FAZER LOGINThe restaurant was on the top floor of a building in Tribeca that did not have a name on the door.
You had to know someone to get in. You had to know someone important to get a table. The kind of place where senators ate next to rappers and hedge fund managers ate next to supermodels and nobody bothered anybody because they had all paid too much to cause a scene.
Seraphina had bought out the entire floor for the night.
Damien arrived at 8:01. Late enough to make a point. Early enough to still matter. The host led him to a private dining room where six CEOs were already seated around a round table. Seraphina was at the head. She wore black. A silk dress that poured down her body like ink.
She did not stand when he walked in.
"Mr. Cross. You made it."
"I was invited."
"Sit."
There were seven chairs. Six were occupied. The seventh was at her right hand.
He sat.
The other CEOs watched him like he was a zoo exhibit. They were all men. All older. All wealthier on paper than he was, though he was closing that gap every quarter. They nodded at him. They smiled thin smiles. They knew what this dinner was.
It was a public execution.
"Gentlemen," Seraphina said. "Thank you for coming. I know your schedules are full. I will keep this brief."
She gestured. A waiter set a leather folder in front of each man at the table. Each folder had a name embossed on the cover.
Each folder except Damien's.
He looked down at his empty placemat.
Then up at her.
She was smiling.
"The offer is simple," Seraphina said to the other men. "Exclusive distribution rights to the Kane jewelry line for the next five years. Our margins are twenty two percent better than your current suppliers. Our lead times are half. Our designs have been featured on every major international red carpet this year. I am prepared to sign contracts tonight. I have my lawyer down the hall."
The men looked through the folders.
One of them, Damien recognized him, Silas Moreau of Moreau Maison, cleared his throat.
"Cross Corporation is our current supplier."
"I am aware."
"Our relationship with Damien is long standing."
"Your relationship with your shareholders is longer."
Silas smiled thinly.
Damien was trying to breathe normally.
"Ms. Kane," he said.
"Yes, Mr. Cross?"
"May I speak."
"Please."
He set his hands flat on the table. The six CEOs turned to him.
"Gentlemen. Many of you have known me since I took over Cross Corporation at twenty three. You know my family. You know my word. My grandfather built his company on handshakes and delivered on every one of them. I have done the same. Whatever Ms. Kane offers you on paper tonight, I will match it or beat it tomorrow."
Silence.
Seraphina watched him with something that might have been amusement. Or might have been respect. Or might have been something else entirely.
"A generous offer, Mr. Cross," she said. "But I am afraid it is too late."
She snapped her fingers.
The waiter reappeared with a folder. Placed it in front of her.
"These gentlemen signed contracts with Kane Industries this morning. Before the dinner. The papers were couriered to my lawyer in Geneva and countersigned before any of you arrived."
Damien felt the blood leave his face.
"You never intended to negotiate."
"I never intended to negotiate."
"Then why am I here?"
"Because I wanted to watch you understand what losing feels like."
The six CEOs shifted uncomfortably. One of them, he did not see who, coughed into his napkin.
Damien stood. Slowly. He leaned over the table until his face was inches from hers.
"I do not know what I did to you," he said quietly. "But I am going to find out."
"Are you, Mr. Cross?"
"I am."
"I look forward to it."
He walked out of the restaurant. Down the elevator. Across the lobby. Into the street. He got into his car and told the driver to go home. He closed his eyes and pressed his fingers against his temples until the pressure made him see spots.
Whatever I did to you.
He had said it. Out loud. He had heard himself say it.
Because somewhere in the back of his mind, in the place he did not look, he had started to believe that he had done something. That this woman was not random. That she had not appeared in his life by accident.
He just could not figure out what.
Or when.
Or who.
Back at the restaurant, Seraphina stood by the window watching his car pull away.
Lucas came up behind her. Slid a glass of wine into her hand. She did not take a sip.
"That was cruel," he said.
"He deserved cruel."
"Did he?"
She turned to him. "What is that supposed to mean?"
"I am just asking."
"Lucas, he threw me out pregnant in the rain."
"I know what he did. I was the one who picked you up. I know every inch of what he did. I am just asking if you are sure this is still about what he did. Or if it is about something else now."
She stared at him for a long second.
"What are you saying?"
"I am saying you did not eat today. I am saying you have not slept properly since the night at the gala. I am saying when he walked into this room tonight, your hand shook while you were pouring the wine. I have known you for three years. I have seen you pour wine through migraines. Through grief. Through an article in the Financial Times that called you a fraud. Your hand has never shaken. Until tonight."
She looked away.
"I am allowed to be nervous, Lucas."
"You are allowed to be anything. I am just saying. Be honest with yourself about what this is."
She did not answer.
Lucas set his glass down. Touched her elbow. Just a brush.
"I am going to the hotel. Call me when you are ready to go home."
He left.
She stood alone in the empty restaurant and looked at her reflection in the dark window.
His phone buzzed.
A text from Elena. His mother.
"Damien. Come to my house tonight. I need to tell you something."
