LOGINI DIDN’T GO BACK TO WORK.
I took a detour to my purse and told Rochelle that VIP was all hers. Then I got the hell out. “I can’t believe you just left!” Sadie is still scolding me through the phone. “My uniform got ruined. My replacement was small. Then I poured drinks all over the Mustang players Phil’s been dying to get into the club.” I recount the events she’s already aware of, leaving out my parking-lot tryst. “I know when to call it quits. Nothing good was going to come from last night.” “Phil was pissed. Like more pissed than I’ve ever seen him. And you told Rochelle to cover for you?” Her voice goes up ten decimals. She hates Rochelle almost as much as Rochelle hates me. “You know that miserable bitch is the worst. She tried to steal my tips!” “I’m sorry. She was the only person I saw and I wasn’t thinking straight.” I attempt to placate her, more worried about the Phil part of what she’s saying. “But Phil. How pissed would you say he was? Like he’s going to put me in the shitty parts of the club for a few weeks or I shouldn’t go back in because I’m fired?” “He was going to fire your ass. He said it about a hundred times to the football players. ‘Sorry about her. I promise, she’s gone after the scene she caused.’” She mimicked his hoarse smoker’s voice so well I might’ve laughed if I wasn’t about to throw up. “What do you mean, he was going to fire me?” I try to get her to focus on the important part. “The guys didn’t care. Honestly, they were laughing after it happened. The only thing bothering them was Phil. He might as well have dropped to his knees. It was pathetic, truly.” “You are vivid to a fault.” “Whatevs,” she says. “Well then, the big dude with the hair came back. Which, by the way, has piqued my interest in the sport of football. If they are out there looking like him, my cute little ass is gonna be parked in front of a TV every Sunday.” “Sadie! For the love of God, tell me if I’m fired or not!” And stop reminding me about TK’s ass. “Sorry. Geez.” She sighs into the phone and starts talking before I hang up and call Phil my damn self. “So the big guy comes back. Mercer or something. And Phil apologizes straight to him this time. Telling him you’re fired, and I’m not shitting you, this Mercer guy had just sat down, and as soon as Phil said it, he stood back up, looking like a fucking angry giant and just towers over him, saying, ‘She is not.’ Just like that. With this deep-as-shit voice, he tells Phil if he fired you, he’d make sure nobody came back to the club. Phil looked like he was about to shit himself!” Sadie breaks into a fit of giggles. I, on the other hand, have to find a bench to sit on. TK went head to head with my boss so I could keep a job he made clear he thought was crap. “Isn’t that great?” Sadie says through her laughter. “Yeah. Great.” I don’t know what to do with this new information, I just know I can’t process it with her on the phone. “Listen, thanks for filling me in, but Ace’s soccer practice is about to end, so I have to go.” “Sounds good!” she says, oblivious to the crisis I’m having. “Tell him Aunt Sadie says hi!” “Will do.” I force cheerfulness into my voice. A skill I am way too practiced at. “Bye, babe.” I slide my finger across my screen, ending the call before she has the chance to say anything else. Owing TK is not something I need on my conscience. I’d rather get fired. Dramatic? Yes. But also accurate. I had a feeling last night wasn’t the last time I was going to see him and now I know it. What I don’t know is what the hell I’m going to do about it. I don’t think about it for long. Anger chases the confusion clear out of my system. The audacity of this guy. To come into my life and demand answers? Maybe my last week in DC didn’t stick with him, but it altered my entire life. He went on to live his dreams and I ran from everyone I knew to create a life for the person he didn’t even want. TK can screw himself if he thinks talking to my boss and doing the absolute bare minimum is going to earn him brownie points. We’ve spent too much time apart, with too many lies and too much hurt filling the voids, for this to end in anything other than disaster. “Mom!” My green-eyed ball of sunshine runs toward me, a soccer ball at his feet and a backpack that’s too big bouncing on his back, and chases away every dark thought clouding my mind. “Did you see my goals? Coach said I’m starting on Saturday!” “You know I saw them!” I give him a high five, just as excited and proud of him as he is of himself. “And I saw that new fancy footwork you had out there.” “Oh, you saw that, did you? Just a little somethin’ somethin’ I picked up watching videos on YouTube.” God. This kid. Too cool for his own good. “A little somethin’ somethin’? I can’t with you.” I’m fast losing my battle to stay serious. “Yeah, you know I got those skills, Mom.” He wiggles his eyebrows my way and I lose any semblance of a strict mom. “I know.” I nudge him with my shoulder once I stop laughing. “You get ’em from your mama.” “Suuuurrreee.” “What?” I stop cold in my