Chapter 4

The Kingsley estate was quiet when Cassian and Vanessa left for Julian's house.

Clara stood in the hallway, thin and pale, the yellow-green remnants of her bruises still visible. She had been recovering for three days, speaking to no one. The household had adjusted to the new order Vanessa at the center, Clara a ghost at the edges.

Cassian paused at the door. "Julian wants to see his close friends. You can see him another time."

Clara said nothing.

Vanessa slipped her arm through his. "We shouldn't keep Julian waiting."

Cassian turned away without another word. The door closed.

Julian Cross's mansion was old money and refined taste—neo-Georgian, surrounded by ancient oaks, filled with art and furniture that had been in the family for six generations.

Julian himself was waiting by the fireplace, tall and lean with a slow, knowing smile. "Vanessa Hale. The city has been unbearably dull without you."

She embraced him, laughing. "Still causing trouble?"

"Someone has to." His gaze slid to Cassian. "Good of you to bring her."

The living room was filled with familiar faces Marcus Chen, Derek Shaw, Priya Mehta, others who orbited Cassian's world like satellites. Vanessa moved through them like a returning queen, kissing cheeks, accepting compliments, laughing at jokes that weren't funny.

The conversation flowed easily. Someone poured drinks. Someone put on music. The afternoon sun slanted through the tall windows, casting golden light across the polished floors.

It was Marcus who started the reminiscing.

"Do you remember senior year?" He was on his third bourbon. "When Cassian spent an entire semester chasing Vanessa like a lovesick puppy?"

Priya looked up from her phone. "He asked her to prom five times."

"Five," Vanessa confirmed, her smile modest but not. "I turned him down for the first four."

"And he kept coming back." Marcus shook his head. "I've never seen Cassian beg for anything. But for you, he practically groveled."

Derek leaned forward, grinning. "Remember the rose garden incident? He had that whole speech prepared. What was it? 'You're the sun and I'm just a planet orbiting you' or some ridiculous thing like that?"

"It was 'You're the gravity that keeps me grounded,'" Vanessa said. "I still remember every word."

"Of course you do." Priya swirled her wine. "No one's ever forgotten Cassian Kingsley declaring his undying love in front of half the school."

The memories piled up like polished stones. Cassian driving two hours for her favorite dessert. Canceling a family vacation for her birthday party. Punching a guy who disrespected her at a party. Always chasing, always devoted, always hers.

"He loved her so deeply back then," Marcus said. "He would have done anything for her."

"He still would." Julian's quiet voice cut through the chatter. His eyes were on Cassian. "Wouldn't you?"

The room went quiet. Vanessa turned to him, her hand finding his, eyes bright with expectation.

Cassian shrugged. "Of course."

The word was effortless. A statement of fact.

Vanessa leaned into him. "The only man who's never let me down."

Beneath the table, her thumb tapped her phone. The video stopped recording. She attached it to a message, typed Clara's number, and pressed send. No one noticed.

Julian rose from his chair sometime later and suggested a game.

"Cards," he said, producing a deck from a drawer. "Simple rules. We go around the circle. Lowest draw takes a shot. No exceptions."

"Barbaric," Priya said, but she was already moving to join the circle.

The group rearranged themselves around the coffee table. Julian dealt with the practiced ease of someone who had done this many times before. The first round passed without incident Derek drew low and downed his shot with theatrical suffering. The second round went to Priya, who grimaced but drank.

The third round went to Vanessa.

She stared at her card with an expression of exaggerated dismay. "Oh, no. I can't."

"My stomach has been terrible all week. I can't."

"Rules are rules," Marcus said.

Vanessa turned to Cassian, eyes soft and pleading. "Will you drink for me? Please?"

The room erupted. "Drink! Drink! Drink!"

Cassian looked at Vanessa. She was pouting, her lower lip pushed out, her head tilted at an angle she knew he had never been able to resist.

He took the shot.

The whiskey disappeared in one swallow. The room cheered. Vanessa clapped her hands together like a delighted child.

"See?" She turned to the group, radiant with satisfaction. "Only Cassian loves me best. No one else even comes close."

Cassian smiled.

It was a small smile, barely a curve of his lips, but it was there. He set the empty glass on the table and leaned back, accepting the backslaps and laughter with quiet confidence.

Vanessa's thumb pressed send on the second video.

Forty minutes away, Clara sat in her bedroom and watched her husband smile at another woman.

