Maya hadn’t meant to go through his things.
She told herself she was just picking up after him. She always cleaned after people. Old habit. Something about claiming back the space. Making it hers again.
Elias had taken off his jacket and tossed it over the arm of the couch before stepping out to get something from the corner store. Just water and painkillers, he’d said. His shoulder had been stiff all morning. Something about a fight before he met her.
She didn’t ask for details.
She was folding his jacket when the photo fell out.
At first, she didn’t even recognize what it was. The print was old and slightly creased, the edges curled. She picked it up, flipped it over.
And froze.
It was Elias. Younger, maybe by a few years. Clean-shaven, sitting on the hood of a car, his arm slung around a woman with long braids and a half-smile that said she knew secrets.
Maya stared at it for a long time.
They looked close. Not just physically, but in a way that said they’d bled together. That they’d shared something deeper than sex. The woman had her hand on his thigh like she belonged there. And Elias? He looked relaxed. Soft, even.
Maya had never seen him look like that.
She felt a slow burn rise in her chest.
It wasn’t just jealousy. It was fear. The realization that she had no idea who he really was. He said he hadn’t touched anyone in years. But this didn’t look like years ago. This looked recent.
The door opened behind her.
She turned around, photo still in hand.
Elias paused in the doorway, a plastic bag hanging from his fingers. His eyes went to the photo. Then to her face.
Maya spoke before he could.
“Who is she?”
His jaw tightened. “Where did you find that?”
“In your jacket.”
He shut the door with more force than necessary and stepped forward. “You went through my stuff.”
“I was folding your jacket.”
“You were looking.”
“I wasn’t. It fell out. I picked it up.”
His eyes darkened. “So now you’re checking for evidence?”
“I didn’t mean to. But now that I’ve seen it, yeah. I want answers.”
He dropped the bag on the table and ran a hand through his hair.
Maya held up the photo. “She looks like someone who knew all the parts of you I’m still trying to name.”
“She did.”
“Did?”
“She’s gone.”
“Dead?”
He hesitated. “No. Just gone.”
“That’s vague.”
“It’s true.”
Maya felt the weight of his silence and wanted to throw something at it. Break it open.
“You told me you hadn’t been with anyone in years.”
“I haven’t.”
“But you’re still carrying pictures?”
“I don’t look at it.”
“Then why do you have it?”
“Because once in a while, I need to remember who I used to be.”
She stared at him. The words landed, but they didn’t settle.
“Who was she?”
“Her name was Jana.”
“What happened?”
“I loved her.”
Maya’s throat closed.
Elias sat down on the couch, leaned forward, elbows on his knees. “We were together before I got locked up. She waited. Three years. Every letter. Every visit. Then one day, she stopped coming. No note. No goodbye.”
“She just left?”
He nodded. “And I didn’t blame her. I had nothing to offer.”
Maya stood still, the photo hanging from her fingers like it weighed more than paper. “You never told me.”
“You never asked.”
“I didn’t know I had to.”
Elias looked up at her. “I wasn’t hiding her. I was just trying to let her go quietly.”
“She’s not gone if she’s still in your jacket.”
He didn’t answer.
She walked over, held the photo out to him.
“Keep it. Or burn it. But don’t lie about what she was.”
He took the photo slowly, looked at it once, then set it facedown on the table.
“I’m not in love with her,” he said. “But I think I’ve been grieving who I was when I was with her.”
Maya sat beside him.
“You look different in that photo.”
“I was.”
“What changed?”
He looked at her, quiet and steady.
“Prison. Regret. Pain. You.”
She looked down.
“I’m trying,” he said. “To give you all the parts of me.”
“I don’t need all of them.”
“You deserve them.”
Maya was silent for a long time. The tension between them didn’t break. It softened.
“Do you still want her back?” she asked.
“No.”
“Why not?”
“Because she left.”
“And if she came back?”
“She’s not you.”
That answer hit somewhere deep.
Maya leaned into the couch cushions, body finally beginning to relax. Her heart still knocked against her ribs, but less violently now.
“You scare me when you shut down,” she said. “When you close off.”
“I was scared. I didn’t want to lose what we’re building.”
“Then tell me next time. Don’t make me ask.”
“I will.”
Maya watched him as he reached for the photo, held it for a moment, then tore it once down the middle. Clean. No hesitation.
He didn’t say anything as he dropped it into the trash.
She didn’t cheer. Didn’t smile.
But something inside her settled.
Not trust. Not yet.
But something close.
