“I’m Alpha Matthias Crowe. This is my pack, I’m the one throwing this event. It’s an honor to have the presence of a council member.” Matthias looked as if he'd been slapped in the face, but he recovered quickly.
“Oh, my apologies. Many people have come up to me today, I thought you were one of them.” The man said indifferently.
“I’m so sorry if they’re bothering you. We could go somewhere more private.” Matthias continued to extend the invitation.
But for some reason, Cassiel's gaze seemed to shift toward me. He then said to Matthias “That won’t be necessary. Part of being an alpha is entertaining people, right?”
Matthias fakes a laugh. “Yes. It’s part of the job.”
I exhale softly, trying to settle the whirlwind of emotion stirring in my chest. But I can feel Alpha Cassiel's eyes on me—sharp, golden, curious. The man is... utterly enthralling. Not just handsome in the traditional sense, but arresting. Magnetic. The kind of presence that makes a room pause. His scent reaches me, subtle yet intoxicating, and it raises goosebumps along my arms.
He hadn’t batted an eye when I declined alcohol earlier. No judgment, no probing questions. Just a nod and a quiet order to have a mocktail made instead. That small gesture had said more than words could.
Being out here, away from the party and its clinking glasses, forced laughter, and lingering tension, should’ve made me feel better. But instead, it made the anxiety louder in my head. Every quiet second was another second for my doubts to scream.
Can I really do this?
Being a pregnant rogue with no real title, no pack to call my own… It’s a death sentence in this world. No pack will take me in. No alpha would accept the burden of someone else's child. What future could I possibly give my child?
I don’t even have enough money for myself. Besides what Matthias gives me, which I now have to start saving and stop giving to my family. There should be a settlement if the divorce goes well, but who knows? This whole thing, getting my own place, getting a job while being pregnant, how will I handle it all?
“You okay?”
Cassiel’s voice breaks through the noise in my head. I blink and glance at him, startled by how attuned he is to me.
I sip my mocktail to hide the way my hands tremble. “Yes,” I lie, the word light but brittle. “Just a little nervous. I don’t like parties.”
I focus my eyes on the view instead of him. It’s easier to look at the street lights than at the alpha, whose stare feels like it sees straight through me. There's something unnerving about the way his eyes linger, like he's reading a book I've tried so hard to keep shut. Why does he look at me like that? We haven’t met until today.
“Does your husband know that?” he asks, his voice even, calm. The question confuses me. He continued. “I don’t see why you’d need to be here if it makes you uncomfortable.”
It’s such a simple statement, but it catches me off guard. The sheer normalcy of it. The compassion. He says it like it's the most obvious thing in the world. For a husband to consider his wife’s feelings. But it’s not normal—at least, not in my world.
He’s supposed to be ruthless. That’s what they say about Alpha Cassiel Aldric—the cold, cunning leader of the Ravager Pack. Profitable, powerful, feared. And yet here he is, looking at me like I matter. Weird. Perhaps he’s just a decent person.
“Thank you,” I say softly, trying to gather myself. “But as the Luna…” I stop and clear my throat. I’m not really that, am I? Not in anything but the title. I tried not to feel awkward as I corrected myself. “As Matthias’s wife, I’m expected to accompany him to events like this.”
Cassiel tilts his head slightly. The motion is subtle but disarmingly attractive. I mentally scold myself for even noticing.
Until my divorce is finalized—goddess, my heart stutters—I shouldn’t even let those thoughts cross my mind. I need to speak with Matthias’s parents. That’s the next step. One of many. And yet, the sheer idea of it exhausts me.
Cassiel glances behind us toward the ballroom and lets out a low sigh. Then, without a word, he reaches into the inner pocket of his tailored suit and pulls out a card.
“Here,” he says, slipping it into my hand. “If you ever need a council member... call me.”
I don’t even get a chance to respond. The gesture leaves me frozen, staring at the card in my palm like it’s made of gold and glass. Something valuable and breakable all at once. Then the balcony doors swing open.
I snap out of my daze and curl my fingers around the card just as Matthias steps out. His face is bright with a smile—for Cassiel. Not me. Of course, it isn’t for me. He doesn’t feel that way. I’m a nuisance.
“I’ve found a good place for us to talk. Right this way,” he says cheerfully.
Cassiel gives a small nod, but not before shooting me one last look. A look that, for reasons I can’t explain, feels like reluctance. Like, he doesn’t want to go. My chest tightens.
Matthias doesn’t even glance at me.
As they disappear back into the crowd, something twists painfully in my stomach. I press a hand against it, then stagger toward the nearest flower pot just in time to vomit.
My fingers are still clenched around Cassiel’s card.
I rinse my mouth with my mocktail, the taste of bitterness lingering longer than it should. I stare down at the card, reading the name and number over and over.
I shouldn’t. I can’t. If Matthias finds out, he’ll think I’m trying to sabotage him.
But why does that matter anymore?
