LOGINISABELLA~
'I will ruin you. Even if I die, I'm going to destroy you.' The words echoed in my head as I sank into the darkness. Phillip's face was imprinted behind my eyelids, and my hatred was so thick I could taste it. He was going to pay. I was going to make him pay. If I ever got a chance. Just. One. Chance… Light seemed to explode before my eyes, and I flinched, stumbling backwards. Only for someone to steady me from behind. "Whoa there, Sinclair," a cheerful voice spoke. "You're not hungover, are you?" I froze, because I knew that voice. I knew that voice just like I knew how impossible it was that she was speaking right now. I whipped around so fast that my back hit something hard. "Oof," she laughed. "You sure are falling around this morning. Late night?" I couldn't answer. I could only stare at her, my eyes going wide as dinner plates. Jessica Suarez has been my best friend since high school. She has also been dead for close to two years. Suddenly, I was back to that awful day, holding her body and screaming. My best friend had cut her wrists and I never knew why. "Hello…?" she said, waving a palm over my face. "Earth to Isabella? Look, I know I'm gorgeous but it's going to get a little weird if you keep staring—" I didn't wait to hear any more. I lunged forward, wrapping my arms tightly around her like she was going to disappear. For all I knew, she was. She was dead, after all, but she was somehow in front of me. I must be dreaming, then. I must have died when Philip pushed me down the stairs, and this is my life flashing before my eyes. I could feel Jessica's confusion, but she hugged me back anyway. "That bad, huh?" she said. "What happened? Did Philip cheat again?" Phillip. His name had me straightening up and looking around. Was he in this dream too? My hands clenched as I asked, "Is he here?" Jessica's eyebrow lifted. "Is who here?" she replied. "Philip," I said through gritted teeth. "Uhh… this is the women's locker room, so I'd hope not." "The women's what now?" I looked around again, taking in the open lockers and women chatting as they stowed away their gear and banged the doors shut. Gear. Hockey gear. I turned around, and sure enough, the thing I had bumped into was my own locker. "Am I still dreaming?" I whispered, staring at my hands. Everything felt so real. "We have Philosophy this morning, so I hope so," Jessica replied with a grin. "Let's go." I had no choice but to go with her. ********** The whole day, I kept waiting to wake up. Instead I sat through a boring Philosophy class, then even more classes, then went for lunch, and I still didn't wake up. I even pinched and slapped myself, but that only left me with bruises. In the end, I had to accept the truth. Somehow, I had gone back in time. And if the calendar was correct, I'd gone back to the day, one year ago, that I was kicked out of the Unisex hockey team. Jessica and I were heading for evening practice when someone covered my eyes from behind. I immediately knew who it was. Phillip. At this time, he was my boyfriend. He was also the reason I got booted off the team. He had been caught doping, and I, like the lovesick fool I was, chose to take the fall for him. But that won't be happening anymore. When I didn't react to his prank, he let go and looked at me with a confused frown. "Isabella?" I wanted to put my fist through his face, but attacking a teammate would get me penalized. So I just gave him a plastic smile and turned to leave. But instead of going with me, Jessica stood there looking stunned. I had to snap my fingers in her face before she blinked and quickly scurried after me. "What was that about?" I asked. "Nothing," she replied, but her cheeks had gone pink. Huh. If I didn't know better, I'd think she has a crush on Phillip or something. Speaking of Philip, this was the perfect time to begin my revenge. Right now, he had the performance-enhancing drugs in his locker. I just needed to give the whole team a reason to search it. As we approached the rink, I suddenly had an idea. "I need to use the bathroom," I said. "Could you go on without me?" Jessica shrugged. "Sure. Catch you at practice." I waited till she was out of sight before heading to the men's locker room. There, I opened the team captain's locker, grabbed his skates, and shoved them into my bag. Then I went for practice. Except of course, practice couldn't start, because the team captain's skates were missing. The first fifteen minutes went to the team debating on what to do. "We could always practice without him," someone was saying, "but then we wouldn't be as coordinated—" "Actually…" I said, stepping forward. "I have an idea." Twenty attentive eyes swung to me. "Phillip has an extra pair," I lied. "But his locker is kind of a mess, so it'd be faster if we all looked." Phillip stared at me. "What extra pair?" "Oh please," I made a show of rolling my eyes. "You can never find the damn things. Like I said, messy." There was a lot of good natured laughter, then everyone headed to Phillip's locker. I was his girlfriend, so of course they'd take my word for it. Everybody knew he couldn't do a project or find his own socks without my help. He really was messy. We got to Phillip's locker, and I hid my smirk as it was thoroughly searched. Any moment now, they would find the drugs, and that would be it for his career. When they shut the locker without unearthing any illegal drugs, I couldn't believe my eyes. "We didn't find them," one of the guys said with a helpless shrug. What? That doesn't make sense. The drugs are supposed to be right there. I was about to blurt that out, to demand that they search again, when I remembered that he wasn't talking about drugs. He was talking about the imaginary skates they were supposed to find. "Oh," I said, forcing myself to sound cheerful. "He must have misplaced them, then. Typical." But I couldn't stop thinking about it. We ended up practicing without the captain, but I was distracted the entire time. I barely heard Jessica chattering to me as we returned to our locker room. 'The drugs were right there,' I thought. 'Where did they go?' As soon as I opened my locker, I realized where they had gone. Because cards of the tablets tumbled out of my locker and hit the floor, getting everyone's attention. Before I could do anything, Jessica bent and picked one up. Her eyes widened as she read the label, and she stared at me in shock. The other women clustered to read over her shoulder, and soon everyone was staring at me like I had grown horns. 