tracks. “Ace, don’t make me take your soccer ball and whoop you in front of all your little friends.”He deserves no response. I pull open the gate, cringing a bit at how loud the squeak is getting and add WD-40 to the running grocery list in my head. Just like every time I make my way up the walkway to our front door, happiness flows through me. There may be a lot of projects I’d like to get done to the house, but even so, I love it. Our little bungalow in Denver’s historic Five Points neighborhood is my most treasured possession, after Ace, obviously. With its violet shutters, turquoise flower boxes, and mint door, I’m sure any HOA-regulated neighborhood would have a coronary. It’s everything I dreamt of when I was a Barbie-toting little girl, but so much more because it was Maya’s. When I was sixteen, pregnant, and terrified—and years ahead of what could’ve been a lucrative MTV opportunity—Aunt Maya was the only person in my life who didn’t give up on me. Not only did she not give up on me, she took me in when my parents put me out, severing the final threads of an already s
“Mom, you’re not faster than me and . . .” He pauses and scrunches his cute little nose. “No offense, but you’re old.”“I’m twenty-seven, for goodness’ sakes! That hardly qualifies me for anAARP card.”“A what?” Dammit.Now I feel old.“Never mind.” I reach over to him, slip off his backpack, and throw it over my shoulders for our walk home. “I’m not old, though.”“I was just kidding; I know you aren’t. All the boys on my soccer team and my class have crushes on you. I told them it’s gross, but they don’t listen to me.”Oh great. I have a bevy of nine-year-old admirers and none of age. I don’t know if I should be flattered or scaling back my volunteer hours.“Tell them I have cooties.” I elbow him lightly on his shoulder.“Already did.” He smiles up at me, his lone dimple on his left cheek appearing. “Sooooo, Mom.”Knew it. He doesn’t flash the dimple unless he wants something. “What do you want?”“Well, I was thinking, I really like soccer and I think flag football is super fun.” He
I DIDN’T GO BACK TO WORK.I took a detour to my purse and told Rochelle that VIP was all hers. Then I got the hell out.“I can’t believe you just left!” Sadie is still scolding me through the phone.“My uniform got ruined. My replacement was small. Then I poured drinks all over the Mustang players Phil’s been dying to get into the club.” I recount the events she’s already aware of, leaving out my parking-lot tryst. “I know when to call it quits. Nothing good was going to come from last night.”“Phil was pissed. Like more pissed than I’ve ever seen him. And you told Rochelle to cover for you?” Her voice goes up ten decimals. She hates Rochelle almost as much as Rochelle hates me. “You know that miserablebitch is the worst. She tried to steal my tips!”“I’m sorry. She was the only person I saw and I wasn’t thinking straight.” I attempt to placate her, more worried about the Phil part of what she’s saying. “But Phil. How pissed would you say he was? Like he’s going to put me in the shit
I ALWAYS CONSIDERED WEARING HEELS ONE OF MY WEAKNESSEhere, I wore them around the house for hours until I no longer looked like a newborn giraffe. I wasn’t sure if it was worth it, considering the questions I had to dodge about why and how and where I was going to wear them. But as I take the stairs at the Emerald Cabaret two at a time and reach the back door in record time, I know it was probably one of the most useful exercises I’ve ever forced upon myself.I hit the metal door running and it flies open and starts to close just as fast. I barely miss it clipping my shoulder before I hear it slam shut.Freedom.Hands on my fishnet-covered knees, I gulp in the warm Colorado air. Between the sobs threatening to escape and my desperate need for oxygen, it feels like I’m swallowing razors. I’m so hot, I feel like I might pass out at any given moment. My straightened hair is shot to hell, I can already feel the curls forming against my neck. But I still can’t stop shivering. My stilettos
The Man I Never Wanted to See Again Was ACE Mercer. And I Had A Very Big Secret I Was Hiding From Him.!!!It's been SIX years since I last saw him. And willingly so. I wanted nothing whatsoever at this point to do with him again. So now I’m working at an upstate nightclub as a waitress. It wasn’t an ideal job and it didn’t have an ideal pay. But I was running away from Zillionaire, I had to be discreet. I take comfort in knowing I’m rocking the shit out of my sequined corset and my legs look fab in my sky-high heels and stockings.This is my gig. I am Meryl. I am Julia. I am Sandra. I got this.I repeat the mantra in my head on a loop until I round the table and take a deep breath to greet my new group of customers.Then I see him and everything is forgotten.Everything tonight, at least.Not the bus ride across town. Not Mrs. Mercer staring with disgust at my bloated midsection, telling me he didn’t want me. Not all my dreams going down the drain.Not the white-hot burn of rejectio







