Masuk
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Viana’s POV Have you ever had life sucker-punch you so suddenly that the ground feels like it’s tilting beneath you? Not the dramatic kind,not the kind you scream about in movies. The quiet kind. The kind that settles in your chest and won’t let go, no matter how fast you run. That was me. I’d spent the last year trying to outrun a past that kept turning up like a bruise—my father’s death, moving to a new town, the way everything familiar rearranged itself without asking how I felt about any of it. One minute I was a girl fighting for a future, trying to earn her spot in a world that didn’t hand things out. The next, I was packing up my old life, forcing myself into a new one, with a new family I never asked for. So I made a promise to myself: stay focused. Stay invisible. Stay in control. Simple. But college had its own plans, and trouble had a name—and apparently, a smug mouth, a perfect jawline, and a talent for ruining peace without even trying. I just didn’t know it yet. Not until the day everything shifted. Not until the moment our front door opened, and the chaos swallowed me whole. ~•~ CHAPTER 1 The dining hall was pure chaos. Lunch trays slammed against the tables, loud boisterous laughter bounced off the walls, and someone had just spilled soda across three tables without even flinching. Sports kids were bouncing and throwing balls everywhere hitting innocent bystanders who demanded apology or just walked away sheepishly. College was no different from highschool, just slightly harder courses, much more freedom and space big enough to encourage the worst decisions. It took me a lot to get here, one of the biggest colleges in the country with scouts in every corner looking for the next great mind to take under their wing and mold them into something amazing. My major was biometrics engineering and it's one of the top ten hardest majors to get into and I was the first in my town to do so. Sleepless nights, multiple tutors and extra classes, I did everything possible even putting myself in the hospital and getting diagnosed with chronic fatigue in the process but I did it. I sat by the window with my laptop open, highlighter tapping against my notebook like a metronome. ‘Constantly focus.’ That was my rule this year. Keep my scholarship, stay invisible, and have no distractions. It was working very well until the noise shifted and all eyes turned to a particular spot. A ripple went through the room, heads turning, whispers sparking like a fuse. I didn’t even need to look to know who had just walked in. The air practically announced his presence. Alvin Monroe. The hockey team’s star, the school’s walking ego trip, and every girl’s favorite mistake. He was the person every girl wanted and every guy wanted to be. A poor choice of role model in my opinion. I made the mistake of glancing up as he passed. He strolled down the center aisle like the place was his runway, his teammates trailing behind him, girls nearly tripping over themselves for a smile. He had that annoying laugh, the kind that said life was a joke only he was in on and the rest of us were just stupidly taking it seriously. But why would he take anything seriously, he has everything and anything everyone wanted. He had fame and not just in the university but in several cities round the country. He had magazine covers that were painted in his face, blog and fan clubs created to adore him. He has clubs ready to take him once he graduated from a college, a successful father who was very influential. He had everything and so the rest of us had to struggle and work hard for what he got easily. I dropped my eyes back to my notes. Nope. Not today. Not this ever. Alvin Monroe wasn’t even going to register on my radar. “Hey, Carter.” My pen stilled in motion. I looked up slowly, and sure enough, there he was, a tray in his hand, that cocky smirk plastered on his annoyingly perfect face. “Didn’t think this was your scene,” he drawled. “Don’t you usually have your nose buried in a book?” A couple of people nearby chuckled. My neck burned, but I forced a smile sharp enough to cut his stupid smirk. “And don’t you usually have a girl glued to your arm? Must’ve lost one on your way over.” His smirk faltered, just for a second, before it bounced back even brighter. Without asking, he dropped into the chair across from me, like I had been waiting for him all along. “Guess I’ll have to bother you instead,” he said, leaning forward, his elbows on the table. I gripped my pen tighter. This was supposed to be my semester of peace. My semester of control. But with Alvin Monroe smirking across from me, I knew one thing for certain peace was officially cancelled. "I have work to do so I need you to leave me be." "Nahh, I can't do that after all our MOM told me to keep you safe." I stilled at his emphasis. "Stop it Alvin. We are at school right now I don’t want any form of attention.” "You want to deny our relationship in public? But have you forgotten exactly what we are, huh step sis?" ************* A week earlier. The girls locker room always smelled faintly of sweat and floral body spray, a weird mix of ambition, eye service and vanity. Girls were clustered in front of the mirrors, brushing lip gloss over already shiny mouths, talking about the only subject they ever seemed to care about. “Did you see Alvin in practice today?” one gushed, her voice bouncing off the tiled walls. “He’s insane on the ice. Like… the way he moves—ugh.” “I swear, if he even looked at me, I’d faint.” I rolled my eyes and shoved my bag into the bottom locker I’d been assigned. Alvin Monroe again. He was everywhere, on the ice, in the cafeteria, in their conversations, now leaking into mine. I wasn’t going to feed it. I wasn’t going to be one more voice sighing his name like he was untouchable. Instead, I reached for the one thing that always steadied me. Tucked in the corner of my bag was a small picture frame that was a little worn at the edges from being carried around too long. I set it gently on the shelf inside my locker. Ten-year-old me stared back, all crooked teeth and tangled hair, wedged between my mother’s poised smile and my father’s wide laugh. The memory came too fast for me to stop it. The hospital room had been too bright, too cold. Machines beeped in frantic rhythm, nurses shouting orders I didn’t