I walked to my room and screamed when I was tackled to the ground. I started laughing as Cassie got off me. “Why the heck didn’t you tell me you were coming?” She punched my shoulder as I stood.
“I didn’t know until this morning.” I hugged her to my side. “I missed you.” “I missed you too.” She pulled back and tossed me a small box. “Happy birthday.” I laughed again. “With everything that has happened, I had pretty much forgotten that it’s my birthday today.” “The big eighteen. Have you shifted yet?” Cassie jumped up and down with excitement. I just shook my head. “I don’t shift. You know that.” My face fell. I heard chuffing inside of my head. “I think you are just blocking it. You have a wolf. We all feel her.” She bumped her hip into mine. “I can feel she wants out.” My wolf chuffed in agreement. Cassie is smarter than you. My wolf’s voice ricochetted in my mind and I just smiled. There are things I cannot tell you, even now, but eventually, if we are lucky, you will find out your answers. I rolled my eyes. Yet another non answer from Nix, my wolf. She snorted back to me and then receded into the back of my mind. “Nix still not answering you?” “She is, but it’s more of her non answers.” I grabbed my bag and opened it up. “You will never guess what happened today.” Cassie flopped on my bed. “Tell me everything.” I opened my mouth to tell her I lived before and my father’s voice sounded in my mind. Baby girl, I know you might want to tell Cassie what happened with your first life, and I understand the need, but don’t tell anyone yet. You can’t seal their tongue and our heritage is dangerous. Okay, dad. I won’t. I love you. Then his voice was gone and I had to reorganize my thoughts. “Tell me.” Cassie threw a pillow at me and I shook my head. “I think the alpha’s son is my mate, and so does Shannon. She lost her ever loving mind, and was stealing my clothes so that he would pay attention to her.” I shook my head in disgust. “She was trying to steal your mate?” Cassie’s eyes flashed. “She can have him. I don’t want or need her sloppy seconds. Even if she hadn’t already fucked him, which I am sure she has, I wouldn’t have wanted him. He is mean and vindictive. And just…small.” “Like small, small?” Cassie held her finger and thumb close together and shot her eyes to the apex of my thighs and I bent over laughing, tears springing to my eyes as she joined in. “I have no idea.” I wiped my eyes after I calmed down. “Nor do I want to. I just mean even as an alpha, he gives off small man energy? I don’t even know how to explain it exactly. Just that even when he is pushing his alpha aura, I feel nothing, not even a little bit, not even a fraction of what my dad does.” I sat down on my bed. “And you don’t want to be with a mate that is weaker than you?” “No, it’s not that.” I shook my head. I wasn’t explaining it right. “I know that if given an excuse, he would betray me. His devotion would be weak, just like his aura.” “Ah. Now I understand.” Cassie rolled on to her back and huffed. “That would be the absolute worst thing. I don’t know how your dad is dealing with the pain.” She shot her eyes to me and grimaced. “Did everyone here know the truth?” Cassie shook her head. “No, but once you guys left, and the Alpha never stayed with the she-wolf. With any she-wolf, we figured something was wrong, and then the wolf was born and we could all smell the girl’s mate on the pup, and we knew they lied. We just don’t know why.” Cassie rolled over. “Do you know?” I nodded. “My dad told me the truth today when I told him I wanted to reject my mate.” “Well, this is just depressing. Let’s go out and do something?” Cassie sat up and I just shook my head. “C’mon.” “I have training in the morning and my dad said it was going to be brutal.” “So you can’t go out today? Bull. Get up. We are going shopping and then I will parade you in front of everyone to make them jealous that my best friend is the Alpha’s daughter.” I perked up. “Has anyone been giving you issues here?” Cassie shook her head, but I could see someone had. “Cass?” She huffed and then nodded a little. “Just a few she-wolves that think their shit doesn’t stink and have a higher rank.” Amanda and her little posse, I could only assume. “Do they give you a lot of trouble?” “Only a little.” She just grabbed my arm and pulled me to the door. “Enough of them, I don’t care. I just missed you, and I want to parade around with my best friend.” “Deal.” I couldn’t say no to her when I knew she was being bullied. Cassie was weaker than me, but then again, everyone was. But she was sweet and had been by my side since birth. Her mom and my mom used to be best friends. “But you need to point out who is bullying you.” “No way. I can handle it.” “I know you can, but you shouldn’t have to.” I could feel Nix coming closer to the surface. My anger was already rising. “You aren’t here enough.” Her whisper had me pulling her to a stop. “I don’t mean to make you feel bad, but you aren’t here enough to start something with them for me. Because it will only get worse once you leave again.” She looked back at me with sad eyes. “So, can we just drop it?” I nodded my head but swore to myself that I would figure out this situation. “Let’s go have some fun. Parade me all you want. I’m here all summer.” I smiled and pushed the Amanda bullshit to the back of my mind. I would handle her as soon as I could.I shook my head. I had to think of what I would say next. I swallowed past the lump in my throat. “When the goddess was giving me power, I felt something.”He cupped my cheek. “Tell me.” The trust and devotion in his eyes settled me. “My babe.” His breath caught.“You're pregnant with my pup?” I shook my head.“Shush. Just listen.” I grabbed his hands. “When the goddess was filling me with power, when it reached my stomach, I felt it. The flutter of life.” I struggled to find the words. “But it was familiar. One I had grown to know, one I had memorized.” His brow furrowed. “You aren’t making much sense. All babies move the same.” He tried to make sense of my jumbled words. I shook my head. “In my first life.” I think in that moment he started to understand, and his face turned a little sad. “What are you saying, Amy?” Toya’s voice was soft. But I could feel her behind me.I shook my head. “I’m just going to say it out loud, and then we can argue about the ridiculousness of it.” Ro
