Chapter 23.2

This is so messed up already. I can't believe that I was actually meant to be here to feel pain again for the nth time. I am not happy knowing that my father is still alive. Rather, I'm angry at him because he could have saved our family instead of just thinking about himself. See? Now tell me a valid reason why I should give him another chance because I can't see anything for me to consider him as my father! I will never understand any of his reason when it's clearly just because of how selfish he is. 

He shouldn't have shown himself to me for I will just get hurt over and over again and question him. 

I saw him starring at me with love in his eyes full of tears. 

So he's crying? How dare he cry when it's him who lived without thinking that he might get killed anytime! We were the ones who suffered and not him! What a thick face he has there for even showing himself up to me! I loathe him! I fucking loath