"Heszhia Viggo Croñelo. What a beautiful name you got there, young lady. It suits you well because of how fierce you are," the old man uttered that made my eyebrows furrow and my forehead crumple. I can't remember that I introduced myself already to him so how the heck did he know my name?
And I know Cayden didn't tell him my name either. We're just together all the fucking time here. Why did I even end up talking to this old man who knows nothing but to say such useless things that I will never want to hear? Gosh, I want this to end already.
I actually don't act like this when people are good at me but when it comes to him, my blood just instantly boil in so much anger which I don't know where it came from. I just felt that I'm angry at him and at the same time I want to be close to him. I don't know. This is fucking weird.
"How did you know me?" I asked him that made him chuckle. It's just the both o
"You can't leave! Not now," the man told us when we asked him what he can do to help us. I was just curious how we'll be able to fix everything when we aren't still moving and here he is, giving us such fucked up answer which we aren't even expecting to hear. What the fuck is his problem? Why is he stopping us when that actually is our reason why we're here? He's not planning something, is he?I mean why would he even stop us from living if that's what should actually happen? Is he trying to sabotage us now? If not, then what can be his other reason? I can't seem to understand him. I'm confused and furious about everything about him. Is he even sane for trying to tell us that? He's hecking crazy for fuck's sake! How can he have the guts of saying that to us without thinking of what we can do to him?Yes, he has been welcoming; yes, he became kinda good to us but that doesn't mean he can already decide for us when he actually has
"I was the one who helped your mother do it, Heszhia." Fuck! Say what? What is he saying? Have I heard it right or am I just hearing things that he didn't actually say? Because I don't think I've heard it right."What did you say?" I asked him while looking straight at his eyes, wanting to know his answer from it and to see if he really is telling the truth. I want to clarify things for I don't think it's possible that he knows my mom.I know that I wasn't able to see my mother but I don't think it's possible for him to know him if he isn't someone important. If he really knows my mother, then she trusted him that much so should I trust him too? I don't think so. It's not that my mother isn't capable of befriending anyone but I just have a different feeling about this like I won't like whatever I'll know today and I just hope that that won't be true. He's not going to hurt me, will he? Well, I won't let him do that unless I'm alr
This is so messed up already. I can't believe that I was actually meant to be here to feel pain again for the nth time. I am not happy knowing that my father is still alive. Rather, I'm angry at him because he could have saved our family instead of just thinking about himself. See? Now tell me a valid reason why I should give him another chance because I can't see anything for me to consider him as my father! I will never understand any of his reason when it's clearly just because of how selfish he is.He shouldn't have shown himself to me for I will just get hurt over and over again and question him.I saw him starring at me with love in his eyes full of tears.So he's crying? How dare he cry when it's him who lived without thinking that he might get killed anytime! We were the ones who suffered and not him! What a thick face he has there for even showing himself up to me! I loathe him! I fucking loath
"Then a family adopted me here. They took good care of me and treated me like a family. I didn't even want them to help me at first. All I wanted was to be alone or better yet to end my life but they didn't let me. They did everything for me to be alright even though they don't know anything about me and they shouldn't trust me that easily. I don't want to accept them because all I wanted was to be with your mother even if that means I'll need to die to be with her. I was so desperate and helpless that time and yes, I really am a coward." He then stopped before looking at me like he's remembering my mother through me before talking again. "I never looked at any woman after your mother. I was too crazy for her and I'm afraid to love again for I'm always thinking about your mother. I know I'm the reason for her death and if I'll love again, what if I'll also be the reason for another woman's death? I just love your mon too much that I can't ever forget her even though it's already yea
I spent my day here in my room. I don't know how I'll face him. I don't even know if I'll still let my finger win over me or if I'll be able to forgive him this time. I don't want to get out of this house to see the result of what I told him. I don't want to see him that miserable again but I know that outside this room, he's mourning because he lost his wife and he also lost his daughter who hates him right now. I know it's painful to a father to be called useless but that's just what I told him which I'm regretting now. I don't know how I was able to tell him those things out of my anger. I feel so evil now because of that and I already want to make everything right.I hate to admit this but I'm afraid to risk. I can risk my life for the world but this is my weakness. The word 'family' is my business and when it comes to that, I'll always be weak and unable to fight for myself and he's my father so I have no idea what I should do. I may have been deprive
"Please... Don't leave. I know it'll be too dangerous for you and I want to be selfish for now. Please, Heszhia..." My father begged when I asked him to build a time machine already because we've already lost so much time. We had this topic the moment our talk ended about him apologizing to me. I thought I will end out well but I never expected that I'll also have a hard time convincing him. He's my father and of course, he has the right to decide for me.We should be entering that war now instead of being here but he's stopping me..he doesn't want me to go there even though that's just for everyone's sake. I may not know him but I also know that he wants the best for everyone but after everything he has been through, I know he's just afraid to lose me."But dad, you know that I have to do it. I and Cayden have to do it for the world's sake. I can't just run away from it because it's my responsibility from the start as a human being from the future that I n
"Where do you want to go?" Cayden asked me after sending me a breakfast in my room that he cooked. We actually agreed that we'll go to every place that I want in that who'll year and that's in favor of me of course. I mean who wouldn't want to explore before dying, right? Just kidding. Of course, I won't let myself die that fast.I have so many places in mind and we can do that the whole year and of course, I also need to have time with my dad other than going on an adventure and such. That's actually the main goal here but while I'm here, I also need to enjoy my freaking life which I never even expected before. I mean being happy? That's just my wish but now it's coming through. If I can just stay here without being guilty of what I left, then I freaking will."I don't know but I was actually wondering if there's a forest around here. I would love to know how it looks like in person. I've never been into one. I would even love i
"Let's go! Hurry! Why are you so fucking slow, Cayden?" I shouted at Cayden while we were preparing for our journey today and that is to go hiking. That's my main goal today and I won't really stop bugging him if we won't be able to do that. And now, he's moving so freaking slow inside of his room. I guess he's fixing some things that he'll bring.For fuck's sake he doesn't need to bring his whole room there! I was even faster preparing than him! I just wanna barge in inside his room but of course, I don't want to see what he's doing in there. I'm afraid I might see something I don't want to see. Who knows what my mom put on him so I just decided to wait outside his room to fasten him up but he seems to be getting so slow already. What is he even doing that it's making him buy so much time?"Just a sec!" He shouted back from his room and that's my call to go out and ride inside the car. I'll just wait for him there instead of shouting