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42. I really fucked up
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Stutter Boy 43. You freaking look like my brother
Nate's POVEthan and I didn't talk a word on Friday. Actually I didn't see him at all. He didn't join us for lunch. Gavin said Ethan had to urgently meet the football coach during lunch.I too was relieved about not seeing him. After yesterday's incident, I'm nervous to even look at him. I mean he was going to kiss me at the theatre.What I feared exactly happened. I don't know what actually Ethan want from me or how he sees me but one thing is clear, he isn't straight. He is interested in me that way.I don't know what to do. I feel nervous and scared.I'm clearly not interested in him. I'm not attracted to boys first of all. And he freaking looks like my brother. I just see Alex in him and how the hell am I gonna...I don't even want to continue talking about that.It's all my fault actually. Seeing Alex in him, I got close to him. He might have mistaken it fo
Stutter Boy 44. I'm not giving up too fast
To say I was shocked would be an understatement. I was beyond shocked. When Michael told me his friend Alex looked like me, it hadn't surprised me that much. But now after seeing the photos and knowing Alex is his brother, I don't know what to say. Why did his brother look so much like me ? I took a courageous step today, not only just to get disappointed but also to get shocked beyond the limits. Imagine your crush brother zoning you when to finally confess. My case was so worse than that. Anyway I had only a very little hope that Michael would accept my confession. I of course expected a rejection. But I couldn't help but tell my feelings to him. I was feeling suffocated the whole time I was at home. I couldn't take his face out of my mind.And I was once again clear about my feelings towards him after I jerked myself off in the bathroom thinking about him. I was thinking about his perfect plump lips and tasting them. I'm sure
Stutter Boy 45. I decided to move on
I looked at the rows of desks in front of me. I was standing in the front of the History classroom and thinking which desk I should choose to sit along with Michael. Which desk would Michael like to sit on the most ? Only three girls and a boy was inside the class cause the time was only 8:45 and class begins at 9. I couldn't wait to see Nate that I came here early hoping he also comes early. I had thought about joining Grace and Michael for breakfast but then today there was extra practice until 8:10 and when I reached Canteen at 8:25 after changing my dress, Michael and Grace had left. Grace had messaged me Michael headed to the library after breakfast to return a book. So he should be here now after returning it. But he isn't here yet. Maybe he is searching for some other book. Or wait ! Will he skip this class as he don't want to sit with me ? Should I need to go to the library and drag him here ? Okay, I'll leave
Stutter Boy 46. I'm all set ready to be the model
Nate’s POVI'm relieved Ethan don't have any problem with me. Yesterday I was really worried as he purposefully ignored me the whole day. He didn't even look in my direction when he walked into the Calculus class and he didn't join us for lunch. I thought he would continue to ignore me the rest of the year. But he talked to me and behaved really normally morning. And at lunch he joined us like usual and chatted with Grace, Gavin and Milan happily. He doesn't actually seem that sad about my rejection. He didn't talk to me much, though. And he didn't actually look at me during lunch. I was side eying him the whole time. I hope he really decided to move on. But something pains me. He stopped calling me Michael. He won't call me Michael anymore. Just Nate, Nate like everyone else. I wanted him to call me Michael. And I could understand the bitterness in his voice even though he said we are good. He said he is nothing special to me. But he
Stutter Boy 47. When can I finally stop running ?
I quickly broke the eye contact and looked away proceeding to take out my pencils. " So you are using water colour ?", he asked. " No..I don't think water colour would w..work well with eyes. I'm using C..colour pencils.", I replied taking out four skin tone pencils, a black and brown pencil from my pouch. " oh..I tried using colour pencils last year. But it didn't work well with me. I couldn't do the shading and mixing properly. Also the pencil quality was low. At last I gave up.", he sighed looking at the pencils in my hand. " Hmm..maybe I'll use oil paint. But will I be able to wonderfully copy down your Gorgeous blue eyes with oil paint ? I'm not sure." My heart skipped a beat at that. He had told me last day that my eyes are Gorgeous. He's again saying. Is he flirting with me ? " What's wrong ?", he asked as I fiddled with the pencils in my hand. " Ahmm..mine is Faber Castel Poly..c..chromos pencils. It's q..quality is good. Maybe
Stutter Boy 48. Let's go jogging
Nate's POV" Mom..just let me sleep some more time..", I groaned and squirmed uncomfortably after yanking away the two hands which were shaking me harshly whilst yelling my name in my ear. " C'mon, wake the fuck up Nate ! And I'm not your Mom ! I'm Grace ! Your roommate ! " Oh ! It was Grace ? And I just called her Mom ?? I flickered my eyelids open to see Grace standing in front of me wearing a track suit with matching top, her hair in a ponytail and her hands akimbo as she stared down at me a bit annoyed. Oh ! She is also wearing sneakers. Did she decide to go for jogging ? But she isn't fat or anything. I tilted my eyes and looked at the alarm clock on the small bedside table. It showed 6 : 10 Am. Then I looked back at Grace, squeezing my sleepy eyes and blinking it at her to see her properly. " Are you going for j..jogging ?", I asked. " Yeah and you too." " Me ??", I asked in surprise.
Stutter Boy 49. Then prove it
As I was on my third lap, I saw the two girls who were jogging in front of me, looking amusedly at the side steps, their heads almost completely tilted. They were also murmuring something between each other. Curious, I tilted my head to the right and the sight I saw there almost knocked me down. Seriously, I stumbled forward and almost tripped and fell. Cause Ethan was there sitting in his earlier position itself, but now top less and was staring intently in my direction whilst fanning himself with his jersey, revealing his perfect body freely to all those people who were running around. He didn't look away even after he realized I caught him staring at me. It was then I realized, basically I was also staring at him. I had stopped in track a few moments ago and was looking at his tanned chest and his perfect pack of abs and muscles. I can't say I was comparing his body with that of Alex's. I wasn't doing that. I was just gawking at Ethan.
Stutter Boy 50. Am I going to break his heart ?
I knocked on Ethan's room door and waited for him to open the door. My heart had already started beating fast. I don't even know how I'm gonna survive the next one or two hours. The next moment the door opened and Ethan grabbed my wrist. But instead of pulling me inside, he stepped forward, hurriedly closed the door behind and then he was running dragging me along with him. " H..Hey..what's happening?", I asked in shock and surprise as he ran dragging me with him through the corridor. " Shh..just come with me.", he said. " Leave me ! Where the hell are you d..dragging me ?", I asked squirming and pulling my hand backward. " Oh C'mon..", he sighed, stopping. " We are going to watch the volleyball match. Come fast. Match might have already started." " V..Volleyball match ? But you told me to come for d..drawing my eyes.", I said yanking my hands away from his grip. " Yeah I just came to know evening th
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