Mag-log inSAGE MONTERO.
@puckmedaddy: ‘Gah, I understand why he’s the captain; he looks like he handles a puck the same way he does a woman. Rough.’ Yeah, until he chokes you to death. @rookslapmepls: ‘I volunteer. I volunteer. I volunteer as tribute…sorry I meant puck.’ If desperate had a label, it’d be you, sweetheart. @rookmehard: ‘I know they call him the Angel cause he’s a devil in the sheets. Argue with the wall, everyone.’ I’d rather argue with my fake cactus. And it barely cost me a dollar. @lowlightsdrex: ‘Hear me out, dim lights, waterbed and some slow music. Oh did I mention Drex Rhodes in that equation?’ @ruthlessdrex: ‘Drex, shirtless. I’’ll leave that here, girls. Go crazy, look it up, you’ll see the obsession.’ @dirtytalklevi: ‘My uterus just put on skates and asked for his jersey number. He’s so hot.’ I don’t know what’s more depressing: reading every comment on NVU’s I*******m sports page with bitterness clogging my throat or watching some of the girls from my squad thirst over potential serial killers in the comments. They had a game today. I crashed said game and it did nothing because not only did they win but they went to a party at some frat house in campus to celebrate. Placing my phone on the marble countertop, I move to the fridge and the minute I open it and see Sax’s marmalade jam next to my strawberry jam, the bitterness and the grief are back and they wrap around my heart like a damn noose. “I’m…I-I’m sorry”, I whisper to no one, closing the fridge fast and leaning my back against it. My boyfriend, Ford says the only way to let the grief go is to just not think about it. I’d listen to him if it weren’t for the fact that he was high on weed when he was telling me that. Oh and he couldn’t give a shit about my grief, there’s that. So I choose to listen to the one person who knew me from the inside out. Breathe, Sage. You are alright. No monster is gonna get you. The monsters under the bed aren’t real. I breathe, I replay Sax’s words in my mind over and over till they sink in yet when I open my eyes, I realize… My sister lied. The monsters are very real because one of them is standing in front of me, looking right through me the way a predator does when he knows he has the prey caught in his snare. “W-What are y-you…” Somewhere between realizing I have an intruder in my home and the fear erupting in every damn vein inside me, I lose my voice and the man with the muddy boots and the Ted Bundy face knows it. “Don’t run”, he commands, his voice falling on my skin like shards of ice that have my heart looking for a way outside my body. Six feet three, muddy boots, a dark tank top, jeans that cling to his muscular thighs and a face carved like granite, the man in front of me looks and probably weighs ten times more than I do. I can’t fight him. I’m not stupid. My entire body shaking, I chance a look at the phone that’s resting on the marble countertop. If I can just reach it… “Mali zeko”, he croons, taking a step forward. What the fuck is zeko? What is he…what is he doing here? “I’m…I’m not Sax”, I mumble, willing my feet to move. Move, damn it. “You are not. You are you”, he takes another step forward, scaring me, suffocating me. I could scream but no one’s here. Dad’s at a conference in New York and our house is at the outskirts of town. The CCTVs inside here could probably catch him but by the time he stabs me in the heart with a knife, they won’t matter. I won’t matter. This is the perfect place for murder. “I won’t g-go down without a fight”, I bark, tears welling in my eyes, “I won’t just stand here while you attempt to kill me, Ronan Rhodes. I’m not my sister!” As soon as the words leave my mouth, I make a run for it for my phone. I never get to my phone though. Ronan Rhodes, the guy built like a tank and the man I’ve seen in passing and never spoken to until today, grabs me by the waist. I thrash; my nails drag against his hands but my efforts are of no use. Not when he pins my face against the fridge, hand covering my mouth, his entire back swallowing my frame like he was made to rule over all the men and women…women like me…women like his ex’s sister who’s been parading around town calling him and his brothers, murderers. Do your worst, I scream against his hand. His other hand comes down to