Giving It My All

Ella's POV

I have made peace with the fact that I might never find a happily ever after, that I might have to spend the rest of my life alone. I thought that I could be with Dustin but this morning I found myself packing away the last of his things to send back home to Texas. He didn't say that he was not going to come back but this is not fair to me or my children, neither is it fair to him. I don't want to wake up one morning and hate him, or for him to hate me for not loving him.

It is amazing was heartache can you make you do. I almost threw myself at Dustin at the fear of spending the rest of my life alone. I thought that if I didn't have a man with me I wouldn't be able to raise my kids in a proper way. I then had to ask myself if I was doing the right thing for my children, for me to be with a man that I don't love for the rest of my life. I had to ask myself if that was the life that I wanted my children to know and a life where I would only be half happy.

I won't lie and say