Everyone spun from the grave to see Alannah bent over in pain. Her hands were clutching her heavy belly as she stared down at the barely filled grave. “No…it’s too soon. They aren’t ready.” She turned to look at me, and I could see the panic there.My mother grabbed for her side. “I don’t think they agree with you, Momma.” She wrapped her arm around her back, and Wendy stepped up to my side, taking my place. “Baby?” My mother looked at me over her shoulder as she spun the groaning Alannah back towards the cabin. “Yeah?” I felt my stomach clench as I watched as my friend was herded away. “Finish here. Then come upstairs.” She turned away as Rowan stepped up next to me. “I don’t think we have the time to stay for the birth.” His voice was soft, but Toya came back to our side. She closed her eyes for a second and she shook her head. “All the mindlinks from my pack were severed.” Her voice was soft but filled with worry. “I’ve been trying to reach my father since the battle.”I reache
I leaned against the side of the cabin, and Rowan settled next to me. “That was…” His voice was soft, and hesitant. “A lot.” I finished. He laughed. “It’s gone.” He looked back at the grave.“What’s gone?” I turned to look at him.H waved his hand at me. “Your mark. You are back to normal.” He smiled. “Which is great because I missed your normal eyes.” He leaned over and kissed me. “You are so beautiful.”I snorted. “I’m covered in dirt, blood, and I don’t want to think about what else.” He cupped my cheek and stared down into my eyes. “That changes nothing. You are still the most beautiful woman I have ever seen.” He kissed me again as the door slammed open.“Get a room, you two.” Rick limped out, a bruise healing on his face. “You look rough.” I grabbed for him as he stumbled over the hose. “Yeah…I’m still weak from Vince. So healing is taking a little longer.” He winced as he licked the corner of my mouth. “Can’t worry about it too much.” He settled next to us as he nodded ove
Rowan stared at me for another long second before he traced my forehead with a finger. “Your Goddess Blessed.” He sounded breathless and surprised. I nodded, staring into his eyes. “Yes…” I furrowed my brow. “I thought you knew.” A soft light rippled on his face, and I looked up to the sky, trying to see if the moon was trying to shine down on us through the clouds.“I did.” He tilted his head, still staring at me. “But hearing it and seeing it are two very different things. This,” he waved his hand. “Is different.”“What do you mean?” I looked from him to Alannah and then landed on my mother. “Mom?”“Your mark…your eyes…they changed.” She pointed to her own forehead. “It was a normal Goddess Blessed mark, the crescent moon. But now it’s more…” She trailed as she leaned closer. “I don’t know why.”“More?” I looked back at Rowan. “, More how?”He pulled his phone from his pocket and aimed it at my face. I heard the click of his camera as he took the photo. He turned the screen towards
I wiped my tears and stood. I turned to see my mother peeking around the corner, but I waved her off. Rowan furrowed his brow. “Why did you wave her off?”I grabbed one of the shovels in his hands and then started digging. “I didn’t want her to come back over with Alannah until the evidence was gone.” I waved my hands over my face. “Why?” Rowan smiled, but it was a little hesitant, like he didn’t know why I wouldn’t want Alannah to see me cry over her mate.I rolled my eyes. “Don’t play dumb.” I pointed at him. “You know exactly why.” I looked up, and I realized he didn’t. His eyebrows were pinched, and he was staring at me. “I'm an Alpha, and until she settles at my dad’s pack, she is mine.”“So?”I stopped digging. “An alpha needs to be strong for their pack; we can’t show our weakness.”“That’s bullshit. I watched you with Toya and Wendy.”“That’s different.” I shook my head.“How?” He started digging again, and the hole started to get wider. “When I’m just me, just Amy, then I d
Once the pair disappeared around the cabin, Rowan handed me my shovel, but I held up a finger. I moved over to Ternen. “Hey friend.” I wiped his hair out of his face. “I know you are worried about her.” Rowan came up behind me. I could feel his strength trying to seep into me, but I pushed it away. I didn’t deserve the peace he was offering. “You probably don’t believe me when I say I’ll watch over her. I was supposed to watch over you too, and now look at us.” My voice caught. “I’m so fucking sorry.”“Amy.” Rowan reached for me but I shook my head. “This isn’t your fault.”I couldn’t stop the chuckle that left my lips, but it quickly turned into a sob. I slapped a hand over my mouth trying to push it all away. I didn’t have time to break down. “It is.” I looked back down at Ternen and I cupped his cold cheek. “He was alive, and warm less than an hour ago. I should have been faster.” I shook my head again. “He’s dead because of me.”Rowan dropped next to me. “He’s dead because Garith