the line on my back right above my ass then he leans in and I almost regret my words because this is not how I’m going out. I don’t want to—die like this. “You are Sage”, he grits, burying his nose against my neck like a maniac. Then he adds another cryptic note that makes me realize this is the end of the run for me, “Ljubav je rat.” The tears I’ve tried to hold back fall down my cheeks with a bang and so does the fear. Did they corner Sax like this? Did they kill her slowly? One slash to the neck and it was done? “Cry, mali zeko. I like the salt in the tears”, he groans, his nose moving up my neck before he stops near my earlobe. Reading my fear and my helplessness, he breathes one last command, “Sleep. It’s a long ride.” Xxx I wasn’t the wondering type. That was my sister’s thing. The kind of hippie who wondered how a world without trees would function, how reaching a hundred years old would look like, how the earth was the only planet with life… I never wondered about shit until I got taken from my house on a Friday night by the goalie of the Mallow Reapers who might have aided in my sister’s death and had been MIA for almost two weeks. My head throbs like someone hit me with a mallet for hours non-stop. My body’s limp, I can’t move, I can’t lift a finger. And when I open my eyes, I expect to wake up in my bed, a jar of strawberry jam in hand but instead I’m met with three pairs of assessing eyes. “Her majesty’s finally awake. How are you feeling, sweetheart?” Drex crouches in front of me as confusion slams me harder than the scream begging to be released from my throat. “Shh. Don’t even think about it. You scream you wake him up. You wake him up, you die Sage. You are familiar with death, aren’t you?” Rook’s voice is clipped, out of patience. I want to ask ‘wake who up’ but the other man in the room glares at me the same way he did at my sister’s funeral. “You don’t know when to quit, do you little Montero? Now he’s got you and the only way you are getting out of this cage is if he kills you.” “My f-father will—.” “Your father?” Tatum continues, chuckling in disbelief like I’m the mouse caught in the trap and it hasn’t hit me yet. “Sage, your daddy isn’t getting you out of this cage. Neither can we. You did this to yourself and you deserve it.” They stand to their feet before I can even ask. They move away, one by one. When Tatum looks me in the eye and locks the door, only then does it register to me that they locked me inside a literal cell. And when I push the blanket covering me away, staring at the huge arm snagged around my waist, panic eats me up and chews me right out. They…locked me in a cage with Ronan?SAGE MONTERO.“I d-didn’t know you’d be back here”, Bea starts warily, “I mean with…everything that happened to Sax I thought you’d stay home. I thought I’d never see you again around here. Sage?”I like Bea, she’s one of the nicest roommates I’ve had since I joined NVU. Add the fact that most cheerleaders adopt rudeness like their armor against the world and I’d wager I got the better deal having Bea as a friend.But God, I need her to shut up.“Yeah?” My throat is dry as I turn to her and give her a fake smile. “Umm I’m going to bed.”“Okay”, she fidgets with the edges of her satin pink bottoms, “Yeah, we can talk tomorrow.”“Thanks. For everything. I saw you at Sax’s funeral and I should have said hi but I’m glad you were there, really.”“I’m always here for you, Sage. Always.”That’s about the most conversation I have with her before I bolt to my room, lock the door behind me and with my back to the door, I slide to the floor.The minute I do, I can hear my heart pulse in my mouth
DREXON DRAKOVIC RHODES Th roaring of my bike across the tarmac on a dreadful night should be enough to distract me. But I’d be a liar if I said, I wasn’t distracted by her scent—the same wildflowers scent with a hint of lavender that she has worn on her skin since time immemorial. It clings to me, it festers, it calls for my fangs and the beast inside me that has been panting like a love sick mutt high on weed. ‘She accepted us, today. We could have had a taste of her blood, we could have marked her, knotted her, made her ours the minute she sat on our lap. She is ours again, Drex. She’s finally ours. I’m starving. You are too. Do not deprave us of what is rightfully ours’, my wolf coaxes and yeah it’s easy to say yes. Just turn my bike around, tell Sage to put me out of my misery and kiss me but I’m not dumb. Not like my brother, Rook, no. I’m not pussy whipped like Ronan and Levi and Tatum either because I remember what happened two decades ago. We marked our mate, we thought
