Chapter 8

Chapter 8

Daniella's POV

My heart pounded in my chest as I stared at him, unable to look away. 

In my head, there was no news that could be worse than the one I had already been told. 

But then he spoke - “It will be nearly impossible to conduct an abortion for you" 

I froze, my hands stuck in the air as I had begun to stand up. My eyes found his and I couldn't help but ask, “What does that mean? I can just get the pills right?" 

He shook his head, somehow the pity on his face had worsened. The lines on his forehead had deepened. He went around to the chair, closer to me as if to offer some comfort before he answered. “It's not possible because your womb is too weak for it" 

I began to shake my head in disbelief. “No" I whispered but to myself rather than him.  

He wasn't done, “Unfortunately you have a weak structure, as a child your uterus didn't develop as long as it needed to, this means that the littlest damage to it can cause life altering damage and even death" he winced as he said it. 

My body sagged on the chair, unable to say or ask anything else. He had said all he needed to and the truth was right there. 

“Does that mean I have to carry it?" My hands fell to my stomach as I asked. 

He was slow to nod but eventually he did and confirmed my worst fears. “You have to" 

Still, I didn't want to believe it so easily. "But the pregnancy is new, there's hardly been any days carrying it. I don't think it would still be as destructive” tears welled in my eyes. 

He sighed, "I hate to break it to you but even at this stage it's impossible”

Throughout the rest of the appointment, I was lost in my mind. As much as I tried to listen to him, my mind was somewhere else. It was all too much and at the same time. I had been pregnant yesterday and thought I would be fine and now that choice was gone. 

It didn't matter how many times I asked him, his answer was the same each time. 

Somehow, I made it home even if I didn't remember how exactly I did it. The last thing I was aware of doing was signing on the documents the receptionist had given me. 

In front of the mirror, I stared at myself and my bare stomach. 

Inside me, I was carrying a child, his child. There was nothing I could do about it. The only option I had was gone. 

“Oh god" I muttered to myself. 

Suddenly, everything was bleak again. It wasn't just about the child anymore. My own life had suddenly slowed down. School was far from over and now that a baby had come in the picture, I didn't know how I would navigate it. 

Even the mere thought of appearing in school with a baby bump was enough to break me. Only god knew what Freya would do if she found the truth out. I would never know a day of peace again. 

I paced back and forth in my room. There was only one thing I could do at that point, only one. 

The pillow underneath me was wet with tears as I realized the choices I had. 

If I decided to get rid of the baby, I could die or maybe I would suffer an even worse fate. The risk was too much, life threatening in fact. 

Still, if I chose to keep it then it meant that I would potentially be ruining my life, education and everything after that. My parents wouldn't even be able to look me in the face. How would I face the other students?

Another fear was Professor Kent. 

What if he rejected him? He had thought I was a prostitute after all, someone to just pay after sex. Would he even believe the child was his if he thought I was characterless? He was a professor after all, if he accepted the child and if that meant risking his career then I wasn't worth it. 

My body shook fervently as I cried out, screaming into my pillow. 

Suddenly there was a flash of image as he thrusted into me and released the warm liquid inside me. 

I pushed it away as quickly as I could, ignoring the small tingles. If only I had warned him beforehand or left as soon as I realized what was happening. There were so many things I could have done to prevent it from happening but it was already too late. 

Somehow, I managed to sleep even if it was with a pulsing headache. This time as I slept, I willed myself not to dream about him. 

Morning came and it was Monday, my suspension was over and I had to be in school. There could be no more running from reality anymore. 

It was also the day I had to take a step with the decision I had made. I couldn't get rid of the child and that meant I had to accept it for what it was. It also meant that I couldn't run away from him anymore. 

Professor Kent had to know what happened. Even if he didn't accept the child as his, at least I would know I had tried. I didn't know what would happen after that but it was a start, a risk I had to take. 

Somehow I wasn't lucky enough, as soon as I entered the school, the first person i saw Freya. She was next to Gareth, both of them where whispering something into each other's ears. 

As soon as I walked in, I felt everyone's attention on me. My cheeks turned red as I tried to rush past. 

“The slut is back" 

“I wonder if she fucked someone else while on suspension" i heard someone whisper. 

“Maybe she came to school to find another client" 

They continued but Freya's voice broke through the crowd. “Let the slut through. I don't want her to tell the principal she was being bullied" 

I was tempted to look up from the ground but refused. 

She wasn't done and neither was Gareth, “She doesn't feel any shame because why is she here? Does she think this school wants anything to do with her?" 

His words stung, somehow harder than Freya's. 

Freya's giggle filled the hallway, “She probably just wants to sleep with more people" 

"What's happening here?” A powerful and familiar voice bellowed. 

I looked up to find him standing at the end of the hallway. He was looking through the crowd as if for someone and just as his eyes swung my way, I ducked out. 

Before he could see more, I hid behind a locker and waited. 

"Nothing sir” Freya's voice was quiet, like an Angel's. 

I didn't know what his expression was but I could hear him walk closer, “Then disperse and get ready for class. It starts in ten minutes" and then he was quiet. 

After he had passed me, I rushed out to find him walking out the entrance. 

As I rushed to join him, I heard Gareth mutter to Freya, “She probably wants to fuck him again" 

This time I didn't wait to hear their response, not after Professor Kent had already disappeared from view. I was almost running by the time I made it outside.

I heard the car rev up first before I saw him clearly. 

"Professor Kent” I called out, rushing towards his car. 

He was too many cars away and had already backed out then. He didn't see me. 

Still I didn't stop, "Please wait”

His car was out of the parking lot already.