Maya hadn’t meant to go through his things.
She told herself she was just picking up after him. She always cleaned after people. Old habit. Something about claiming back the space. Making it hers again.
Elias had taken off his jacket and tossed it over the arm of the couch before stepping out to get something from the corner store. Just water and painkillers, he’d said. His shoulder had been stiff all morning. Something about a fight before he met her.
She didn’t ask for details.
She was folding his jacket when the photo fell out.
At first, she didn’t even recognize what it was. The print was old and slightly creased, the edges curled. She picked it up, flipped it over.
And froze.
It was Elias. Younger, maybe by a few years. Clean-shaven, sitting on the hood of a car, his arm slung around a woman with long braids and a half-smile that said she knew secrets.
Maya stared at it for a long time.
They looked close. Not just physically, but in a way that said they’d bled together. That they’d shared something deeper than sex. The woman had her hand on his thigh like she belonged there. And Elias? He looked relaxed. Soft, even.
Maya had never seen him look like that.
She felt a slow burn rise in her chest.
It wasn’t just jealousy. It was fear. The realization that she had no idea who he really was. He said he hadn’t touched anyone in years. But this didn’t look like years ago. This looked recent.
The door opened behind her.
She turned around, photo still in hand.
Elias paused in the doorway, a plastic bag hanging from his fingers. His eyes went to the photo. Then to her face.
Maya spoke before he could.
“Who is she?”
His jaw tightened. “Where did you find that?”
“In your jacket.”
He shut the door with more force than necessary and stepped forward. “You went through my stuff.”
“I was folding your jacket.”
“You were looking.”
“I wasn’t. It fell out. I picked it up.”
His eyes darkened. “So now you’re checking for evidence?”
“I didn’t mean to. But now that I’ve seen it, yeah. I want answers.”
He dropped the bag on the table and ran a hand through his hair.
Maya held up the photo. “She looks like someone who knew all the parts of you I’m still trying to name.”
“She did.”
“Did?”
“She’s gone.”
“Dead?”
He hesitated. “No. Just gone.”
“That’s vague.”
“It’s true.”
Maya felt the weight of his silence and wanted to throw something at it. Break it open.
“You told me you hadn’t been with anyone in years.”
“I haven’t.”
“But you’re still carrying pictures?”
“I don’t look at it.”
“Then why do you have it?”
“Because once in a while, I need to remember who I used to be.”
She stared at him. The words landed, but they didn’t settle.
“Who was she?”
“Her name was Jana.”
“What happened?”
“I loved her.”
Maya’s throat closed.
Elias sat down on the couch, leaned forward, elbows on his knees. “We were together before I got locked up. She waited. Three years. Every letter. Every visit. Then one day, she stopped coming. No note. No goodbye.”
“She just left?”
He nodded. “And I didn’t blame her. I had nothing to offer.”
Maya stood still, the photo hanging from her fingers like it weighed more than paper. “You never told me.”
“You never asked.”
“I didn’t know I had to.”
Elias looked up at her. “I wasn’t hiding her. I was just trying to let her go quietly.”
“She’s not gone if she’s still in your jacket.”
He didn’t answer.
She walked over, held the photo out to him.
“Keep it. Or burn it. But don’t lie about what she was.”
He took the photo slowly, looked at it once, then set it facedown on the table.
“I’m not in love with her,” he said. “But I think I’ve been grieving who I was when I was with her.”
Maya sat beside him.
“You look different in that photo.”
“I was.”
“What changed?”
He looked at her, quiet and steady.
“Prison. Regret. Pain. You.”
She looked down.
“I’m trying,” he said. “To give you all the parts of me.”
“I don’t need all of them.”
“You deserve them.”
Maya was silent for a long time. The tension between them didn’t break. It softened.
“Do you still want her back?” she asked.
“No.”
“Why not?”
“Because she left.”
“And if she came back?”
“She’s not you.”
That answer hit somewhere deep.
Maya leaned into the couch cushions, body finally beginning to relax. Her heart still knocked against her ribs, but less violently now.
“You scare me when you shut down,” she said. “When you close off.”
“I was scared. I didn’t want to lose what we’re building.”
“Then tell me next time. Don’t make me ask.”
“I will.”
Maya watched him as he reached for the photo, held it for a moment, then tore it once down the middle. Clean. No hesitation.
He didn’t say anything as he dropped it into the trash.
She didn’t cheer. Didn’t smile.
But something inside her settled.
Not trust. Not yet.
But something close.