The video played: the reminiscing, his voice saying "Of course" without hesitation, the shot he took for her, that smile. Only Cassian loves me best.

She watched until the screen went dark. Then again. And again. Around the fourth replay, the tears came hot and silent, tracing paths down her bruised cheeks.

She did not try to stop them. She let them fall, hot and silent, tracing paths down her bruised cheeks and dripping onto her hands. Her shoulders shook. Her breath came in ragged gasps. She pressed her fist against her mouth to keep any sound from escaping.

She remembered.

Four years ago. A bar in the financial district. She had been twenty-two, a junior editor, still stupid enough to believe love could be earned. She'd seen Cassian across the room tall, impossibly handsome and her heart had done something foolish.

"I'm going to talk to him," she'd told her friends.

"Clara, no. He's a shark. He'll eat you alive."

She'd gone anyway. "Hi. I'm Clara. You look very handsome standing here all alone."

His gray eyes had swept over her without interest. "I'm alone because I prefer it."

She should have walked away. She didn't. She chased him the way he chased Vanessa same desperate hope, same blind determination. She texted first, suggested dates, laughed at his silences, made excuses for his coldness.

Two months later, she'd told him she was leaving. She couldn't marry a man who felt nothing.

"There's a scandal," he'd said, voice flat. "Rumors about my sexuality. It's affecting the stock. Marry me. I'll give you whatever you want."

Not I love you. Not even I care. Just convenience.

And she'd said yes. Because love had made her blind, and blindness had made her a fool.

A fool to think she could change his cold heart and make him fall in love with her.

She remembered their wedding night. He'd left early for a "work emergency." She'd sat alone in her gown, holding her bouquet, waiting for a husband who never came.

She remembered every forgotten anniversary. Every missed birthday. Every cold dinner eaten alone at midnight.

She remembered the first time she had initiated sex.

She had bought new lingerie. Silk the color of moonlight against her skin. She had slipped into his study with her heart pounding, her hands trembling, her whole body electric with hope and fear and desperate longing.

He had looked up from his computer.

"I'm busy, Clara."

"Just for an hour. Please."

"I said I'm busy."

He had not looked at her again.

When he did come to her on his terms, when he wanted, when his body demanded release it was a transaction. He never kissed her. He never held her. He would finish, roll away, and leave her staring at the ceiling with tears sliding into her hair.

He had warned her, once, never to get pregnant.

"I don't love you," he had said, as if that explained everything. "I don't want a child with you. Understand?"

She had understood.

She had understood everything, and she had stayed anyway.

She remembered the Harrington account dinner. She'd spilled wine on Mrs. Harrington's dress. The woman had laughed it off, but Cassian's hand had clamped around Clara's arm like a vise. "Do you have any idea how badly that reflects on me?" In front of everyone. She'd apologized. She'd always apologized.

She remembered her parents' graves.

Every year, on the anniversary of the accident, she visited them alone. She brought fresh flowers peonies for her mother, who had loved them; white roses for her father, who had proposed with a single rose in a diner thirty years ago. She sat on the grass between their headstones and talked to them about her life, her marriage, her loneliness.

Every year, she asked Cassian to come with her.

Every year, he said no.

"Something came up at work."

"I have a meeting I can't move."

"I'm not good with cemeteries. You go."

He had never met her mother. Her father had died before the wedding. Cassian had never asked about them not their names, not their stories, not the sickness that killed her mother when she was in high school, not the accident that had taken her father on a rainy highway when Clara was twenty-two.

He had never asked if she was okay.

He had never cared enough to ask.

The memories faded. Clara sat on her bed, phone dark in her lap, cheeks cold and wet.

Somewhere inside her, the last thread snapped.

My husband does not love me. He has never loved me. He will never love me.

She had believed, for so long, that if she just tried hard enough, she could earn his love. She'd been wrong. She'd been a placeholder. A prop. A signature on a certificate that meant nothing.

Let him have her. Let him be happy.

Something calm and clear settled in her chest. Acceptance.

She stood and walked to the window. Somewhere out there, her husband was laughing with his friends, drinking for his first love. And somewhere out there, a plane ticket waited with her name on it.

One more night.

Tomorrow, she would board a plane to the other side of the world. Tomorrow, she would disappear into a new life where no one knew Cassian Kingsley or Vanessa Hale.

Her suitcase was already packed beneath her bed. Her passport was in the nightstand. The signed divorce papers waited in a manila envelope.

She was ready.

One more night, and she would be free.