Chapter 4

Goof

I have talked to Silvy through texts everyday since our lunch checking on her. I wanted to make sure she was doing alright. I would go by the hospital everyday if I could or wouldn’t look like I’m stalking her. She had her insemination two weeks ago and was supposed to go to the doctor for a blood test to see if it worked. She promised to call when she finds out the results. Call me an asshole if you want but I have my fingers crossed the test is negative. If it is positive Silvy is going to expect me to walk away. The hell I am. That is my kid and my woman. I’m not walking from either. I have thought over my options if Silvy is pregnant. I will have to change my plan.   I am going to have to woo her and let her know I won’t be going anywhere. I am going to the same thing  if  I get to fuck her to get her pregnant.  But if she gets pregnant this  time I will have to come up with reasons to be around her. Which I am prepared to do. I will do anything to get  my family.  

When I went to the doctor for my check up I asked hundreds of questions and did research. I have downloaded several pregnancy books and have started reading them. I have some experience with pregnant ladies after watching all the ol’e ladies go through it. More recently Pocket, Viper’s ol’e lady. They had twins six months ago. I was there to watch and help out when needed.  And what I didn’t know I looked up. I know about healthy eating habits Silvy needs to have. And I know as a nurse she won’t be able to do that very well but I’m going to step up and make sure she does even if I have to deliver food to her myself. And she will have to take vitamins, watch out for stress, get plenty of rest and watch her caffeine intake. Silvy will also need a support system. Me.

See I have studied. I’m sure other things will come up, like cravings and swollen feet especially since she is on them for long periods of time. And what I can’t learn from reading I know there will be an ol’e lady to ask. I am going to be prepared for this. I’m working at the dispensary today but I can’t focus. I am almost willing my phone to ring. I reach up to replace some stock when it finally does, playing Silvy’s ringtone. Yes she has her own tone in my phone. It is Flatliner by Cole Swindell because that is what Silvy is to me.  I damn near drop what I’m holding if not for some creative juggling. Lug looks over his shoulder at me and shakes his head. I can tell he is trying not to laugh. He can fuck off. This is an important call.

  I place the container on the counter and yank my phone out of my pocket. I swipe the screen and hold it to my ear. “ Hey, Silvy.” I said. “ Hey Goof. Are you busy?” she asks. I can tell from the tone she is sad. The question is is she sad because she is pregnant or isn’t? “ I’m at the dispensary.” I told her. “ Oh, sorry. I didn’t mean to bother you. Will you call me when you get off?” she asks. “ Silvy, I always have time for you. What happened?”  I asked. “ I would rather not talk about it over the phone. Can you meet me after work?” she asked. “ I’m out in thirty minutes. Just tell me where.” I told her.

“ Would you mind coming over to my house?” Silvy asked. I have hung out with Silvy numerous times but have never been to her house before. This is a big step and it shows how much she trusts me. As if asking me to be the father of her baby wasn’t enough to show me. Now she invites me to her private sanctuary. “ Send me the address. Do you need me to bring anything?” I asked. “ If you want any beer you will have to stop. I don’t have any.” Silvy said.  

I told Silvy I would be over after work and hung up. A second later I get a text with her address. I noted that Silvy lives just a few miles from Merigold. Our kids could have playdates. We could have playdates with all the kids at the club. Yes, I’m thinking that far ahead. Taking our baby to the clubhouse playroom while Silvy works. Teaching our kid to ride a bike, first day of school, birthday parties, family dinners, all of it. You may be wondering if I want a boy or a girl. I don’t give a shit as long as the baby and Silvy are healthy. Do I imagine a little girl that looks like Silvy but has my hair? Or a boy that looks like me but has Silvy’s eyes and hair? Sure I do but I don’t have a preference.

If we have a daughter and she wants me to sit at a tiny table and have tea parties, let me get the cookies. None of that fake shit for my princess. If we have a boy and he wants me to throw a baseball with him, let’s go in the backyard buddy. Our kid wants to color, where are the markers and crayons. My daughter wants to learn how to fix motorcycles, grab your tool box princess. My son wants to ice skate like Aunty Pocket, let's go get you some skates. And where is Silvy while we do those things? She could be at work or enjoying a hot bubble bath, a night out with the girls or joining us. Whatever she wants.

