Surreal

*****Nikita POV*****

Evening after Jake’s funeral

Three hours later, I’m on my bed, turning and tossing, unable to fall asleep. Alcohol, drugs, excessive shopping, junk food and sex. Thats just the top five on the list of many, people have used to either drown their sorrows, dull the pain or try to mend a broken heart. I need something like that tonight. Just a few minutes of letting go. Just to forget that my brother is gone and I am now the heiress of the Davi bloody empire. I hate everything on that list but the last one. I have never really tried it to make any conclusion on it. My reasons are not really deep and definitely not religious. No one has ever been worthy of that, but nothing is stopping me from trying it on my own. With that in mind, I start touching my breasts like I have seen in the movies. Besides my nipples getting hard, I really don’t feel anything exciting. I am starting to wonder what the whole fuss is about sex. I remove my panties and start stroking my clit.