Hi all, So i have had a few comments about readers being disappointed by my lack of updates. As much as I didn't want to have to explain myself, I feel sad that people are so upset they feel I need to have valid reasons. So even though I didn't want to, I will justify myself. I work full time in a full-on career which has me working long hours even after my day has finished, and on weekends. I also have 2 children under 5 and a husband i need to spend time with too! During my hiatus, I was actually spending a lot of time with family as my Dad was diagnosed with a terminal illness (he is ok ATM, but will get worse) and my sister experienced several early pregnancy losses, which i supported her through! I think people just need to be kinder! Love, A x
When I woke, my head thumped out a steady beat and it felt like I hadn’t had a drink of water in so long. My mouth was dry and chalky. Pain radiated through every fibre of my being. My throat continued to burn as if I had tried to swallow a burning flame, the flesh sensitive every time I tried to swallow. The glow that had illuminated my skin, was snuffed out and darkness pressed heavily around me. The only sound that echoed in the small, metal cage was the sound of my own choked breathing. I wasn’t even sure if Cristian was still in here with me until I heard his soft whisper. “Finally, you are awake!” With a groan, I lifted my body up, leaning heavily against the warm metal. Now that I was accustomed to the darkness, I could make out the tiniest sliver of light coming in, the colour a deep red. “How long have I been out?” “Not long, maybe ten minutes,” he responded softly. I groaned, running my hand through my hair. Thank the Magicians I was only out for a short time. I knew as
Rage and pain. They were powerful emotions that dwarfed anything and everything. And in that moment, they were at the forefront of my mind.The darkness I had kept at bay for so long, thrummed through my body, merging with my Spyrit and boosting my powers. Deakin wasn’t wrong when he said the darkness held so much power. But now I was going to use it against them.Before I could move, I was thrown backwards, launched through the air and landed metres away from the altar. Nyssa glared at me, her hands outstretched still after using her magic to send my flying, and a smug smirk lifted her lips. She had just signed her death warrant.Hurling myself forward, the manacles around my hands burned as magic poured into them, melting them, and freeing me. The Fae were running everywhere, some moving to intercept me, others running in the opposite direction.With a thrash of my arm, I threw power towards a group to my left, knocking them to their feet. It cleared my path as I ran full speed towar
My heart felt like it was going to beat right out of my chest and the darkness inside of me swirled, fighting to be released again. Why was everything always so difficult?Tynan had dragged me from the tent only for me to be met with glares of pure, utter hatred. Only fourteen of the hundred or so Dorcha Fae had survived my blast of power, most of them women. Each of them had the tell-tale veins snaking up their neck, but the only one with pure dark eyes left was Cillian. One I recognised, was the Fae who had been taking care of Elanora, Aoife.Just the thought of Elanora sent crippling waves of pain through me. I had let her down and failed her. She had suffered so much, lost so much and it was all because of my ineptitude.Aoife met my gaze, the only one of the Fae to not send death glares my way. Her eyes were red-rimmed and the shuddering sadness that enveloped me when she glanced my way, only added to the immense sorrow I already felt.Tynan pulled me along with him, his steps de
The world spun in a nonsensical way. I tried to grasp on to reality, to stay strong, but my legs seemed to melt under the immense pressure and weight. I was a monster. The water lapped at my feet as I stared at the wavering reflection below. Her cheeks were flushed, her skin a stark white. But it was those eyes that scared me the most. The cold, black abyss that seemed to jump out of the reflection, and send fear shooting through my spine. I was more than just pretending to go along with it - I had become it. The feeling had consumed me, seeping deeper into my skin. It had become entwined with my core, attaching itself to the inner part my being. The darkness had become me. My heart hammered in my chest as I stumbled back from the water, the weight of my fear pressing so heavily on my chest. It was choking me, denying me of precious oxygen. Blood smeared my hands and the soft blue dress that clung to my clammy skin. I glanced at their faces, a
Blake’s crimson eyes flitted up momentarily to meet mine and I took a gasping breath in an attempt to settle myself. I don’t know why I bothered anymore. It never worked. I never felt settled. Ever since the Master Magicians had brought me into their world of magic, my life had been one long, bumpy road. Every moment had been spent in a constant state of unease and ignorance. It had been hard on my heart. Any small action sent it thundering onwards in my chest. I was on edge, and I hated it. The hours of torture that Kainen had put me through probably hadn’t helped by measure. I couldn’t manage to control my own reactions even from the slightest shadow or touch or skin against mine. I would shrink away from it, my heartbeat skyrocketing upwards and the feeling of adrenaline pulsing through me. I had never felt anything like it, even whilst being an orphan on the streets. The trauma of what Kainen had done had left me barely a shell of my past self, lifeless and dull and only the sma
“So… you’re the big high and mighty, all-powerful Spyrit Magician, huh? Why didn’t you tell me?” I winced at Blake’s words but remained silent. I forgot that I had never told him about my magic. In fact, there was so much I hadn’t told him. I had thought I had, divulging a few secrets to Deakin, who, at the time, had used his magic to come to me as Blake. The memory of that swirled in my mind, blurred on the edges and tainted with the knowledge of the many truths that I had learnt in the short time since it happened. The silence seemed to stretch on for an eternity but was not at all uncomfortable. I glanced up at his face expecting the old feelings for him to be back, but I only felt guilt, frustration and anger. The guilt I knew was because it was my fault that he was here, and the frustration and anger for a situation I could not seem to fix. Blake met my gaze and gave me a pained smile. “It’s not your fault you know?” he whispered softly. I hated how it felt like he could get in
I stood waiting by the door, my heart pounding in my chest. It had been two weeks and the aching within my heart was beginning to become unbearable. I was still fully coming to terms with the new, intense emotions that seemed to envelop my senses when it came to Deakin and I had yet to confirm my suspicions with him. One of those reasons having been his absence. The other part of me was terrified about being wrong, or even right. I didn’t want to embarrass myself if I put forward the idea of what we could actually mean to each other, if it wasn’t so. I didn’t think my heart could take that. Tynan stood beside me, dressed in all black, his arm slung possessively across my shoulders. I shivered, horrified and repulsed at his touch, but stood strong. It only reminded me on the torture he had sanctioned – what he had allowed Kainen to do to me. The memories of that time chained and manacled to the table were still fresh in my mind, and came back with a vengeance each time I closed my e
A soft tap at the door woke me sometime later from dreams of an endless darkness that seemed to circle around me, bringing me back to reality. My blurry mind took some time to focus and I found myself looking at a large, blank wall. I tilted my head slightly, feeling the softness of the pillow against my face and hearing the crumple of the sheets as my body instinctively stretched my aching muscles. I was lying in a large, four-poster bed, the walls bare, and boring. No form of artwork or any kind of decoration was hanging from them. Realisation struck me. I was in my bed. Tynan had assigned me a room straight after the bonding ceremony. I had been gracious and accepting, but in the back of my mind, was always that wariness. I knew there must have been a reason for him to keep me in this particular room. It was on one of the top most floors and generally when I woke and went down to eat I wouldn’t see anyone until I made it to the kitchen. I glanced a