That night, after Luna was asleep, Lucas came to Seraphina's sitting room with a bottle of wine and two glasses."We need to talk.""I was afraid you were going to say that."He sat across from her. Poured. Handed her a glass. She took it."Sera.""Lucas.""Are you going to go back to him?"She did not answer right away.She sipped the wine. She looked at the window. She thought about how to say it."I do not know.""That is not a no.""I know.""A month ago, it would have been a no.""I know."He set his glass down. He leaned forward, forearms on his knees, and looked at the carpet for a long time."Can I say something?""Yes.""I am not going to try to talk you out of it."She looked at him."What?""I have thought about it. For three years. I have thought about what I would say to you if this moment ever came. And the answer I keep arriving at is that I am not going to try to talk you out of it. Because that would be for me, not for you. And I have not loved you well for three year
Sunday afternoon came cold and bright.Seraphina pushed Luna on the swing at the playground near the house in Notting Hill. Luna wore a red coat and a matching beanie. She laughed every time the swing came up. She was missing her front tooth, and the gap made her smile look like a jack-o'-lantern.Lucas sat on a bench nearby, reading a book he was not actually reading. He had asked to come. Seraphina had said yes because she needed him there. She did not know if she needed him as a friend or a bodyguard or a witness, but she needed him."Mummy. Higher.""Hold on tight.""I am tight."She pushed.Luna squealed.At the far gate, a figure appeared.Damien. In jeans and a charcoal coat. His hands in his pockets. He had not shaved. His hair was a little wind-blown. He looked, she realized, exactly like a father at a playground. Not a billionaire. Not a CEO. Just a man.He saw her. He did not wave. He did not smile. He just stood there, waiting for permission to come closer.She nodded once
She woke at 6 a.m.He was still there.She had not believed he would still be there. Some part of her had expected to open her eyes and find the bed cold, find a note, find herself alone again, the way she had been alone for three years. That was the story she knew how to live inside.Instead, he was asleep next to her. On his back. One arm flung above his head. His breathing slow. His face was softer than she had seen it in a very long time.She looked at him for a while.Then she got out of bed, wrapped herself in the hotel robe, and walked to the window.The sun was coming up over the park. The city was still quiet. Below her, a few runners moved along the paths. A garbage truck worked its way up Fifth Avenue. New York, waking up.She thought about Luna.Luna would be getting up soon in London. Breakfast time there. The nanny would be making her toast with jam. Luna would ask for her mother, because she always asked for her mother in the mornings, and the nanny would say Mummy is w
The song ended.Neither of them let go.The orchestra started another song. Slower. A ballad she did not recognize. Damien's hand on her back felt like a thing she had been missing for so long she had forgotten it was missing."Aria.""Yes.""I want to take you home."She closed her eyes.She had been waiting for this sentence for three months. She had rehearsed her answer a hundred times. I am not ready. We said no. Rules. Boundaries. Self respect.What came out of her mouth was none of those things."Not your home," she said."Not mine.""My hotel.""Yes.""Damien.""Yes.""If we do this, I need you to understand something. This is not forgiveness. This is not a reunion. This is one night. And tomorrow I am going to have to look at you across a table and figure out whether I still respect myself. Do you understand?""I understand.""Do you really.""I understand that you are going to use me tonight to punish me for something I deserve to be punished for, and that I am going to let y
Three months passed.Seraphina flew back and forth between London and New York every two weeks. Luna started asking for her mummy the second the plane landed at Heathrow and crying every time Seraphina left. Seraphina held her tight each time and promised the same thing, over and over."Mummy is going to be home soon for good. I promise."She did not know if it was true.In New York, the Thursday dinners became a rhythm. Then twice a week. Then three times. Damien never asked for more than she offered. He asked for her opinion on a new building he was renovating. He asked about her collection. He told her about his week. He showed her photos of a painting he had bought at auction. He did not mention Luna. He did not mention the past. He did not ask when she was going to let him meet his daughter.He waited.His patience was starting to unmake her.On a Tuesday in May, Elena called."The annual Cross Corporation gala is in three weeks. Same venue. The Met.""Elena.""I am not telling y
The first Thursday dinner lasted fourteen minutes.She arrived at La Rouge. She sat down. She looked at the menu. Damien ordered a bottle of wine. She ordered nothing. She asked him one question, which was how his week had been. He started to answer. He said the word "Vanessa" in his second sentence. She stood up, put her napkin on the table, and walked out.He did not chase her.She liked that he did not chase her.The second Thursday, she stayed for forty-seven minutes.They did not talk about Vanessa. They did not talk about the past. They talked about a book. The Remains of the Day, which she had been rereading because it was the only novel she had brought with her from London. He had read it. He had hated the ending. She had loved the ending. They argued about it for forty minutes, and by the time dessert came, she was laughing once. Not a real laugh. A half one. But it escaped her mouth before she could stop it, and Damien looked at her like a man watching the sunrise after a lo







