Agonizing Suspense

Alpha Martinez

Bittersweet is all I can say to describe what I am feeling. I am twenty-three years old and for an alpha wolf, I am way past the age to find my mate. Fate smiled at me and I met my fated mate but I found her as she was knocking on death's door.

How then can I rejoice in this kind of situation? Others feel a tremendous amount of relief when they find their mates whereas I have to keep my fingers crossed and hold my breath. My mate is hanging by a thread as it is.

The truth is I do not even know if she will regain her consciousness or just slip over to the afterlife. I found her badly injured and barely breathing. All that I am holding on to now is hope. I have faith in our creator and hope that she will not leave me broken. Therefore I still believe that she will have to perform some sort of miracle to bring my mate back to me.

The injuries she suffered are so bad that even a werewolf could die from them. I am quite astounded by how strong my petite mate is. The fact that she is still hanging on to life is truly commendable. She has such strong willpower that is rare in humans.

I am praying that it is the power of the mate bond that is helping her. I recall that when I found her almost a fortnight ago after I told her to hold on to me, she seemed to have heard me. I saw a determination in her that gave my shattered heart hope.

I hope that she still has the same determination as before. The only painful thing is she has not shown any signs of recovery so far. All this while, I have not left her side. All the affairs of the pack are being handled by my beta, Juan. He is my most trusted right-hand man. I trust him with my own life.

My family has been truly supportive and I am grateful. The whole Moon Eclipse Pack is downcast because of Luna's predicament. Even the young pups come and stand by the window just to peep at their luna. I feel blessed to belong to such a family.

Some of the surrounding packs despise humans and many have rejected their human mates and taken in chosen mates. However, in my pack, rejecting your mate is taboo and punishable by banishment. Wolf, which, vampire or human, no one rejects their mate.

We are a pack that values our tradition and believes in our goddess. We believe that she never makes mistakes. She would never pair us with one that is not meant for us. That is why I have no problem with the fact that I am mated to a human.

This is probably the longest time I have ever waited for something. The anticipation is agonizing. Every day, I look forward to my mate's return but all I get is a disappointment. The anger and the helplessness are eating me up.

I am angry at whoever inflicted so much pain on my mate that I want to have a taste of their blood. I am angry at myself for never thinking of looking for my mate in the human territory. Maybe I could have gotten to her earlier and avoided this calamity. I feel quite helpless as I know that I cannot do anything for her right now.

All I can do is stay by her side and the rest lies with her. It is her willpower that can rouse her and bring her out of the limbo she is stuck in. I just hope she can return to me and rid me of this agony. I try to talk to her every day hoping that the mate bond will do the rest.

I have made it a point to send prayers to the moon goddess every day since I took over as an alpha. My father was killed in the war when I was fourteen. I became an alpha post-war at sixteen. I saw how much losing my father affected my mother. She almost died had it not been for me and my little sister.

That is why I chose to dedicate my life to the moon goddess. I pray for wisdom to lead my pack and I have always prayed for the protection of my mate even before I met her. This is why although. Am anxious, I know that my mate will recover. Not because she is not badly injured, but because I choose to believe the moon goddess will restore her.

The healer and the pack doctors have been working together tirelessly. I can see their sincerity and I am grateful. When I git back from the temple, I sensed something different from my mate earlier today. Her countenance has changed.

Her usually pallid face has a rose tinge to it. Even the pull of the mate bond seems stronger than before. All along, it was weak and barely discernable. I stretch my hand to remove the hair stand on her face and I jump back in astonishment. I get zapped by the sparks as if there is an electric magnetic field around her.

Even the first day I met her, the sparks were there but very subtle. Today it is different. I know that the goddess has heard my cry. My mate is returning to me. Quickly, I mindlink my beta, mother, sister, and the doctors.

Everyone gasps when they see the tremendous change in my mate. She looks more lively than ever. She just looks like she is napping and can wake up any moment, from now.

"Alpha, this is truly a miracle! This can only be the work of our moon goddess. We were hopeful but we did not expect her to recover this quickly. According to our assessment, she should have started showing signs of recovery in the next three months. This is a miracle I tell you."

"At this rate, I will not be surprised if she regains consciousness this very day."

Our pack healer Sapphire exclaims in so much joy mixed with disbelief. And what the doctor says after, makes my heart tingle with joy and anticipation. We all dit around her with bated breath.

Hours move and I can tell that not only am I losing hope but everyone else seems to be dejected. Just when we are about to get up and leave for dinner, my mate groans. I snap my eyes toward her and she gazes at me with keen interest. We get lost in each other's gazes whilst the doctors run around doing their work. The joy I feel is overwhelming and I can literally feel the relief from all the pack members.