There’s a long silence, so long that she begins to fear she’s encountered a nonbeliever.
But then comes a response, wry with false levity, ‘Do they always come that way? With rhymes and stuff?’
She looks into those brilliant golden eyes, conveying to her the extent of her seriousness. ‘Yes,’ she says, ‘always.’
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‘That’s it,’ floated the voice from below. ‘You cannot put this off any longer. I’ve indulged your whims for centuries, but—’
‘Father, please. Surely it isn’t so urgent as all that.’ This speaker was Canus at his very most annoyed.
‘It’s about the Starlight Queen, Brother mine. It is most certainly so urgent,’ drawled Chalcea’s oldest brother.
‘But you know what her prophecies are like,’ Canus protested. ‘They’re tricky things, always so vague.’
‘And yet they always come true.’ Chryseus’s words are laden with irony. Chalcea doesn’t know her oldest brother as well as Canus, but she thinks she can detect a certain undercurrent of pique.
Canus raised his voice in retort, ‘Not always the way we think! Remember nine years ago how we all thought she was predicting that the mortals would fall into nuclear war? But then it turned out it was only about a tsunami most of the way across the globe.’
‘But her wording—’
‘Enough,’ interrupted their father. ‘I will have no more arguing from either of you. Tomorrow night, Canus, I expect you to be here, midnight at the latest. You shall undergo the transformation after court disperses.’ A pause. How Chalcea wished she could see what was going on. Her father continued, ‘If you insist on such undignified behaviour, I shall send a thrall to you as chaperone.’
‘Father, please. Tomorrow is far too soon! I won’t be able to arrange my affairs in time.’
‘You may arrange them at your leisure as an immortal. My mind is made up. Keep him here until Simon comes, Chryseus.’
Footsteps, then the door clicked open before slamming pointedly shut.
After a moment, Chryseus spoke: ‘It won’t be as bad as you imagine, Brother.’
Canus sighed. ‘I know. I just—I suppose I always imagined that I could continue on like this, that I wouldn’t ever need to die.’
Anger stirred in Chalcea’s chest. It was so selfish! Canus knew how much she wanted to become immortal, as well as what reasons their father had for continually refusing her. Canus might abhor all responsibility, but Chalcea looked forward to joining immortal society, to eventually starting her own clan or coven—even to getting assigned to a new city and presiding over monthly courts just like their father did.
‘It isn’t death,’ Chryseus protested, though his words had the tired quality of things that were repeated too many times to retain meaning. ‘You’ll get used to it soon enough, and then you’ll wonder why you ever resisted, why we never forced you to do this earlier.’
Silence fell until three knocks rippled through the stillness.
‘That’s my signal, then,’ Chryseus said.
Footsteps again, then a door opening.
‘Be good for your minder, Brother dear. Hopefully you’ll finally be immortal the next time we meet again.’
The door shut with a careful click.
‘Master Canus?’
Canus sighed, heavy and long. ‘Good evening, Simon. We may—’
‘We really need to train you out of this habit, my dearest.’
Calcea startled, dropping her eavesdropping spell.
‘Through the vents? Really, Chalcea,’ said her father. His hulking form stood at the turn in the hallway, having apparently seen right through her cloaking sorcery.
Chalcea stood up slowly, dusting off her gown. ‘Well, if you ever told me anything, I wouldn’t have to.’
‘You’re still a child, my dear. That discussion was not meant for—’
‘It was my prophecy, and it’s my brother.’ You’d think that they’d have learned by now that I have a better understanding of the future than any of them, she thought viciously.
Her father merely sighed. ‘I also wish it didn’t have to be like this, you know. If it didn’t involve something as important as the succession, I’d have been content to have Canus remain as he is for the rest of his years. You could still choose that, if you’d like.’
Chalcea bit her lip. How was it that her father still didn’t understand? She’s always made it so clear. She wanted to become immortal. Already, even at the tender age of eighteen, she lived and died by her sorcery: the tug of her blood as she spun the spells; the rush of satisfaction as a particular piece of sorcery finally locked in; the sheer delight in weaving new patterns of magic out of her power…
It would only get better once the transformation purified her blood—Chalcea had known this ever since she made her very first prophecy in the privacy of her own room, barely three hours after her mother died, when she’d been all of five years old.
‘No,’ she said simply, ‘I’m not as enamoured with mortal life as Canus is.’ How could I be, she thought bitterly, when I’m barely allowed to mingle among them?
Then she thought of something. ‘Father, if I became an immortal alongside Canus? He won’t feel as resentful, I don’t think, if he had a companion, and this way we wouldn’t have to worry about him accidentally trying to drink—’
‘No,’ he father said. ‘You’re too young, and I’ve already arranged matters regarding your safety. I’ll be fostering you out to your aunt in Birmingham until Canus is ready to start his own household.’
Chalcea’s heart sank. The Prince of Birmingham was a pleasant enough woman by all accounts, but Chalcea only ever saw her very briefly.
‘I see,’ she said.
‘And Chalcea?’
‘Yes, Father?’
‘Tell no one of this prophecy. This stays within our immediate family, do you understand?’
Chalcea frowned for a moment, wondering why her father felt the need to remind her of it. Chalcea tended to keep her prophecies to herself as much as possible. After all, who else was there and understood it?
But then, all of a sudden, Chalcea did understand. Eldest child of princely get—there are other princes out there, other such princely get. The Prince of London knew exactly how Chalcea’s prophecies worked, and he was trying to ensure his very personal control over it.
‘Yes, Father,’ she said, intending no such thing.
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‘It makes no sense! How can you be so sure that it’s related to this so-called Starlight Queen?’
