Mag-log in“I’m Alpha Matthias Crowe. This is my pack, I’m the one throwing this event. It’s an honor to have the presence of a council member.” Matthias looked as if he'd been slapped in the face, but he recovered quickly.
“Oh, my apologies. Many people have come up to me today, I thought you were one of them.” The man said indifferently.
“I’m so sorry if they’re bothering you. We could go somewhere more private.” Matthias continued to extend the invitation.
But for some reason, Cassiel's gaze seemed to shift toward me. He then said to Matthias “That won’t be necessary. Part of being an alpha is entertaining people, right?”
Matthias fakes a laugh. “Yes. It’s part of the job.”
I exhale softly, trying to settle the whirlwind of emotion stirring in my chest. But I can feel Alpha Cassiel's eyes on me—sharp, golden, curious. The man is... utterly enthralling. Not just handsome in the traditional sense, but arresting. Magnetic. The kind of presence that makes a room pause. His scent reaches me, subtle yet intoxicating, and it raises goosebumps along my arms.
He hadn’t batted an eye when I declined alcohol earlier. No judgment, no probing questions. Just a nod and a quiet order to have a mocktail made instead. That small gesture had said more than words could.
Being out here, away from the party and its clinking glasses, forced laughter, and lingering tension, should’ve made me feel better. But instead, it made the anxiety louder in my head. Every quiet second was another second for my doubts to scream.
Can I really do this?
Being a pregnant rogue with no real title, no pack to call my own… It’s a death sentence in this world. No pack will take me in. No alpha would accept the burden of someone else's child. What future could I possibly give my child?
I don’t even have enough money for myself. Besides what Matthias gives me, which I now have to start saving and stop giving to my family. There should be a settlement if the divorce goes well, but who knows? This whole thing, getting my own place, getting a job while being pregnant, how will I handle it all?
“You okay?”
Cassiel’s voice breaks through the noise in my head. I blink and glance at him, startled by how attuned he is to me.
I sip my mocktail to hide the way my hands tremble. “Yes,” I lie, the word light but brittle. “Just a little nervous. I don’t like parties.”
I focus my eyes on the view instead of him. It’s easier to look at the street lights than at the alpha, whose stare feels like it sees straight through me. There's something unnerving about the way his eyes linger, like he's reading a book I've tried so hard to keep shut. Why does he look at me like that? We haven’t met until today.
“Does your husband know that?” he asks, his voice even, calm. The question confuses me. He continued. “I don’t see why you’d need to be here if it makes you uncomfortable.”
It’s such a simple statement, but it catches me off guard. The sheer normalcy of it. The compassion. He says it like it's the most obvious thing in the world. For a husband to consider his wife’s feelings. But it’s not normal—at least, not in my world.
He’s supposed to be ruthless. That’s what they say about Alpha Cassiel Aldric—the cold, cunning leader of the Ravager Pack. Profitable, powerful, feared. And yet here he is, looking at me like I matter. Weird. Perhaps he’s just a decent person.
“Thank you,” I say softly, trying to gather myself. “But as the Luna…” I stop and clear my throat. I’m not really that, am I? Not in anything but the title. I tried not to feel awkward as I corrected myself. “As Matthias’s wife, I’m expected to accompany him to events like this.”
Cassiel tilts his head slightly. The motion is subtle but disarmingly attractive. I mentally scold myself for even noticing.
Until my divorce is finalized—goddess, my heart stutters—I shouldn’t even let those thoughts cross my mind. I need to speak with Matthias’s parents. That’s the next step. One of many. And yet, the sheer idea of it exhausts me.
Cassiel glances behind us toward the ballroom and lets out a low sigh. Then, without a word, he reaches into the inner pocket of his tailored suit and pulls out a card.
“Here,” he says, slipping it into my hand. “If you ever need a council member... call me.”
I don’t even get a chance to respond. The gesture leaves me frozen, staring at the card in my palm like it’s made of gold and glass. Something valuable and breakable all at once. Then the balcony doors swing open.
I snap out of my daze and curl my fingers around the card just as Matthias steps out. His face is bright with a smile—for Cassiel. Not me. Of course, it isn’t for me. He doesn’t feel that way. I’m a nuisance.
“I’ve found a good place for us to talk. Right this way,” he says cheerfully.
Cassiel gives a small nod, but not before shooting me one last look. A look that, for reasons I can’t explain, feels like reluctance. Like, he doesn’t want to go. My chest tightens.
Matthias doesn’t even glance at me.
As they disappear back into the crowd, something twists painfully in my stomach. I press a hand against it, then stagger toward the nearest flower pot just in time to vomit.
My fingers are still clenched around Cassiel’s card.
I rinse my mouth with my mocktail, the taste of bitterness lingering longer than it should. I stare down at the card, reading the name and number over and over.
I shouldn’t. I can’t. If Matthias finds out, he’ll think I’m trying to sabotage him.
But why does that matter anymore?
Why should I care what he thinks? Why should I protect someone who never protected me? Matthias made his feelings perfectly clear. I was never wanted. I was never chosen. I was forced upon him when the true person he wanted died.
But now... there’s someone else who offered me help without asking for anything in return. Someone who looked at me like I was a person. Not a shadow. Not a ghost. He’s a nice man, and he’s in a position to help me with my divorce.