Maya stared at her screen, but nothing made sense.Her fingers hovered above the keyboard. The open spreadsheet blurred before her eyes. Numbers and names and tasks—none of them registering. She blinked hard and leaned back in her chair.Across the desk, Zara glanced up from her own work and narrowed her eyes.“You okay?”“Yeah,” Maya said, too fast. “Just tired.”Zara didn’t look convinced, but she let it go. Maya was grateful for that. She couldn’t explain the hum under her skin or the way her body kept reacting to memories like they were happening in real time. The curve of Elias’s mouth. The way he gripped her thigh with one hand and cradled the back of her neck with the other. How he looked at her like she was a storm he wanted to drown in.She snapped out of it when her boss passed behind them and cleared his throat.“Boyd,” he said flatly.Maya looked up.“You’re not being paid to draw.”She frowned, confused—until she looked down.Her notebook, the one she used for client note
Maya woke before the sun.She wasn’t used to that anymore. Most mornings dragged her awake like a punishment, but today her eyes fluttered open without struggle. The light was soft and gray, filtering through the thin curtains like it was being gentle on purpose.Her body ached in the best way. Between her legs, in the curve of her hips, down her thighs. But nothing hurt the way it used to. Not with shame. Not with regret. Just the tender reminder of what had happened. Of what she let happen.She turned her head.Elias lay on his back beside her, one arm thrown over his face, the other resting palm-up on the mattress like he was waiting for something.She studied him in the silence. There was something vulnerable in the way he slept. The tension that usually lived in his jaw had disappeared, and without it, he looked younger. Not harmless. Never that. But less sharp.Her gaze fell to his chest. The rise and fall. The little scar under his ribs. She traced it once, lightly, with her fi
The apartment was quiet again.But not like before. Not like the silence that came from retreat or shame. This one felt warmer, softer. Like the quiet that came after a storm had passed and everything had been picked up and put back in place.Almost everything.Maya stood in front of the mirror in her bedroom, watching herself. She wore only a loose cotton tank and black underwear. Her hair was a mess. Her eyes still carried the weight of everything she hadn’t said. But she didn’t look fragile anymore.She looked real.She heard Elias shift on the couch in the living room. He hadn’t left since the conversation about the photo. He’d offered. Twice. She said no. Not because she needed him, but because for the first time, she wanted to know what it felt like to choose someone on her own terms.She walked out and stood in the doorway.He was lying back, eyes closed, head tipped toward the ceiling like he was thinking too much.She didn’t say anything.He felt her before he saw her. His ey
Maya hadn’t meant to go through his things.She told herself she was just picking up after him. She always cleaned after people. Old habit. Something about claiming back the space. Making it hers again.Elias had taken off his jacket and tossed it over the arm of the couch before stepping out to get something from the corner store. Just water and painkillers, he’d said. His shoulder had been stiff all morning. Something about a fight before he met her.She didn’t ask for details.She was folding his jacket when the photo fell out.At first, she didn’t even recognize what it was. The print was old and slightly creased, the edges curled. She picked it up, flipped it over.And froze.It was Elias. Younger, maybe by a few years. Clean-shaven, sitting on the hood of a car, his arm slung around a woman with long braids and a half-smile that said she knew secrets.Maya stared at it for a long time.They looked close. Not just physically, but in a way that said they’d bled together. That they
The sun was already rising when Maya opened her eyes.She lay still, her body half-curled under the covers. The room was quiet except for the low hum of the ceiling fan and the faint sounds of Lagos waking up outside her window—horns, radios, restless birds.She didn’t move. Didn’t reach for her phone.Instead, she turned her head toward the floor.He was still there.Elias lay on his back, arms crossed over his chest, eyes closed. The blanket she’d thrown down for him had slipped off sometime in the night. He didn’t look peaceful. Not exactly. But his face was softer in sleep. Less guarded. Like the man he tried not to be had surfaced briefly in the dark.She watched him for a while, unsure of what to feel. He hadn’t touched her. Hadn’t come close. Hadn’t even looked at her when she climbed into bed last night and gave him permission to stay.He just lay there. Still. Waiting.She sat up slowly. The movement stirred him.Elias blinked, eyes adjusting, and met hers.“Morning,” he said
Maya didn’t leave her apartment the next day.She sat on the floor by the couch, knees pulled to her chest, staring at the front door like it might speak. Like it might open. Like he might come back with a real apology or some better version of himself that didn’t make her flinch.But the door stayed closed.She tried to do things that made her feel normal. She made tea and didn’t drink it. She opened her notebook and tried to sketch, but every line ended up looking like his jaw or his hands or the shape of her own fear.That was the worst part.It hadn’t been fear of Elias. Not exactly. It had been fear of what her body remembered. Of how fast the panic had crawled up her throat the second he crossed a line. Of how long it had taken to feel safe again, even after he stopped.She kept hearing his voice from last night."You always let me in.""I wasn’t trying to take anything from you.""I thought you wanted it."He hadn’t yelled. He hadn’t forced. He had stopped. But he had hesitated