I reached Jane's apartment before it was 12pm. I didn't know what else to do after Mrs. Uju chased me out of her house.
"Who is that?" Jane asked as she turned the door knob at the opposite end.
"Perer," I said.
"Come inside."
I moved silently and quickly towards the couch and waited to see what would happen. The sitting room light came on, blindingly bright; I blinked as I sat tensed.
"Are you sure you are alright, Perer?" Jane asked.
"I am fine," I lied.
Jane stood steps away from me, covering her breasts with both hands. She was wearing a tank top and a plain white skirt. I knew she was worried about my sudden visit so was I.
"Can I get you something to drink?" She asked, wondering if she had made the best approach to get into my thoughts.
"No, I am fine."
"You don't look fine to me," she raised her eyebrows. "What happened to you?"
I kept q
The first day of July should bring fresh flowers! Shouldn't it? The first day of July should bring peace! Shouldn't it? The first day of July should bring joy! Shouldn't it?"How was your trip from Lagos to Enugu?" Uncle Max took a coin I had never seen before and tossed it while my eyes circled as I watched it reach its maximum height and fall. He did it twice."It was boring," I said."Why was it boring?" Uncle Max asked."Because I had to sit alone in the back seat with a pregnant woman. She kept on complaining about her stomach as if I was the one that planted it in there."Uncle Max laughed. "Pregnancy is a heavy load to carry. You know she was just reacting to internal disturbances.""I know! Internal disturbances I didn't start. I hate when people bother me with their problems when they can solve it by themselves.""You mean you hate taking care of people's responsibilities?" Uncle Max asked."That is not what I me
I love stories a lot. Do you? Since I have been writing this diary of my life, I have been able to create wonderful stories that has touched both of us deeply. Do you agree? Now, I ask, who doesn’t love a short love story about meeting random people? Especially the very unique ways that people can get connected together without putting much efforts. It is almost more than eight days since I wrote an entry where Uncle Max told me plainly that he had gotten Miss Bisi pregnant. I didn’t give him the best answer he wanted because I did not have much t
It was still morning when I heard that a soccer match which I had been craving to watch would be displayed in a betting shop. Bet9ja was the name of the betting shop! I thought for a while if there was a need of going to watch it and of course, there was a need. As a partial loner, I have always adored soccer games to any kind of game. I recall when some folks talked about this when I was younger. All I could say back then was how stupid they would be to prefer a soccer game over a movie. Not until I became a grown child did I discover it was more interesting than I had imagined. Sometimes, it sticks to my mind when I think of what some of my friends and family members would say about my choice of preferring soccer to any cartoon or movie. But, however, I am me and keeping up with what I do is making people understand I will keep being me and me forever.In accordance to what some fans would always yell, "wear our club jersey," I picked up a red jersey and wore it. I sa
One of the fastest ways to commit suicide is to accept the moment, time taken and procedures involved in being a part of it. When you have done that, you feel a sense of freedom for a while, a month, up to a year. In the end, you realize you are not dead but have been dead a long time ago."I think a gun and a bullet is enough," Henry corrected. He had decided to visit me today from wherever he was staying."That is too much pain for me to bear," I replied."I don't know if it is painful, but it sure is fast. The problem isn't about shooting yourself, the problem is to get hold of a gun. Once you get hold of it, then it is perfect. At least for me."I laughed."Why do we feel the need to die?" I asked."Maybe because we easily get tired of living our old life over and over again.""So, it is a cycle? An unending cycle that holds on to us for eternity?"It was Henry turn to laugh and he laughed well."There is a wom
Inside the room, I was welcomed by the buzz of an air-conditioner. The floor was covered with a rich black rug, and in the middle of the room was a massive couch on which two pairs of pillows were propped up in an orderly manner. By the far wall stood a plasma television slightly above a refrigerator. The room was cold so was my skin."Hello!" I said to no one in particular. For a moment it looked like I was not going to get a reply until I heard driblets of water coming from the bathroom."Sit down," a voice from the bathroom said. It was the woman Henry had set me up with. "Stay calm! Stay focused! Henry told me about you. You want to have a random conversation?""Sure," I smiled. "Let us do this Mrs. New woman.""Alright! Me? I am 32. Worried about our upcoming election, but today, right here and now, is lovely," the woman said."Most of the time, I think you are a scientist," I said, playing along."Well, I have a masters degree in conse
I have heard a lot about whispers. Even in the dark, it still send messages that stays forever in my heart. Whisper of words is how I choose to call it. A sudden chuckle is how I used to know it. And if you are listening to what I have been saying, you will know it is what I use to encourage myself and that all the words I write are not in vain.Today, I heard whispers from above as if someone wanted to contact me so badly. Slowly, ever so slowly, it crept in my mind that there was a possibility that God wanted to contact me. Then it crawled inside my thoughts in form of a formidable tempo that can turn your head around. A smile, bright as any white light you have ever seen set on my face.*I found Jane and Henry still standing near the betting shop where I was approached by a guy who was wearing a black jersey some days ago. They stood alone, avoiding the st
Today is a new day and breathing the fresh air of dying leaves is one wonderful uncanny stuff I adore even though I don't want to because of everything that has been happening to me in the past few days. For the first time in my life, I thought of getting in contact with a spiritualist or a Pastor. I have always wanted to wander around this specific field where God was King. I told Uncle Max that I wanted to go somewhere with a friend. I lied and he believed my lie.In the afternoon, I left for a large river in Enugu with a strange looking man. We sat for an hour because I told him I wanted to get used to the moment of sitting close to a river without talking. We were silent.After an hour, we started talking. We talked about psychic readings and one thing astonished me from what he was saying. We all know that there are lots of things dividing us as humans. Our tribes, cultures, countries, etc. However, when I hear p
I did not talk. I could not talk as I sat on the white plastic chair. The therapist repeated the question, and again, instead of a response, all she got from me was a bland dying stare."Perer, relax. I want you to relax. I hope the plastic chair is comfortable?""Relaxation is not something that I fancy these days. Say what you want to say. I will answer as much as I can answer.""Alright," the therapist wore her glasses. "Perer, it may interest you to be informed that I have read your file over and over again and I still don't understand what your problem is. You said you are not suicidal but yet you are depressed. Do you care to explain what you mean by that statement? I will give you time to think about my question while I go through your file. I have decided to not charge you because I admire your courage to seek help. It is not common for young people of your age to admit they are suicidal. They see it as a crime!"I inhaled softly as I climbed into