Epilogue Part 2

Instead of feeling pleasure from what she was doing, I just cried. Disgust for myself filled my heart, but it was not a surprise to me anymore. It's always like this. This is always what I experience. This is always what I feel.

Perhaps when she got tired of sucking, she slowly moved her lips towards my groin, causing me to squirm even more. I couldn't take it anymore. I couldn't bear the disgust I was feeling.

The woman got irritated with my behavior, and punched me in the stomach. "Stop acting like a fool! You act like this is your first time. Hey! For your fucking information, your mom has paid me and her other debts several times, so don't act like you're all clean!" she shouted, causing me to cry and cry.

I cried and cried because she was right... she was right about what she said.. I've experienced this several times.. I've experienced being raped and used to pay off my own parents' debts... and I've prayed to God many times to escape from the prison of desire that I never wante