The silence between them wasn’t empty. It was thick, alive with everything unspoken.Elias didn’t try to touch her. Not after everything he’d just confessed. He sat beside her on the bed, legs apart, elbows resting on his knees, head bowed like he was bracing for a verdict.Maya had no verdict to give.She stared at her hands, resting in her lap. She could still feel the edges of the photo, the worn paper of the letter, the sharp coldness of the past she’d pried open like a forbidden tomb. Her chest felt too small for her breath. But she didn’t move. Didn’t run.“I’ll stay,” she’d said, her voice rasping in the quiet, and he’d looked at her like she’d split him open again—only softer this time.Now, it was past midnight. The apartment was dim, lit only by a small reading lamp Elias had moved to the living room. They hadn’t said much after that. He offered her tea. She declined. Neither of them touched the food he brought out. The air between them was fragile, like old glass.He gave h
Maya didn’t move when Elias stepped into the doorway.The drawer was still open. The photograph rested in her lap. Her fingers gripped the edge of the paper like it might vanish if she let go. The letters were scattered, creased from her trembling hands. The document lay face up on the floor beside her, the bold black text bleeding into the quiet room.Neither of them spoke.She didn’t try to hide it. Didn’t fumble to close the drawer or scramble to explain herself. She just sat there, eyes glossy, lips parted, breath uneven.Elias shut the door with a soft click. He didn’t come closer.“I asked you to decide,” he said finally, his voice calm but low, strained. “Not to dig through my ghosts.”Maya looked down again at the photo in her hands. Two boys—one clearly Elias, a little younger, sharper around the eyes. The other… she didn’t know him, but the resemblance was impossible to miss. Same dark curls. Same jaw. But softer somehow. Kinder.“You didn’t tell me you had a brother.”Elias
Maya stood at the threshold of Elias’s apartment, the key to the drawer burning a quiet hole in her coat pocket.The place was quiet, too quiet. No fire in the hearth, no lingering smell of his cologne. He’d left that morning with a kiss to her temple, a careful look in his eyes, and the same words echoing now in her chest:"Go if you want. Use the key. If you’re going to decide what you think of me, do it knowing the truth."She had promised herself she wouldn’t go. She had told herself it was a test—just another of his manipulations. But as the sun dipped past the skyline, shadows creeping through her small apartment like fingers, Maya had found herself pacing, restless, drowning in too many possibilities. And eventually, the key found its way into her hand.She stepped inside and closed the door behind her.It smelled like him in here. Woodsmoke and pine. Something darker underneath—leather and secrets. His jacket still hung over the chair, his boots left by the door like he’d just
The sky outside her apartment was a dull, bruised gray, clouds thick with the promise of another storm. Maya sat cross-legged on the floor, sketchpad open in front of her. Her pencil had broken hours ago, but she hadn’t noticed. All she could see were the jagged lines—sketches of metal teeth and broken silhouettes of keys that didn’t fit.Her phone lay silent on the floor beside her. She hadn’t turned it off, hadn’t put it on silent, hadn’t touched it since walking away from Elias. But it hadn’t rung either.That silence felt louder than any argument they had ever had.She glanced at the time. It had been nearly twenty-four hours.Not a word.Maya’s chest felt tight. She hated the way absence hollowed her out. How it made her second-guess everything, as if love had an expiration date measured in hours without contact.She stood up abruptly, pushing the sketchpad aside, and moved to the kitchen. Coffee. Something warm. Something that didn’t feel like waiting.She had just set the kettl
Maya woke before him.The weight of Elias's arm was draped across her waist, heavy and warm. His body molded perfectly to hers, his breath slow and deep against the back of her neck. She should have been comforted. Safe. But the warmth that wrapped around her body didn’t reach the hollow ache behind her ribs.His words from the night before still pulsed through her mind.“It reminds us what we’re risking.”She didn’t know what she was risking. Not really. But she was beginning to fear it was more than just her heart.Quietly, she slipped out from beneath him, careful not to wake him. The floor was cold beneath her feet as she padded into the living room, grabbing one of his button-down shirts from the back of a chair and slipping it on. Her fingers automatically moved to the buttons, fumbling from habit, but her thoughts were elsewhere.The locked drawer.It tugged at her.Calling. Daring.Last time, she hadn’t gotten far before he’d caught her. But he had left her alone in his apartm
The sketchpad lay forgotten on the floor.Maya hadn’t moved in what felt like hours. The keys she kept drawing stared back at her, a hundred versions, all wrong. Elias hadn’t called. He hadn’t messaged. He hadn’t come.And still, she waited.By the time the knock came, it wasn’t gentle. It was firm, impatient. She opened the door without thinking, and there he was, drenched in rain, hair slicked to his forehead, eyes unreadable.“You left,” he said.“You locked me out,” she countered.Elias stepped in without waiting for an invitation, his boots leaving a trail across her floor. He shut the door behind him and turned to face her, his jaw set.“You were looking for something you weren’t ready to find,” he said quietly.Maya's arms crossed. “And you were hiding it.”He stepped closer, hands in his coat pockets. “We all have locks on our lives. Doesn’t mean we want them forced open.”There was silence. Electric. Tense.Then Maya said, “You said not to pretend to want to know you unless I