'Well played, Phillip,' I thought bitterly. So he had decided to frame me. I kept my cool, staring back at the accusing glares that threatened to set me on fire. "Well?" one woman demanded. "Nothing to say?" "Oh, I do have something to say," I replied calmly. One thing Phillip didn't know about me was that, after getting bullied my freshman year, I installed a spy camera in my locker to make sure nobody could tamper with it again. I reached in now and pulled it out. "So," I said. "Let's find out who played this nasty trick, shall we?"~ ISABELLA~I pressed myself back against the wall beside him, heart hammering, and watched Veronica pull something small and metallic from her pocket. It was a tool of some kind, glinting under the lights and bend low over the frame of my racket like she had all the time in the world to get it right.I was halfway to crossing the hall before Leonardo's hand closed around my arm."Don't," he said, low. "If you go over there now, they'll just claim you're accusing them of nothing. Better they think they got away with it.""They're sabotaging my equipment, Leonardo. I'm not just going to let that slide.""I didn't say let it slide. I said don't hand them the moral high ground by making a scene before you've even proven anything." His grip eased, but he didn't let go entirely. "Trust me. I know exactly how fast Veronica can turn a situation around on paper."He was right, infuriatingly, the way he so often was about things that had nothing to do with hockey and everything to do with re
~ ISABELLA~I got good at avoiding Isaac over the next two weeks. Not obviously, just nothing that would get either of us talked about more than we already were. I scheduled my drills on the far end of the rink. I answered his texts about lineups with single words. I stopped lingering after practice the way I used to, back when lingering hadn't felt like standing too close to something I couldn't explain again.He let me do it, which somehow bothered me more than if he'd pushed back. Once, in the locker room, I caught him watching me across the room with an expression I couldn't read, and the second our eyes met, he looked away so fast I almost convinced myself I'd imagined it. Almost.Alan noticed too, though he was kind enough not to say much about it beyond the occasional raised eyebrow whenever Isaac and I ended up on opposite ends of a drill that used to pair us together without anyone thinking twice.The open games had their own calendar, separate from the regular league. Compr
~ ISABELLA~I sat up too fast, which my skull punished immediately, and squinted toward the door in time to see Isaac standing in my living room like he had every right to be there."How did you get in here?" I demanded."Your door was unlocked." His eyes weren't on me. They'd gone straight past me, to the kitchen, where Alan stood frozen with two mugs of coffee in his hands and an expression like he'd been caught doing something far worse than making breakfast."It wasn't unlocked," Alan said slowly. "You have a key?""I have the spare from when you had the flu last winter and I had to bring the playbook by. I never gave it back." Isaac's voice stayed level, but something underneath it wasn't. "I didn't expect to need an excuse to use it.""You don't," I said, rubbing my temples. "You just need to knock next time. Preferably not at—" I squinted at the clock on my wall. "Eight in the morning, Isaac. What are you even doing here?""Checking on you." His gaze finally landed back on me,
~ ISABELLA~The note stayed folded in my jacket pocket for three days before I finally threw it away, somewhere between telling myself it meant nothing and telling myself it meant everything. Neither version changed what I actually had to do, which was get up every morning and act like my life hadn't quietly turned into something I needed to watch my back for.The season opener was close enough now that I could feel it in my shoulders every time I laced up — a different calendar entirely from the regular leagues, shorter and meaner, the kind of schedule that didn't leave much room to recover from a bad week before the next one started. Which made it the perfect excuse, really, for what I wanted to do.I found Alan after practice, toweling off his neck, still moving like a man who hadn't quite decided whether full-time minutes agreed with him yet."Dinner," I said. "My treat. You've more than earned it.""You don't have to do that.""I know I don't have to. I want to." I nudged his sho
~ ISABELLA~He looked like he wanted to say something, but then thought against it and left while I heaved a sigh of relief as I walked away.Phillip's forty-eight hours ran out on a Saturday.I know because I counted them, the way you count down to a storm you can see on the horizon but can't do anything about yet. I half expected him to drag it out, to make a scene on his way off the property, something theatrical enough to match the version of himself he liked to perform for an audience.Instead, he just disappeared."Housing's already cleared," Coach Reyes told the team Monday morning, arms crossed, voice carefully flat in the way adults use when they're deciding how much of the truth a room actually needs. "Moved out sometime Saturday night. Didn't leave a forwarding address.""That's it?" Danny asked. "He's just gone?""His phone's disconnected. His parents say they haven't heard from him either." Reyes's jaw tightened. "If anyone hears anything, you come to me. Not each other.
~ ISABELLA~Alan set the laptop on the long table, his hands steadier than his voice had been, and turned the screen toward the council."This is from the loading dock camera outside the equipment room," he said. "Three nights before the locker incident."The footage was grainy, timestamped, black and white. For a second, nobody moved. Then the picture clarified enough to make out two figures under a flickering security light, one was unmistakably Phillip, broad-shouldered, head tipped back in that easy laugh I used to think was charming. The second figure was smaller, hood pulled up, but when she reached to take the bag from his hands, the hood slipped.Clara.The room went so quiet I could hear the laptop's fan whirring."Pause it," Ilić said, her voice tight.Alan paused it on a frame that left no room for doubt. Phillip's face, clear. Clara's face, clearer. The bag between them, open just enough to show foil packaging I recognized down to the color."That's not—" Phillip started.