If it comes down to it, I will call Alpha Cassiel. Because I need to stop thinking like a broken woman desperate to be loved. I’m not just someone’s wife anymore. I’m going to be a mother.
And before my child is born, I have to start choosing myself.
Even if it means tearing down the life I once tried so hard to hold together.
I won’t call him, not now. I need to find Matt’s mother. And I need to get that divorce form so I can kick-start this. I will not remain second place.
Eliana and I headed up the stairs. We could hear music blasting through one of the doors, so this place isn't exactly sound proof. It's not like Ceila can't afford a house. Her grandparents did leave her their home as well, but she prefers to live in this apartment complex because it's closer to her work. Eliana pulled out her phone to check on the fight, and I looked away. I didn't want to panic, then lose sight of the part I'm supposed to be playing. But I could hear the whispers even though she'd lowered the volume. The reporter was screaming; something had gone wrong. Eliana tensed next to me, then turned the screen off and shoved her phone back into her pocket. The sounds I'd heard didn't make me feel confident, but since I didn't see it, I can delude myself into thinking everything is perfectly fine. I stepped up the stairs, eventually stopping on the third floor. My heart was pounding, and my nerves were all over the place. I raised my hand, curling my fingers into a fist,
With the car out of sight I was panicking even more. Fuck, this is so bad. This is so freaking bad. I don't want to jinx Cassiel by thinking negatively, but let's be honest, evil people don't just go down like that. I continued staring at the driveway through the window before finally dragging myself away. No time to waste, I told myself. I grabbed a free bag and shoved everything I needed. Then dressed for the occasion. I walked out of the room once I was sure I had all my essentials. Eliana was standing right in the hallway, baseball cap on, face mask, and hoodie to ensure she couldn't be noticed. “Are you ready to go?” she asked, pushing away from the wall. “No, but I don't have a choice.”“Yeah, this was your idea.” I can see her eyes rolling. I reached into my bag and pulled out some sunglasses.“Here, add this, your eyes are easy to recognize.” I hand them over to her, and she thanks me. “I know it was my idea.” I finally say. “But that doesn't mean I'm happy about it. I ho
Today is the day. I'm not as worried as I should be. I know I'm going to win. I know it in my bones. Or I'm deluding myself either way I feel pretty confident. Matthias drives us to the location. He insisted on going with me even when I wanted him to stay with Aurielle.What a weird guy. I stayed silent the whole way, thinking about Creighton. He's older, and in my experience, that usually means they're very weak, or they've had enough experience to give them an advantage. I'm not sure which lane he falls into, but I'll learn that when I see him. People will be watching, for my pride and sense of peace, I have to win. Mostly, I need to be around my mate for the rest of our lives. I cannot lose. Perhaps that's why I think I'll win. I mean, I'm going to kill him. He's not going to live. Treason against the region is death by execution, so his death is practically sealed. I closed my eyes and started to do something I hadn't done since I was a kid, and I would hide out in my closet to
The last three days before the fight slipped through my fingers faster than I wanted them to. Too fast, honestly. I kept hoping time would slow down, stretch itself thin, give us room to breathe. But it didn’t. Before I was even ready for it, the seventh day arrived like a verdict being read aloud. It was time. No more breaks. No more excuses. No more last-minute ways to prepare. Whatever we were walking into… we were already walking.That morning, I sat upright on the edge of my bed, knees pulled close, watching Cassiel move around the room with that sharp, clipped precision he gets when he’s forcing himself to stay composed. He was packing a small duffel full of the bare essentials only. He’d already sent the mercenaries ahead at dawn to prep the forest clearing where the fight would take place. Traps, perimeters, vantage points… everything to tilt the odds even slightly in his favor. He also needed the mercenaries to ensure that the rogue didn't keep people that would ambush him or
Aurielle and I returned to the house still riding the warm, honey-soft glow of the night we shared. My body felt loose, and my thoughts were drifting, still tangled in the memory of her hands, her voice, the way she gasped when I touched her. I loved seeing the marks on her skin, faint but visible enough to claim her in a way that made something primal inside me purr. I had been a little rough, but she had never complained. In fact, the way she clung to me, tightened around my cock, told me she liked it. Maybe more than she wanted to admit.But that magical night was already fading. Reality was clawing its way back into place. I had three more days until the fight, three more days to prepare, three more days before everything changed.We had barely stepped through the doorway when Matthias came barreling down the stairs. His phone was clutched in one hand, his eyes wide, his breathing uneven. He looked like he had been running laps around the house for hours.“We need to talk, Cassiel
I couldn’t sleep the entire night. After Aurielle and Cassiel left the house for their date, neither of them even noticed I had been standing in the kitchen like some forgotten piece of furniture. Once the door shut behind them, the silence in the house became unbearable. I paced from room to room for hours, unable to sit still, unable to think clearly, unable to do anything except replay the same thoughts until I felt dizzy.Eventually I forced myself onto my bed, but lying down did nothing to help. My eyes stayed wide open, fixed on the ceiling as if it held all the answers I needed. My mind kept circling the same thing. Three days. Only three more days until this nightmare ends. Three days that would probably feel like three years. Three days of swallowing my pride and watching the relationship between the world’s most irritatingly confident wolf and my mate unfold right in front of me. Three days of pretending I was fine.I will be fine, just not today.I dragged my hands over my