Why should I care what he thinks? Why should I protect someone who never protected me? Matthias made his feelings perfectly clear. I was never wanted. I was never chosen. I was forced upon him when the true person he wanted died.
But now... there’s someone else who offered me help without asking for anything in return. Someone who looked at me like I was a person. Not a shadow. Not a ghost. He’s a nice man, and he’s in a position to help me with my divorce.
If it comes down to it, I will call Alpha Cassiel. Because I need to stop thinking like a broken woman desperate to be loved. I’m not just someone’s wife anymore. I’m going to be a mother.
And before my child is born, I have to start choosing myself.
Even if it means tearing down the life I once tried so hard to hold together.
I won’t call him, not now. I need to find Matt’s mother. And I need to get that divorce form so I can kick-start this. I will not remain second place.
He didn’t do anything, though. It was like he was realizing things weren’t going to be sweet over here just because he deluded himself into romanticizing a life that could have been. “You might hate me... I get that. But don’t treat me like I’m a burden.”“You are a burden. You showed up here, and you had no right to do such a thing. Do you have any idea how difficult this has been for my mother? Hell, even my father? He’s dealing with a mistake he made ages ago. What is wrong with you? What did you gain? You want a family that didn’t do anything wrong with you. Being ungrateful for the family that wanted you.” I exhaled and pinched the bridge of my nose. “Tell me what Cassiel did to you that made you think I would treat you better?”Rhysland didn’t answer right away. He stared at my desk and stayed like that for seven minutes. I was patient. My goal here isn’t to rush anything. It’s to understand him so I can plan for the unexpected. “Speak, Rhysland. You have to understand, Cassi
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I opened another tab as the recording continued. I searched up Anton to see what he’s been up to. There were several articles buried under a pile of nonsense involving different Antons that weren’t him. The articles talked about a werewolf extremist who has been kicked from several packs for making violent remarks towards innocent people and attacking some.He’d shift and attempt to maul someone like he’s lost his mind. Those articles talked about him. First and last name, but no photos were posted. Victor: Don’t use that tone on me again.Nerissa: Or what? This bastard is going to kill us both. I wouldn’t be in this mess had you just been honest.Victor laughs. Victor: This is on me? Really? You wouldn’t be in this if you’d been grateful for the family and dick you were riding. But you wanted more. And now you have more. So shut the fuck up.Nerissa goes silent. Then Victor continues his tirade.Victor: Never forget that I know everything you’ve done. I can have your life ruined if
I'm not sure when we switched positions, but I'm not complaining. We'd started slowly after Cassiel got in all the way. He let me set the pace. And I'd set it really slow. I must have said something that got the wolf in him hungry because moments later I was gripping onto the edge of the tub for dear life, on my knees as Cassiel pumped into me. My wet hair clung to my skin, water sloshed left and right. Spilling onto the floor. The only sounds that filled the bathroom were Cassiel's grunts of pleasure and my moans which seemed to get high pitched with each thrust. I could barely keep my eyes open. Feeling in my chest, creeping all over my body- “Cassiel! Fuck, oh god.” - made it harder for me to breathe normally but that was fine. Who needs oxygen when you've got pleasure. Cassiel's hands grew tighter around my hips. One moved up my spine, and he wrapped it around my hair. Yanking my head back as his body closed in around mine.His mouth captured mine, swallowing my moans as our
I turned around in the tub and lowered myself onto his lap, my knees bracketing his thighs as I placed my hands on his shoulders. My heart was pounding so fast I was sure he could feel it through my chest. I didn’t speak a word, I didn’t need to. My lips hovered a breath away from Cassiel’s, and then I closed the distance.The kiss was deep, hungry, like we had both been holding back for far too long. His hands slid to my hips, gripping me firmly, pulling me until there wasn’t a sliver of space between us. I could feel him, hot and hard beneath the water, pressing against me. The awareness sent a shiver through me, my body betraying how much I wanted him.This was the memory I wanted to make right now. I want to be the one to push us through the one thing we have yet to do.Have sex. It was my fault the first time. I was drunk, and tired, but this time... while the tub is not the best place I won’t let that stop me. Our mouths moved together in a rhythm that felt inevitable, urgent b
I woke up before cassiel. My sleep had been rough. I couldn’t stand the thought of cassiel being in danger. And the fact that he could sleep peacefully was bothering me. Did he not value his life? His pack? Was he too confident? Or was he hiding his worry to ensure i didn’t freak out? So many questions. Very few answers. I looked up at him. His defined features, highlighted even more by the rays of sunlight peeking in through the curtains. I reached up, running my fingers over his jawline. Tracing patterns I’d gotten used to since we became something much more. It’s fair to admit i was in love with this man. I mean it was obvious, my heart stood no chance. I just have to find the time to tell him before death comes knocking at our door.I rested my chin on his chest, feeling the rise and fall as he took in each breath. I recalled everything that happened the night before. To be honest, i don’t really care about what’s going on matthias’s life, or his family’s life. None of those th