Rejected and Insecure

The Beginning...

Edited! (I'm editing the book! Ya!)

"Oof," Christy huffed as she sat on the sofa.

"Are you alright?" Daniel popped his head from the mini bar, staring at his pregnant wife.

"Uh, yeah, the baby is getting heavier, do you think is a girl?" She rubbed her big tommy, deep in thoughts.

Daniel chuckled, "this is the trillionth time you're asking." He walk up to her on the sofa handing her a cup of milk.

"What? I have the right to ask, 'cause all our four kids are boys, maybe this one is a girl." She smile still staring at her tommy.

"Yeah, yeah, tell you what is a boy, and he has brown hair and blue like gray eyes." Daniel said.

"Uh-huh cause you can see through my stomach, I bet the baby looks exactly like me, is not fair all our sons looks like you!" She stare in his gray eyes with a pout.

"C'mon babe, is not my fault, my gene is more stronger than yours, maybe this time you have a little chance." He smirk, and Christy rolled her eyes.

"Yeah? I'll like to see your face when the baby is just like me, I've already told my baby to look like me and lot of stuffs about you." She narrowed her eyes.

"Like what?" He raised a brow.

"Wanna know? Why don't you ask our baby?"

"Sure!" Daniel lean closer to his wife's belly and press his ear gently against her skin, "tell me buddy, what did mum say about me? Huh? Oh I see, no way!" He regain his posture with a frown.

"What did you hear?"

"You really told him that? Aww that nice of you, you told him how lovely I am." He grinned.

"Did I?" She looked around innocently with a smile.

"You didn't? Ouch! I'm hurt." He held his chest faking a hurt expression, she rolled her eyes, suddenly wincing at the kick she received.

"Are you alright dear?" Daniel asked with worry clearly sounding in his voice.

"Yeah, this one punches more than all the rest, what a troublemaker we've got here?" Christy smile down at her belly where her little one rest.

Daniel sigh while grinning, he kissed her on the cheek.

"What's that for?" She asked.

"I guess I just can't resist the urge, your eyes are begging for it, have I told you how I always get lost in the blue ocean of your precious eyes?"

Christy smiled, returning the compliment with a kiss. "I love you so much!"

"I too."

"Seriously this baby is heavy! I hope he is not the huge type." She exclaimed wrapping her arms around her belly.

Daniel lean in to whisper to the child, "don't mind her bud she can be mean at times, please come out quickly, I wanna hold you."

Christy rolled her eyes with a sigh, "like he'll listen to you." She shook her head.

"Kids always listen to daddy," he grinned, standing up he made his way back to the mini bar.

"Ow!" Christ mumbled rubbing her stomach. "Please stop kicking." She felt another kick from the child with many other ones coming.

"Daniel! DANIEL!!" She screamed shutting her eyes and clenching her jaw.

Daniel dropped the glass he was holding racing to his wife, "breath, honey, breath."

"The baby is coming! He did listen to you!" She yelled squeezing his hand.

"Okay calm down. Henry!" He called out nervously grabbing his key.

"Sir?" The Butler came running in.

"Take care of the boys! Call dad, do the necessaries-"

"God!!! Daniel! It hurts!" She screamed digging her nails in his arm.

"Here, lemme help you," he helped her up and they made their way through the stairs to his car.

"I can't hold it anymore! I can't!" Christy screamed.

"Breath, babe breath, please do that for me, we're almost there." Daniel said as he boosted his speed.

Christy breath out so fast, till she loose it again, "it hurt so much! Argh!"

"What will be the name of our baby?" Daniel blurted out trying to distract her from the pain.

"I don't know!" She yelled squeezing her eyes shut.

"Try please, I know you can make it to the hospital! Please!"

"Christina if its a girl, Christopher if is a boy!" She blurted out.

"What have you budgeted for the baby?"

"I'll spoil him a lot, I'll cuddle and kiss him a lot, he'll be my angel! I'll cherish HIM! Ow!" She pants with sweats running down her body.

"Good honey, we're here!" Daniel carelessly packed his car, before hopping down and running to his wife at the back seat he managed to get her down, and they were quickly attended to.

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Daniel space in the hall while waiting for his wife to be out, that's what he's been doing for the pass three and half hours. He can't bring himself to seat, he's never done that before and he won't do it now, he is an experienced dad with the birth of four boys, but something wasn't right, she had never taken so long in a labour room.

Finally the door flips opened, the doctor walked out removing his mask, Daniel ran up to him all nervous.

"How is she? How is the baby?" He blurted out.

"Congratulations Mr Jackson, the baby is a boy in good health, but.." The door trail off looking away.

"But what?" Daniel breathing hitched.

"Your wife, she had a huge complication, her womb was weary, she didn't have the strength after giving birth to four boys in good health, we tried all we could but she didn't make it."

The moments the words left the doctor's lips Daniel found himself shedding tears something he hasn't done for years, he was a strong man nothing could make him cry, but the news came like a hurricane breaking all his solid barrels taking away all his happiness, his heart aches and a burning sensation erupted on his head, he heard the doctor screamed trying to stop him, but he shove him right away and barge through the door. He ran to the bed where his wife lay lifelessly with a white sheet over her head, he yanked it down.

"Please Christy wake up! The boys are waiting for you! The baby is okay, please don't do this to me! I can't live without you, to hell all my wealth I love you!" He screamed burying his head on her chest tears streaming down his cheeks, she won't open her blue eyes for him to be lost in them, she won't smile! All he wanted was his wife! was it too much to ask?

He stayed with her till the nurses pulled him away.

"I want to see my son," he said to the nurse, she showed him the way to the nursery.

"Here, you can hold him." She lifted the sleeping child out of his crib.

He put his hands out, reaching for the child softly. He didn't stop staring, she was right he was blond just like her, the baby started moving slowly, his tiny hands reaching up to rub his eyes, he flip them open blinking tiredly. Daniel was once again lost in the blue ocean of the child's eyes, how he wish he could tell her she was right. A tear slip from his gray eye landing on the babies face who flinched, he didn't help the smile that crept to his lips. The child was so innocent unlike some fathers, he knew the child had nothing to do with his wife's death, he lean his face against the child's and closed his eyes cuddling with the baby.

That same day he checked out of the hospital with the baby returning back home, the boys were all asleep, he laid the baby in a beautiful crib. Christy had decorated the room five months back, she was so impatient to see her fifth child she was always talking about him, she had the bright idea to choose the room close to theirs so each time the baby cries she'll be right there humming to him.

The child didn't seem comfortable his blue eyes were glossy with tears as he cried.

"Shush Christopher," Daniel said in hope to hush the child, but it was futile, then he recall the lullaby Christy would sing to hush the boys.