Chapter 115

My hand and eyes trembled at the question of an innocent child.

 I can’t quite imagine that even if I hadn’t even released this kid I would start to immediately deny and hide him from people.

 The pain for me as a mother that I couldn’t even say I had a child there.  Unlike other new mothers who found out the news that they were going to have a baby.

 I'm not that happy.  So the pain for me is that this is how my son immediately experiences even though he has not yet come out of the judgmental society.

 I don’t want to talk, I don’t want to say I don’t have a child, I don’t want to deny that she is not in my womb.

 I just kept staring at the boy and forced to smile even though I felt like I was slowly being destroyed along with my eyes as if there were tears welling up because of the heat I was feeling.

 "Did I say something