Eliza
I
push my hair behind my ear as I put the finishing touches on the painting outside the boutique. I’ve been anticipating Lev, but he hasn’t made an appearance. Of course, he
wouldn’t just show up here again for no reason, but I feel like I need to be prepared in case he does.
Maybe he forgot something, one last luxury item to grab from the store on a rare sunny autumn afternoon. I wonder what he does for a living to afford such expensive things. I’ve been in that store once, more out of curiosity than anything, and I couldn’t believe the prices.
Of course, everything is quite beautiful, but in what universe is it normal for jeans to cost a thousand dollars? In my hometown, you’d get them from the little shop down between the pancake place and the postal service, and they’d always be priced the same – $19.99. That never changed in the ten years I was shopping there.
I’d be lucky to get a pair for ten times that here, but I’m probably not going to be doing any shopping for a long time. I brought enough clothes with me to get me through the winter and subsequent summer, and I’ll wear them until they’re falling apart.
More out of necessity than thriftiness, though I like to say I’m just being environmentally friendly.
I think my clothes are cute, though. I usually wear mid-length dresses, almost always black and paired with leather boots. It’s simple enough not to be a hassle in the morning, but nice enough to wear I don’t feel like a bum the moment I step outside.
I’ve added a pair of black sheer black pantyhose with little cats printed on them. I got them before I left home, but I haven’t worn them because I was afraid of ruining them. Today, I’ve worked up the courage to wear them. It’s amazing what a little money can do for your confidence.
Painting today feels like freedom. I have a whole month to worry about making sales and paying rent, and it takes the weight off my shoulders and just allows me to paint. The brush runs across my canvas like it’s dancing to the music of the city, and I barely register anyone around me.
People pass, they gawk, and occasionally, someone hurls an insult from their car or catcalls me, but I’m blissfully unbothered by it. I’m painting two-thousand dollars onto a canvas. My subconscious makes the money and my conscious mind is at ease.
My phone buzzes, breaking my focus so hard that I drop my brush. It clatters lightly on the gum-caked sidewalk and I leave it there, pulling out my phone.
I just know it’s Lev. God, he’s texting me already.
My heart jumps up into my throat, but sinks all the way down into my stomach just as quickly when I see who sent me the message.
Noah.
Fuck, it’s like he knows I’m having a good time and he wants to spoil it for me.
I open his message because it’d be eating at the back of my mind for the rest of the day if I didn’t.
Um, duh. Where else would I be? I hope he’s not planning on paying me a visit. The only person who knows my address is Lev, and I plan on keeping it that way.
I text Noah back quickly, even though I know I should wait. Everyone in the world will tell you to wait at least a few minutes, if not an hour or more before texting your ex if they’re bugging you, but we haven’t talked in almost a month. Having him text me first feels like winning.
My thumbs fly over the keyboard.
That’s all he gets. Just one word, and I’m back to painting. I pick up my brush and resume where I left off.
The sky is different today, but I’m trying to picture how it was yesterday when I met Lev. The only thing I can remember was how blue his eyes were.
I mix a few colors together to get the perfect hue, and I put it down on the canvas. Perfect. It’s just like the color of his eyes, only it doesn’t have the same wicked intentions baked into it. It’s a bit friendlier.
My phone buzzes again.
I let out a sigh, checking it again.
I’m tempted to take a screenshot of my bank account and send it to him, but that wouldn’t prove a whole lot. A thousand dollars isn’t much proof that I’m not living on the street, especially when my rent is nearly twice that.
I have more in savings, of course, but it’s barely enough to get me through the next month. Noah doesn’t have to know that, though. I’d like him to think I’m selling my paintings like hotcakes, earning a comfortable living in the big city and leaving my simple past far behind me for something more glamorous.
Instead of sending him my bank account, I snap a picture of the boutique and tell him I’m busy shopping. He probably won’t believe it, but if it puts doubt in his mind, maybe he’ll leave me alone.
He texts me back almost immediately, but I ignore him this time. There’s nothing he could say right now that would convince me he’s right about anything. I’ve already proved him wrong. What he chooses to believe now is up to him.
My painting continues to develop effortlessly, as though I’m not even the one doing it. My hand drifts across the canvas, and every dot, dash, and stroke comes out perfectly. Not only does it look great, but it’s finished much sooner than I had anticipated.
Of course, there are consequences to my speediness. I have to let Lev know that it’s ready for him, and that means I need to prepare myself and my apartment for his arrival.
Will he come today? It’s already quite late. I didn’t realize it because I was so focused on my painting, but the sun is already setting, and it gets dark early here in autumn. The buildings block the sun the moment it starts to dip from the middle of the sky.
