, but in highly specific detail--it's disturbing to realize how certain elements of your being are completely dead. They die long before you do. It's astonishing to consider all the things from your past that used to happen all the time but (a) never happen anymore, and (b) never even cross your mind. It's almost like those things didn't happen. Or maybe it seems like they just happened to someone else. To someone you don't really know. To someone you just hung out with for one night, and now you can't even remember her name. Some time ago, the biggest worry for me was that my assignments would be piled up at my desk, that I would have missed a lot of classes, and that my parents would be mad at me. After all, this is what an average teenager worries about. However, right now, my life had taken an entire U-turn, making me feel som
Aubree'sPov When I woke up the next time, I felt something heavy on my stomach. I tried to lift my head, and saw Jaden lying asleep on me. I stared at him and my heart fluttered with joy. Never in a million years did I imagine that he could fall in love with me, let alone the thought of him marrying me. I don't know how it happened and I had so many question on my mind. We seem to be going through a period of nostalgia, and everyone seems to think yesterday was better than today. I don't think it was, and I would advise you not to wait ten years before admitting today was great. If you're hung up on nostalgia, pretend today is yesterday and just go out and have one hell of a time. He was lying on me, and I was still half asleep, wondering what I did to deserve this moment. There was something special about this moment, about sharing a blanket and body heat. To bare your soul in a cover of
Aubree's Pov Jaden walked into the room and sat next to me. "Are you feeling good today?" He asked me while putting a pot of forget-me-nots next to the bed. "Thanks for the flowers, and yes I feel better today." I said with a toothy grin on my face. "Well, I chose these flowers for you because you did not forget me." He said and we both chuckled. "Anyway, your parents have come to meet you." He said while staring at me, while I felt heat rising in my cheeks. How could I face my parents? They must be very worried about me. "I want to see them." I said and averted my eyesight towards the door. "Fine, I'll bring them in" He said and kissed my forehead before heading out to bring them in the room It was way too distracting to look at him. He made me feel the same way he used to back when we were friends. I hope it would not have changed in these past ten years that I had forgotten. But the way he was treati
Aubree'sPov Three days later, I was ready to go back home. After tons of checkups, and millions of blood tests, I was now sitting in a black Mercedes, ready to go to the place where I was living with Jaden. It felt so good, that I would finally be leaving the place where I ended up mysteriously, even though all the staff was so good, but still living in a hospital is depressing on it's own, let alone when you have forgotten all the memories from the past ten years of your life. I hated it, like I did not even remember my wedding day, a day that I had been planning since I was just a little girl and when I used to watch fairy tales with my childhood friends and we used to dress each other in wedding dresses made of pillow covers and have fake weddings to each other, obviously it is strange that I remembered my childhood but not my youth. Neverthless, even though all my test reports came out to be good,
Aubree's Pov The next day when I woke up, I was welcomed with the sweet smell of pancakes. Do you wake up as I do, having forgotten what it is that hurts or where, until you move? There is a second of consciousness that is clean again. A second that is you, without memory or experience, the animal warm and waking into a brand new world. There is the sun dissolving the dark, and light as clear as music, filling the room where you sleep and the other rooms behind your eyes. Waking up begins with saying am and now. That which has awoken then lies for a while staring up at the ceiling and down into itself until it has recognized I, and therefrom deduced I am, I am now. Here comes next, and is at least negatively reassuring; because here, this morning, is where it has expected to find itself: what’s called at home. We awaken by asking the right questions. We awaken when we see knowledge being spread that goes against our own personal