As I make my way to Silvy’s house I pay attention to the details. I want to make sure my girl is safe and not in a run down area.  The street is pretty quiet. The neighborhood is nice enough. The houses are in good shape. Definitely a family area. I passed a park on the way in ,that had kids running around. The yards are all fairly maintained with the occasional bike or kids toy in the yard.  When I pull up to address Silvy gave me I look around. The house in front of me is a two story cottage. It is painted light blue with white shutters. She even has those window box things with some yellow flowers in it. She has a small front porch that only has one step leading up it. 

There is a small concrete walkway with grass on either side. I see Silvy’s Dodge minivan parked in the driveway to the right side of the house. Silvy told me she got a family car  to prepare for the baby. I didn’t think she would get a van though. But if that is what she wanted I’m not going to say anything. There is plenty of room for us to have more kids. Enough looking around. My girl needs me. I get off my bike, stow my helmet  and walk quickly up her pathway. I knock on her door rapidly.

I don’t have to wait long before Silvy opens the door. My girl is standing before me wearing a pair of sweatpants and a tight tank top smiling. Even in this simple outfit she makes my heart beat faster and my pulse races. Damn she is beautiful.  “ Goof, thanks for coming.” she said, as she opened the door wider. “ Please, come in.”  she says, as she steps aside. I walk in and take a look around. To the right is a short hall that leads to the kitchen. To the right is a step down to the living room with plush beige carpet. Silvy shuts the door and leads me to her living room. She has a flat screen tv sitting on a stand that has a dvd player and sound system. There is a couch to one side and a love seat on the other both angled to get a good view of the tv. A rectangular coffee table sits in the middle 

Before I can take a seat Silvy asks “ Can I get you something to drink? I have tea, water, orange juice and I have a few cans of sodas.”  “ A soda would be great, thanks.” I told her. “ Have a seat. I’ll be right back.” Silvy said, and left down the hall. As much as I wanted to sit next to Silvy and wrap my arms around her, we weren't there yet so I went and sat on the love seat. Silvy comes back, hands me a can of soda and sits on the couch across from me. I pop the top and take a sip before placing it on the coffee table.

Silvy sits back and runs her finger over the rim of the glass she is holding. I’m not starting this conversation. She needs to do it.  After what feels like forever Silvy sighs. “ Goof you know I went for my test today.” she said. I just nod and let her speak. “ The test was negative but I wasn’t surprised since I started my period this morning.” Silvy said.  Inside I’m jumping up and down but I keep it off my face. “ Are you doing alright?” I asked. I need to know how she feels. I want to offer comfort if she needs it. 

“ Honestly, I’m a little disappointed. I’m looking forward to being a mom. I’m also realistic. I knew there was a good chance it wouldn’t take the first round.” Silvy said. This is something I love about this woman. She gets a set back but doesn’t let her from moving forward. Silvy sets her glass on the table in front of her. She places her hands on her knees and rubs. “ That brings me to the reason I invited you here. I still want you to be my donor. If you are willing.” she said. I nod letting her know that I do. “ Good. Now about  your terms. Do you still want to do it? Have  sex with me to get me pregnant.” she asks.  

“ Yes, I’m sticking with those terms.” I told her. I want our baby to be made the old fashion way, not in some doctor’s office.  I want our child conceived out of love. And I do love this woman. Silvy nods “ Are you going to be able to get it up to have sex with me? I’m nothing like the usual girl you go for.” Silvy said. Of course she is not the girls I usually fuck. I purposely pick girls the exact opposite of Silvy. I don’t want a copy of Silvy or close to it I want the real thing. “ I could get you a couple of magazines or put on some porn if you need the help.” Silvy said.

Is she fucking kidding me right now. I don’t need any of that. I just need Silvy. Naked. Just the thought gets me hard. I hold up my hand to stop her from talking. “ Silvy, I won’t need any of that shit. I don’t know about the assholes you have dated in the past, but trust me. I can get my dick hard for you. That isn’t a problem.” “ Are you sure?” Silvy asked. This is the first time I have ever heard her be anything less than confident. I wish I could rub against her and show her how hard I am for her. But not now. She will see soon enough. I settled for getting up and sitting beside her. I throw my arm around her shoulder and pull her close to me. Silvy lays her head on my shoulder and exhales. I feel her body relax into me.  I want her to be able to do this any time she wants. It feels good to have her be so comfortable with me so she can relax.