Ignoring the two new texts on my phone from Noah, I send Lev a picture of the finished painting, inviting him to come pick it up.
A message comes back faster than even Noah was able to text me.
Not, can I come in twenty minutes?
Not, is that alright?
Lev gets straight down to it, and he does so in a manner that can’t be negotiated. It’s both refreshing and concerning the way that he appears to command me, like I have no choice.
Like I don’t even want to have a choice.
I pack up my easel, taking great care not to touch the drying paint as I put a cover over my freshly finished painting. I’m not all that far from home, just a ten-minute walk, but I don’t have time to straighten up both the apartment and myself before Lev arrives.
And to be quite honest, I’m more worried about myself than the apartment.
I send Lev a quick reply, confirming that I will be ready for him.
Not the painting. Me. I probably sound crazy, maybe a bit too eager. I hope he doesn’t take that as an invitation. I’m not ready for something like that to happen. I don’t even know him, and I’m not that type of woman.
But why am I even considering it in the first place? He’s never given any indication that his intentions are any more than to buy a painting off me.
That’s it. That’s all. This isn’t an opportunity for him to take advantage of my innocence, slamming me against the window and pressing my naked body against the glass while he fucks me senseless in front of everyone passing by…
No, nothing like that. He’s a gentleman, and I need to get my mind out of the gutter before it gets me in trouble.
But that doesn’t stop me from running home, bursting into my apartment with a huge grin on my face, and slamming the door shut so hard behind me that I hear the neighbor come out to check on the commotion.
I plaster myself against the door for support, panting as I collect myself. My emotions are bubbling up so fast that it’s nearly impossible to keep them under control. I’m going to make a complete fool of myself but I’ve lost control.
I should know better. I’ve been hurt before.
But no, I’m running into Lev like he’s already professed his undying love to me.
And we haven’t even kissed. I’m just some crazy girl who’s obsessed with a man who is much older than her. So much
older. Probably too old, but why should I care? I’m in New York City, away from the judgmental eyes that tore into every little detail about my life in my hometown.
I get to start over, and I’m going to have it all, every last fantasy without compromise.
But first, I need to convince Lev that I’m even worth having. It should be the other way around, but I’m too star struck to behave any differently. I immediately change clothes, put on fresh lipstick, and examine every inch of myself in front of the mirror.
Then, I clean like I’m preparing for a drill sergeant to visit my room for inspection.
LevIt’s a cute place, warm and small like Eliza. I think it fits her well, but I have to duck to get through the doorway, and the slanted walls make it even more difficult for me tomove with ease.“It’s not much, but I’m working with what I got,” Eliza says with a nervous laugh, making her way to the stove. “Would you like some tea?”That’s an invitation to stay longer, and I’d die before saying no to her. I don’t know why, but I feel the need to be close to her, to learn everything about her, inside and out. Maybe it’s the innocent way she pouts her lips, or the inviting swing of her slender hips.She has a body like a dancer. I bet she knows how to move when she’s on top.“I’d love some tea,” I say, snapping out of my perversion for the briefest of moments before my eyes begin following her body again.Perfect waist, perfect breasts, perfect everything. It almost makes me angry that a woman can look so good and not even realize it. Valentin would laugh at me, but I legitimately be
ElizaAlright, now I know he’s coming on to me, but what the hell am I supposed to do? I don’t want to be too easy, or be treated like a whore who’s willing to perform sexualfavors in exchange for his help. I’d be passed around to all his rich friends, and they’d line my pockets with cash while using me like a toy.I cross my legs behind the canvas, trying to squeeze out my impure thoughts. I hate that I’m so turned on by the idea of him sharing me. I don’t want to be that kind of woman. I came here to do art. I’m a painter!I take a deep breath, letting it out slowly and trying to make my face turn a lighter shade. I know I’m red. I have a pale complexion, and I’m sensitive. All someone has to do is look at me wrong and I blush.But he hasn’t suggested that I do anything sexual for him. That’s all my doing. Those are my thoughts, and there’s no way for me to know what’s going through his head right now. For all I know, he’s just a nice man who appreciates art and wants to help my ca
