I’m a surrogate

Hugh's POV

I drove fast not minding the hustle and chaos of the wide and busy road. I almost lost my soul as I saw how the vehicle in front of me suddenly popped out of nowhere.

I shouted, "Fuck!"

I decided to park my car for a while because my mind is restless. I bit my lips and palmed my face thinking about what had happen in that hotel. I repeatedly cursed at myself as I remembered how my lips touched to hers. I felt a mixture of frustration and obsession at the same time. I don't want her acting like that life as if she was an expert when it came to such things. She acts as if she is whore and a slut when in fact I know she's not. That's not what I wanted for her in the first place.

I can't help but to get fussy. What the hell is wrong with her? What if she was signed up with someone else? For sure she'll be ending up naked in someone's bed! That's bullshit! I massaged the bridge of my nose trying to calm myself down, after a few seconds, I reached for my phone and tried to compose a message for her but in the end I just failed.

I just threw the phone because I don't even know what to say! For sure she is offended because I left her alone with offensive words accusing as if she's not clean and such. Fuck my self because I know everything about her, she's far from being a slut or a whore. Angel lives by her name and that angel is untouchable.

But I was left with no choice but to utter those words because I can't think of any reasons. She is not ready, she is not keen into this kind of set ups so why would I do her when I know she is just caught up with that 'contract' I'm reasoning out. I respect her, and I'm trying to protect her at all cost. And so I was so shocked with her actions, can't help but to ask myself, 'where did she learn those?', 'did I missed anything all this time?'

Her lips, her warmth... all of her. How can she bewitch me for that short period of time?

"Damn your beautiful soul, woman."  I whispered to my self full of admiration while thinking about the scene a while ago.

I was never good in relationships, 'vanilla relationship' as they say. Harsh, brutal, heartless - I'm all of that. I don't do relationship and romance was never on my veins and blood. If I decide to bed her I can do it right away like what I always do to other woman, but she's different. I'm willing to give her the time and intimacy that she deserves.

Because she's different and she holds a piece of my soul.

My phone suddenly beeped while I'm in the middle of deep thinking. My forehead furrowed as I read a message from the bank. Angel just transferred a money in my bank, I gave her million and she gave back almost everything. I sighed hard and gripped the stirring wheel more harder than the usual. Now, this is where her thoughts led her.

I called the hotel and left some remarks and requests. She's alone in there and I can't help but to get worried. But it's also better for me to be not in there because I might not gonna have control with my self. Seeing her beautiful and innocent face will leave me sleepless. Who knows what can I do more…

Angel's POV

I cried when he left. That's all I can remember so far. After he left I cried so hard because of pain and offense. I was so mad at myself for being into this situation. 

I couldn’t help but regret what I had done. Because I know I'm not that kind of person. Just when I was almost ready to give up myself so he could impregnate me, he also thought of stepping on my ego.

Is that really the case? It's okay and he doesn't know how it feels to be treated like that. People like him have no other problem but to have a child. Because while I was aspiring to be able to pay the tuition, he was being rude because he knew he had already bought me with his wealth.

So that same night after he left, I called the bank to return the money he gave me. I never thought about the consequences of what I did in the contract, that is if we had it.

Though I wasn’t able give back the whole million. I secured the tiny amount just enough to pay my college and the first months of my rent. Yes, I rented a tiny apartment for me near my university since It will be hard for me to stay on the dorm because of some rules.

I couldn’t help but be stunned while waiting at the bus stop. I still can't bear what happened, a few days ago. Not even a single text I received from him. No clue is there, so I can't help but wonder what the state of our agreement is.

I would lie if that was all I was thinking. That same day, in the amount of things that happened, I have not forgotten at all. His lips, his touch… how rough he is but felt like he’s being careful at the same time. It gives an unfamiliar feeling in my stomach.

“No shit. Angel .. no. He’s rude, he’s arrogant, he’s… ”I stopped for a while remembering how gentle he was that night,“ good looking, smells nice and… what !? ” I snapped.

I shook my head and tap it lightly. I think I’m too hungry to say these dumb things. I got startled when my phone suddenly rang. The bus I was waiting for arrived just in time. I answered it while getting on the bus.

"Hey."

"Finally!" she sound do relieved.

I licked my lips once because I knew immediately where this conversation was going.

"Are you so busy with your finals that I can't talk to you anymore?" she hissed. I gulped and blinked a lot of times. He had so much more to say and he never stopped preaching to me.

"You know what? Never mind, I will come to you after my duty- ”

"No!" I shouted. I immediately turned around in embarrassment. Other people looked at me. My face for sure flushed.

“What‘ no ’!?” she shouted back.

I curled more on my seat and whispered afraid that the people around me might hear me before answering her. "I left dorm."

"Yeah, you mean you're outside."

It looks like he doesn't really know yet and I feel guilty that he doesn't know what's going on in my life even though he's my only friend.

"No, like… I left the dorm and rented a place around the university."

I did not hear anything from her. I even had to check the screen if she’s still on the other line

"Am I missing something here?" she confusedly asked. I became more guilty.

”I’m out looking for work, either waitress, cashier, sales lady or more so that -“

"Stop bluffing Angel, I know you can just ask for Enoch's family." she laugh.

“Dead serious, Molly. I swear. ” I pleaded.

"Okay, so what are you now?" she asked like she’s still not believing me.

I looked around and stare at the people. I’m suddenly falling again into this deep black hole of thoughts. This is now my reality, it all sunk in as of the moment. But with that darkness all I could see was a sudden disturbance of light and gray area out of nowhere together with his cold eyes and his arrogant aura.

Hugh .. I’m

“I’m a surrogate,” me accepting my fate.