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CHAPTER 130- The Birth
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Staying with him CHAPTER 130- The Birth
It began at quarter past four in the morning, whichwas not a surprise in the sense that she had known itwas coming, and was a complete surprise in thesense that nothing prepares you for the specificquality of the thing beginning.He was awake before she said anything.She had always wondered how he did that, the wakingbefore the occasion required it, and she had come tounderstand it over five years as a quality of thespecific way he slept, which was not deeply butcompletely, the kind of sleep that was a full restwithout being an absence, the kind that could surfacequickly when the quality of the air in the roomchanged. She had changed the air in the room atquarter past four and he was awake.I think, she said.Yes, he said. He said it before she finished. Hereached for the lamp.She held his hand.He sat up.How long, he said.Not long yet, she said. She was sitting up in bed withone hand on the side of the mattress and the other inhis. The quality of what she was feeli
Staying with him CHAPTER 129- The Night Before Everything Changed
They did not know.That was the thing about it: they did not know it wasthe night before. They ate dinner and they watchedsomething on the television and she fell asleep beforeit ended and he lay beside her in the dark for a whilebefore he slept and neither of them knew thattomorrow was going to be the day.The dinner was the soup she had been making moreof in November, a specific leek and potato soup thatwas not a recipe she had ever followed and wasinstead the accumulated result of making the sameapproximate soup many times over many years andarriving at the version that was hers, the version shemade without measuring anything, which she neverdid, having never been a person who measuredquantities in cooking, regarding the measuring ofquantities in cooking as an administrative task thatbelonged in the professional world and not in thekitchen where the point was to produce the thing.She had not been able to stand at the counter for longover the last two weeks. She co
Staying with him CHAPTER 128- The Last Session Before Leave
She told her last client on a Thursday in late October.Not told about the pregnancy — all seventeen clientshad known for months, the body having made theknowledge unavoidable well before the summer andthe specific one-by-one tellings. She told her lastclient before maternity leave that the next sessionwould be their last until the spring.She had been thinking about how to do this for weeks.The maternity leave was a professional event as wellas a personal one, and the professional event requiredthe specific care that all endings in the consultingroom required: the preparation, the acknowledgment,the giving of the right amount of time to transition.She had arranged for each client to have the sessionsthey needed before the break, some of them movingto Aisha for the duration, some of them taking thebreak and returning in the spring, some of them at apoint in their work where the spring was a naturalcontinuation.The Thursday client was the last one.She had scheduled th
Staying with him CHAPTER 127- What He Says Back
He had said the thing on the Wednesday evening, thething that had changed the shape of the fear, and shehad held it and sat with it through the night and thefollowing day, and on Thursday evening she told himwhat the holding had produced.I want to tell you what I found, she said.He was at the counter with the evening tea and heturned.When I held what you said last night, she said. Aboutthe after being what the child will know. About thebefore being the material of the after. She paused. Iheld it for a long time. I am still holding it. She satdown at the table. What I found is that the fearchanged shape. She looked at him. It is not the samefear it was yesterday.What shape is it now, he said.She thought about how to say it.The fear yesterday was about the unconditional love,she said. Whether I could hold it. Whether the childloving me before I had earned anything from herspecifically was something I knew how to receive. Shepaused. What you said changed that. I unde
Staying with him CHAPTER 126- Her Fear, Named Properly
She named it on a Wednesday evening in Octoberwhen she was thirty-six weeks pregnant and the birthwas four weeks away at the most and probably less.She had been carrying this fear for longer than shehad been carrying the other fears. She had named thecloseness fear to him in June and it had beenreceived and held and the holding had helped in theway that holding always helped, which was not toresolve the fear but to reduce the authority it had overher, to make it a known thing she was in relationshipwith rather than an unnamed thing she was managedby. She had named his fear back to him in July, helpedhim put it in the room, sat with it with him until he wasin it rather than alone with it.This fear she had not named.She had been examining it for months. She knew theshape of it, the specific architecture of it, she couldhave described it to someone in the professionallanguage with precision and accuracy. But she hadnot said it out loud to him because she had not yetfo
Staying with him CHAPTER 125- What He Builds
The cot arrived in a flat-pack box on a Thursday inOctober, which was not the way Damien had intendedit to arrive.He had intended to build a cot. He had said this inSeptember when they were clearing the secondbedroom and she had said, you could simply buy abuilt cot, and he had looked at her with the expressionhe used when he considered a suggestion and foundit technically possible but personally incorrect. Thesuggestion was received. It was noted. It was notgoing to be followed.The flat-pack box arrived on a Thursday.She came home from a session at five and found thebox in the hallway and she looked at it for a momentand she went into the living room and found him onthe floor with the instructions. He had alreadyseparated all the components into groups and had anotebook open beside him. She recognised thenotebook. It was the notebook that had appeared sixweeks into the pregnancy, the list-and-diagramnotebook, the one that contained everything he hadmeasured and p
Staying with him Chapter 6: The First Night
She lasted until midnight.That was the honest truth of it. She lay on his sofa with his blanket pulled up to her chin and stared at the ceiling and listened to the rain and told herself she was fine, she was comfortable, she was absolutely not thinking about the man sleeping fifteen feet away from
Staying with him Chapter 5: Staying
Maintenance said three days.Three days to fix the pipe, treat the damp, assess the flooring, do whatever it was they needed to do before the apartment was liveable again. Olivia stood in her doorway on Monday morning and looked at the state of it — the warped floorboards, the smell of wet plaster,
Staying with him Chapter 4: Caught
She woke up before him.6am, grey light coming through the gaps in his curtains, the television having switched itself off sometime in the night. For a moment — just a brief, disoriented moment — she forgot where she was. Then it came back. The flood. The knock. The blanket that smelled faintly of
Staying with him Chapter 3: Flooded
started with a sound.A low, persistent dripping that worked its way into Olivia’s sleep sometime around 3am and sat there until she couldn’t ignore it anymore. She opened her eyes to the dark ceiling, listened, and felt the specific dread of someone who already knows something is wrong before the
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