ElizaI’m struggling so hard with the size of Lev’s cock that it feels like I’m going to ruin everything before we’ve even begun. Maybe I should’ve just let him cum in my mouth,but I had to have him inside me. I wanted him all the way, and I’m paying the price for it.“You’re just tight, darling. Relax,” he says, pausing for a moment as my body adjusts to his girth.It’s no easy task, and it takes almost a full minute before he’s able to start moving again. But once he slides in all the way, all the overwhelming tension inside me dissolves into pure bodily bliss.Waves of euphoric pleasure move through me as he begins to make love to me, blossoming into electric pulses in my brain that cause me to lose what little control I had left. I’m consumed by Lev, and yet I’m the one consuming him, taking him inside of me deeper with every thrust.Lev’s huge hand encircles my neck, applying pressure and testing my limits. I wouldn’t stop him even if I couldn’t breathe anymore, but he appears
LevI almost feel guilty for what I did to Eliza yesterday. She’s never going to be able to be with another man without craving that kind of treatment, and the number of men whoknow how to do what I did to her are few and far between.I own her pussy now, and nobody else is going to touch her unless they want every bone in their body shattered. Eliza doesn’t know that I would kill for her, and I pray she doesn’t find out the hard way. If this ex she’s been talking about attempts to find and reclaim her…Then I’m going to prison for murder.My demented thoughts are only proving Valentin more correct, but I’ve lost control. The beast is loose, and all it took was a kiss.But even amidst my newfound sexual obsession, I haven’t forgotten the promises I made Eliza. She’s more than an object for my amusement, and I don’t want her believing that I only want her for sex. I recognize her talent, and I’m willing to give her the leg up she needs to make it in the art world.It’s a cutthroat in
ElizaI answer the door with drool on the side of my face and crust in my eyes, praying that it’s the mailman and not Lev. He fucked me so good last night that I slept for a solidtwelve hours. Even the sun in my eyes and the sound of the city couldn’t wake me.I want to shoot myself when I open the door to find Lev standing there looking like a goddamn Rock ‘n’ Roll magazine model, a dozen red roses in his hands and a smile on his handsome face.Of all the days I picked to sleep in, it had to be the one where the man of my dreams showed up on my doorstep with flowers. I didn’t even think to expect something like this because I’ve never had a man bring my flowers.Not once!Lev smiles, the corners of his eyes crinkling like he doesn’t even realize how much of a mess I am. He holds the roses out to me. “I have some good news. But first, flowers for you.”“Thank you,” I manage to say, taking the flowers and backing away so that he can come in.As he slides through the door, I hurry th
ElizaAsher’s hand is warm, but something about his eyes makes me reluctant to trust him. I know he works with Lev, who, despite his intimidating appearances, hasbeen good to me, but Asher isn’t the same.His image is softer, a lot of browns and tans hanging over a skinny frame. He should be less threatening, but there’s an opportunistic edge to his gaze, like he’d be willing to take advantage of you if you were especially weak.He reminds me of a coyote – lean, weak, but growing desperate. I can almost see his fangs when he smiles. “It’s lovely to make your acquaintance,” he says, his voice soft and slow.I smile, but it’s only my mouth moving. My eyes are watching him closely as he lets go of my hand. “Nice to meet you.”Lev, perhaps sensing my discomfort, interjects. “How many openings do you have for her work? I’d like to get things in as soon as possible.”Asher leans back, rubbing his short auburn beard and frowning. “I’d like to see the work beforehand, but I could give you pr
Lev I thought I’d be satisfied from last night, but seeing Eliza spin around in flattering designer clothing for an hour has lit a fire in me that can only be put out by her pouty redlips and the swirl of her tongue.She seems to know it, too, taking every opportunity to flash her panties when she’s bending over to look at something, or let a nipple slip when she’s showing me a dress she likes.She’s trying to act coy, but I know it’s in her blood to show off. She’s an artist, a performer, and she loves attention more than she probably realizes.But she doesn’t have to seek it out from me. I can’t keep my hands off her, and I make that obvious when we slip back into my car and head to dinner.“Very soft,” I say, slipping my hand under her sparkly black dress and squeezing her thigh.She sucks in a breath, trying to look like she’s shocked by my behavior. “Right before dinner, Lev?”“You’re
Eliza I can still taste Lev on the back of my tongue as I take a sip of my water. The ice jingles in the glass, but it’s not loud enough to drown out the hammering of my heart. It hasn’tslowed down since I felt him release in my mouth and I realized I liked it.I’ve done stuff like that before with Noah, but he wasn’t clean like Lev is. He didn’t taste good. It was bitter and unappealing, but Lev was totally different. It turned me on when I tasted him, and the groans that rumbled out of his chest gave me goosebumps.If he asked me to do it again, I’d crawl right up to his seat and blow him in front of everyone here. It’s so unlike me, but things are changing so fast that I don’t know who I am anymore. This is my opportunity to remake myself, and I’m quickly moving in a dangerous direction.Do I want to be a classy artist living big in New York?Or do I want to be some Russian millionaire’s arm candy? I hat