She wanted to slap her, but the other girl didn’t seem to realise the blasphemy in her words.
‘And why did you tell it to me? The Prince—’
‘Can give me all the orders that he likes, and I won’t have to obey them until he becomes my Sire as well as my father.’
If the older girl is annoyed by her attitude, she doesn’t show it. Instead, she says, ‘But why me? I’m not the oldest progeny of my Sire.’
She tilts her head and smiles. ‘Are you really not?’
‘Please, my lady, there’s no one else!’Strangely enough, the man pleading to me from outside the reception chamber sounds completely mortal. He must have been a thrall at some point, but he can’t be any longer, not with that level of emotion to his voice.‘Simon, let him approach.’Simon gives me a look that speaks volumes of my presumed softness, which I pretend to ignore. To him, this is the first time that I've held court as Canus’s representative, but I’ve done it before, a time or two, back during my first life. It takes a moment, but Simon eventually unbars the door, letting in the human. Only two other petitioners are in the room, and though they seem annoyed, they also make no move to protest as I skip over their non-queue.As the human approaches, I realise that he’s somewhat familiar. I’ve seen him before. At court? No—he looked younger back then, barely more than a teenager, and he’d been immortal when we met, barely more than a newborn and stuck fast to his master, a dark
Canus and I don’t bother going in the front door. Instead, we peek around to the back. Only when we see a ghastly hole in the ground in the cemetery, raw soil overturned atop the lawn where Katy’s grave must have been, do we continue on inside.The halls are unlit and tranquil, but Canus doesn’t hesitate as he takes the winding turns that lead him to a suite of rooms that I don’t remember ever noticing before. It’s in an entire different section of the estate than the wing where Scintilla and I were assigned rooms. It’s been somewhat hastily refurbished, the must of decades of neglect mixing in with the sharp smell of self-assembly furniture.The door has been left ajar, and Canus and I slip in the small reception area just as Scintilla slips out of what must be Katy’s bedroom.‘Sire,’ she whispers, head bowed.I catch her gaze when she looks up and flash her a supportive smile. She doesn’t return it, but something about her bearing softens just the slightest.Canus jerks his chin tow
The last thing Canus remembers is the sheer devastation of it all—the bitterness that had seeped into his very core, the pain and regret in her eyes, the purity of her confusion as he gave her his last order. And then there was pain. And then there was nothing. Then, quite suddenly, there was something. There was rain, each droplet splashing down against the roof in a familiar arrhythmic patter, banging against window panes in similar fashion. There was the silken slide of his shirt against his skin, the press of firm cushions against his back. He was slowly lifting out of his trance. He’s always been slow to wake in the evenings, just like he’d been slow to wake from sleep as a mortal. He makes use of his grogginess well, however. Letting it dissipate as he collected his thoughts. Meditation, as he learned from a pair of old acquaintances—mystics of a rare western school of Buddhism—was an invaluable tool in the life of an immortal. It was a habit that he’d practised since long
The car swerves—that’s how startled Canus is by my question. When he regains control of it again, his fingers are tight around the leather of his steering wheel.‘Come again?’ he says. ‘I could have sworn that you said—’‘That Annia is convinced that I’m to be the Starlight Queen? Yes, I did. She saw me eavesdropping on Chryseus and didn’t report it to him, as far as I can tell. Lady Chalcea seems to trust her, too.’It’s not until the last sentence that Canus seems to relax a little. I grin to myself. For all that he calls her a spoiled brat, Canus still trusts his sister’s judgement.‘She was the one who took me to the shrine and told me who the Starlight Queen was supposed to be,’ I continue. ‘That is, after I accidentally lost my temper at her.’It feels so easy to tell Canus the truth, like some great burden is being lifted from my shoulders. I once imagined myself to be a practised hand at secrecy, but that was when I still had Scintilla or Chryseus in which to confide. I hadn’t
‘I love you, too, Favilla. Always have, always will,’ he says. It’s as gentle as I’ve come to expect of him, as steadfast and sincere as I could ever wish for. We stare into each other’s eyes for a moment, and then, as one, we say, ‘I’m sorry.’ We both pause, then open our mouths, then close them upon seeing our actions mirrored in one another. ‘You first,’ I say when I open my mouth again. ‘You have nothing to be sorry about,’ he says. ‘I do,’ I insist. ‘I’m sorry I did that to you. I didn’t mean to. You were never supposed to be the one to find me. I was—’ I pause, realising that it might not necessarily be the best path to follow. I start again: ‘I mean, I know I’m not Aura any longer, that she was the one who made the decision, that she was probably very ill and in a very bad place mentally, but I still feel responsible, somehow, for putting you through that. Please, let me apologise for that, at least.’ He seems to consider it for a moment, but then he nods, mind made up. ‘
‘It was grandad’s, you know. An antique, though I suppose not quite so antique as you.’ It had a smooth handle worn down by three generations of use, and it kept its edge remarkably well considering it went about a dozen years without anyone bothering to check on it.‘I did keep it, yes,’ Canus confesses.‘It’s pretty, isn’t it?’ I remember how its silver blade flashed in the dim and flickering candlelight. Looking back, I recognise how silly it was to put a tealight in the sink to see by. My thought process had been that, even if some strange happenstance knocked it over, I’d at least be certain that it wouldn’t catch the entire block on fire. I could have used proper lights, I suppose, but I was loath to waste electricity if it was going to be ages before anyone found me. If I were to die, I could at least help spare the planet from a similar fate.At first there was nothing, and then it hurt so much that I could barely slash my other wrist as well. Shortly thereafter, the cold came