SAGE MONTERO. Jesus Christ. Drex hauling me over his shoulder and taking me away from the Gamma Phi party. Him gagging me and putting me on his bike. Coming to an abandoned church just to stare at my shitty boyfriend get threatened with the promise of death. And my sister’s boyfriends blackmailing me into dating them. I…I can’t feel my toes or my fingers. E-Everything’s numb. I’m numb with fear and nausea but somewhere between realizing they are the epitomes of psychopathic tendencies and I wasn’t wrong in assuming they were killers, my head moves and I nod. “S-She fucking nodded”, Ford pleas from the floor, his liquid fear more pathetic than I am for even rescuing him. “Now get off you bastards!” Rook Rhodes, the guy who issued the threat, sinks his fingers deep into Ford’s scalp, enough for my boyfriend to wail into the abandoned church like a banshee. “Did she? It’s so fucking dark, I can’t see shit, Kingsy. I don’t even think she nodded a yes on account that her
RUKAR DRAKOVIC RHODES. Among us five, they consider me the dumb one and yeah, I don’t mind. I’ve done my fair share of dumb things in the last millennia that’d have anyone dying of a stroke but this? Ho-ho, this is way beyond dumb. “You did what?” Drex asks. I enjoy the show because it’s not the first time one of us has lost our minds because of our mate. Only difference is, this time it’s the ‘golden boy’, the ‘no stain on his shiny exterior’ and our big brother who made the mistake. Tatum ditched practice today, I didn’t say squat about it because I hate bringing drama during drills but I knew something was going on. Something reckless. I knew something even bigger was up when he invited us to a Gamma Phi party—a party full of lacrosse dude bros—the kind of idiots I’d rather set myself on fire than interact with. “I asked her to date us. Told her us dating her would help in catching Sax’s killer”, Tate replies, jaw ticked. Ronan smirks behind the rim of his glass. And that
TATUM DRAKOVIC RHODES.‘You came to this town because you were looking for her?’‘Yes.’‘My sister is your…sorry was your betrothed in another lifetime?’‘Yes.’‘How do you know?’‘Felt it soon as we saw her.’‘And now you need to be with her? Sex-wise and umm bond wise?’‘Something like that.’‘I can’t let you do that. I understand all this but I can’t let you do that.’‘You have no choice.’‘I’m her twin. We share the same blood. What if…I become a substitute for her?’‘We are not fucking you, Saxen. We can’t fuck anyone but her.’‘But you need her blood now that your mate bond has been activated right? We can be friends w-with blood benefits. My sister’s blood is the same as mine.’“Kid? Fuck and I turned down beer for this. Tatum?” Coach Marky taps my shoulder, pulling me out of the memories that have been haunting me for weeks.“Sorry, coach. Uh, you were saying?”My stick in one hand, my helmet in the other, I stand by the sidelines with one of the men who’s been supportive more
RONAN DRAKOVIC RHODES.Ain’t nothing like a man itching from addiction.In all my years of life, I had two addictions. Both of which I’d cross the red line just to get them.Hockey was one of them.Nothing like having the ice beneath you, solid and steady, while you moved your weight around the net like a god.Nothing like being the one who controlled the game because the goalie was always undermined. My job was to man the net but the truth? I protected my team. I predicted which player was slacking on the ice faster than the coach and the fans ever did.And the most important job? I got to spill blood from the violence that came with the sport.The other addiction?I never got to make a choice when it came to it.My brothers chose it. They chose the easy way—the chick with the blonde hair who smiled a lot and accepted what we were with a dimple to the chin.They chose Saxen Montero. I tolerated her because she gave me what I needed. Then she died and I lost my mind.“K-Kill me. I-I’m