I get the feeling she isn’t able to do this often. “ Silvy, you are a beautiful woman. I can say with certainty that my  dick will work for you. I will show you when the time is right.” I told her. Silvy tilts her head up to look at me. She gives me one of her heart stopping smiles and says “ Thanks Goof. For everything.” I kiss the top of her head and rub her shoulder. “ You don’t need to thank me. So when do you want to do this and where?” I asked.

Silvy said in two weeks we could start. She said she didn’t want to have  sex at the club. I get that. She doesn’t want the club to know what is going on right now. And I don’t want to bring her where I have fucked skanks. We agree to meet here after her shifts or before depending on my schedule. She doesn’t understand I would change my whole day for her. 

I made sure she understood that she could call me any time in between our meetings if she needed. And that we could have sex more than once a day. I would keep him in bed all day during her most fertile time if I could. Waiting two weeks is going to be hard but worth it. I’m not even going to jack off so I can save all my cum for Silvy. After we get the baby making discussion out of the way I’m not ready to leave. I asked Silvy how things were going at the hospital. She told me how she had recently been moved to the emergency room to help out. I asked her how she was liking it. 

“ It is different, that is for sure. I get a new patient every few minutes it seems. We fix them up the best we can and send them on their way. Whether it be home or to another floor for more care. That is it.” Silvy said. “ And you don’t like that?” I asked. Silvy shakes her head “ No, I like getting to know my patients and being able to help them more than the ER allows. Be there to support them when their family can’t. I like knowing I’m making a difference in their lives even if it is small.” Silvy, I know you make a difference. I saw it with Lilly. And I have no doubt you are the same way with all your patients.” I told her. “ Thanks. You know you can be pretty sweet when you want to be.” Silvy giggles.

I love that sound. I wish she would do it more often. “ Keep that to yourself. I don’t need my brothers to think of me as sweet.” I said. Silvy busted out laughing “ Goof, it is too late for that. They have all seen it after Lita made you kiss her ouchy.” She has got me there. The kids have me wrapped around their fingers and know it. I have my brothers back any time they need it. But those kids I would lay down my life without even thinking. They are my nieces and nephews even if they don’t have my blood. There is nothing I wouldn’t do for them. “ What was I supposed to do? She was crying. And told me it would feel better if I kissed it.” It was three months ago and Lita had tripped and scraped her elbow. It wasn’t bad or even bleeding but it hurt. I fixed her up with a kitten band aid while Tank was in the bathroom.

“ You did everything right and made her day.” Silvy said. We sat and talked a while longer until we both got hungry. We ordered a pizza together. After we ate, Silvy offered to show me the nursery. I wanted to see where our baby would be sleeping. Silvy takes me upstairs to an empty room next to hers. She has a couple of paint samples taped to the wall. She explains she hasn’t decided whether to do neutral colors or find out the sex of the baby and paint it accordingly. She said she is leaning towards a neutral theme like puppy’s or cartoon characters. She said that after she paints she will baby-proof then bring in the furniture. 

Silvy even asks my opinion. I think about it for a minute and tell her I agree with going neutral. Silvy walks over to a book on the floor and shows me her three favorite themes. “ So what do you think?” Silvy asks. I flip through the pages a couple times before settling on a teddy bear theme. “ You can change them up a bit. Put one in a doctor's coat, a nurses uniform, a kutte, or a baseball jersey. I’m sure Merigold could help you with it if you want. I know you have seen her work.” I said. “ I like the idea. I do. Do you think Merigold would be willing to help?” Silvy asked. When I explain everything to Merigold I have no doubt she would. “ I think she would love to help.” I told her. “ I will think about it. I won’t do anything until I’m actually pregnant. Then I may ask her. Thanks for your help and the suggestion.” Silvy said. I hugged her and told her she was welcome. I couldn’t get enough of having her in my arms. I didn’t want to let her go. When I left the house I was looking forward to the next few weeks.I had a smile on my face as I knew I had taken another step to my future.