understand. My father clutched his chest, gasping, while my mother sobbed, begging him to hold on. I had been frozen, too young to move, too terrified to blink. Then the alarm screamed so loud it pierced my eardrums, the nurses pushed us back, and my mother’s cries turned sharp and broken as she was dragged from the room. That was the moment I learned death doesn’t ask permission before taking anyone away. One second, and everything you know can vanish into thin air.VIANA’S POVThe first thing I noticed was the silence.Not the peaceful kind. The kind that followed you. That bent when you passed and snapped back into whispers the second you were gone.I felt it before I heard anything outright. Side glances that lingered too long. Conversations that paused mid-sentence. Phones lifted a little higher. Laughter that dropped when I walked by.At first, I told myself I was imagining it.But by Monday afternoon, it was impossible to ignore.I was walking across campus when two girls ahead of me slowed down just enough to look back. One of them leaned close to the other, hand cupped around her mouth. They both stared openly this time, eyes sliding over me like I was something they were trying to figure out.My stomach twisted.I adjusted my bag strap and kept walking.Don’t spiral. Don’t assume. You’re tired.But then I passed a group of guys sitting on the steps outside the library. One of them nudged another and murmured something under his breath. T
Viana’s POVHis words hit me so hard I forgot how to breathe.“When he sits that close to you, it pisses me off.”The words hung between us, thick and heavy, echoing in the quiet room. I stared at him, heart beating so fast I was scared he could hear it.“What do you mean?” I whispered.Alvin paced once, jaw tight, like he wished he could take the words back but couldn’t. Or wouldn’t. His hair was a mess from running his hand through it, and his shirt stretched slightly across his shoulders like he was holding himself together with sheer force.“It just—” He exhaled sharply. “It gets under my skin.”My heart tripped. “Why? Why do you care who sits next to me? Why do you—” I swallowed, heat creeping up my neck. “—lose your mind every time someone talks to me?”He didn’t answer.He just looked at me. Really looked at me. Eyes dark, expression tight, chest rising and falling faster than normal. I could smell hints of alcohol on his breath—he must have taken a few shots before coming.“I
VIANA’S POVThe entire walk to the locker hallway after the game was torment,with the way the gears in my head were turning. My brain felt threatened to explode the second anyone poked me. I kept replaying the brawl in my head like a scene I hadn’t agreed to watch.Alvin’s fist connects with Vance’s jaw. Vance shoving back. The look in Alvin’s eyes was cold, sharp, furious. The way Kevin and Devin had to drag him off like he was seconds from doing real damage.All. Because. Of. Me.I kept trying to label it correctly.Overprotective.Team rivalry.Competitive testosterone.Anything except the one thing that made my palms sweat: jealousy.No. It wasn’t that. It couldn’t be. Alvin barely tolerated me. He only cared that I existed when I irritated him. So the idea that he’d get into a full-on fistfight because Vance flirted—No. I refused to entertain it.Emily was rambling beside me as we walked through the school toward the players’ lounge for the after-party, practically buzzing from
Alvin’s POVGetting dragged off the ice by Kevin and Devin felt like being yanked out of a nightmare I’d walked into willingly.The roar of the crowd faded behind me as the tunnel swallowed the noise. My chest heaved. My fists still tingled. My jaw ached from where Vance’s glove hit me, but that wasn’t why my head was spinning.It was her.Viana.Standing there in the stands with wide eyes and flushed cheeks while Vance leaned over her like he owned the air she breathed.The moment I saw him talking to her, something inside me snapped.Not cracked.Snapped.The door to the changing room slammed behind me, echoing against the tiles. I ripped off my gloves and threw them across the bench. They skidded and fell to the floor.“Dude,” Kevin said, storming in behind me, “what the hell was that?”I didn’t answer. I couldn’t. My thoughts were still a blur of fury and adrenaline.Devin came in next, closing the door with a sigh. “You’re lucky the ref didn’t suspend you for the entire season.”
Viana’s POVSaturday came faster than expected.One moment I was eating cereal half-asleep, the next I was staring at my closet like it held the answers to life.“What does one even wear to a hockey game?” I muttered.I finally settled on jeans, a warm sweater, and a jacket because arenas were always colder than necessary. By the time Emily texted she was outside, my stomach already felt like it had been doing gymnastics.“Tonight will be fun,” I whispered to myself—and tried to believe it.Emily honked again.“Okay, okay, I’m coming!”I rushed out, hopping into her car. She grinned at me like I had just agreed to climb a mountain with her.“You look cute,” she said. “Alvin won’t know what hit him.”I frowned. “Emily—”“Fine. I’ll behave. Maybe.”The drive to campus was filled with her playlist and my nervous energy. Students walked in groups toward the arena, laughing, holding signs, wearing jerseys with players’ names. I spotted a few wearing shirts with Alvin’s number on the back.
Viana’s POVI stared at the ceiling that night longer than any normal person should. My mind wouldn’t stop replaying the feeling of almost falling, the way Alvin caught me, the way my heart tried to beat its way out of my chest. I kept telling myself to forget it, to shove it into the deepest corner of my brain and lock it away. But my heart was not cooperating.My phone buzzed beside me.Emily.Of course. She always had perfect timing for emotional ambushes.I answered. “Hey.”“Why do you sound like you’ve just survived a natural disaster?” Emily asked immediately. “Did someone break into your house? Did the new stepbrother annoy the soul out of you? Blink twice if you’re held hostage.”I groaned and buried my face in my pillow. “Nothing happened.”“You sound like something happened,” she shot back. “And I know your voice. That is the ‘I’m pretending I’m fine but actually freaking out’ voice.”I sighed. “It’s really nothing. I just… almost fell down the stairs and he caught me.”Ther







