When he wanted me to fight him and not hold back, I thought my luck had run out. I thought he had figured me and Kai out… or at least me out. However, it seems he hasn’t yet gathered why I wanted to get a job within the packhouse, but not as one of his dominant warriors.
I was going to hold back at least a bit, but with that order to not hold back, I couldn’t deny the request. Normally, the alpha’s voice would force anyone to obey the command, but for me, it was a matter of dignity.
The alpha had put forth the challenge, knowing I had hidden my true talents. Of course, he would find out eventually and want to test me. Lying to him so bluntly would have made my predicament worse. I’m just thankful he has let me remain in the jailhouse as my job.
The downside is now he knows I am Kai’s beta. He will watch me closely now, I imagine. Or get someone else to watch me. Perhaps he will try to use me to make Kai’s life a living
When Dereck mentions the potential to kill Cedric, I feel a sharp pain in my heart. For whatever reason, I don’t think I can ever bring myself to kill that fool of an alpha. I know I may not get the choice if it comes down to a fight, but that doesn’t mean I would kill him in cold blood. I just don’t understand why I feel this way. That man has been nothing but a pain in my side since we met. First, he kidnapped me and my pack, then he de-ranked me and now he sexually hounds me whenever he is in the mood. With a glance at my feet, I realise he also does so when I get in the mood. Is that because of how I smell to him? What if Dereck can smell me too? Peering up at him, Dereck doesn’t seem phased by me at all. Though is that because my body isn’t feeling rowdy right now? I can’t tell if that’s the case or if it is something else entirely. For now, I push those thoughts aside. As long as no other men are around me when I smell ‘good’, then I’ll be safe. Or as safe as this place can be
I almost can’t believe what I just saw. Although the two don’t share a kiss when they depart, the looks that man gives my Kai and the way they’re holding hands makes me insanely jealous. I didn’t think the two were in any romantic situation with what I’ve learned from the two until now, but is this why Kai has been resisting me?I want to chase them both down, but for whatever reason, my legs don’t want to move. Besides, if I act too rashly, I might scare Kai enough that he’ll reject me without a second thought. I close my eyes and tighten my hands into fists. I need to calm myself down.What if I’m wrong? Kai mentioned nothing about having a lover. The two could just be close friends like me and my beta was. There’s no reason to believe they’ve done anything with each other. After all, before Kai met me, he had never been with a man. I’m sure of it.With that in mind, I slowly pace back and forth
I do not know what got into Cedric the last few days, but he has not left me alone. Even when one of his scouts summoned him outside of the packhouse, he sent someone else just so he didn’t leave me alone. He said it wasn’t an urgent matter, and one of his gammas could handle the issue just as effectively as he could have. Did Joey really trouble him that much? It’s not like anything happened, and Joey hasn’t tried to do anything to me since then either. In fact, Joey hasn’t even snooped around for the ‘scent’ so I’m not sure what Cedric is so paranoid for. Even when he has had no other option but to leave the main packhouse and gardens, he has forced me to either stay in the packhouse or have guards following my every movement. I thought I was gaining more freedom, but now I have less again. At least these guards all have mates and are safer to be around than those like Joey. The downside is this has meant me and Dereck haven’t been able to meet up, not even in secret. Anytime I g
It’s been a week now and I don’t know what I’m going to do about having Dereck so close to Kai. Those two always somehow sneak off together, though they haven’t done anything more than hold hands. At least so far. I’ve managed to interrupt them more times than I can count.I’ve thought of kicking Dereck out of the inner pack, but I have a feeling he will sneak in regardless of what I do to keep him away from my mate. Even if I did somehow do that, Kai would get irritable with me, and the little progress I’ve made with him will be for nought.I was going to use their friendship for my own ends, but realising these two are closer than I thought, has made me second guess myself. Why does my mate have to be such an idiot? Can’t he tell already that we’re destined to be together? Is this my fault for not outright telling him the truth?I wanted to just tease him a little, let him figure out the truth, and then we would become a mated pair and live out our lives as a family… but no. He has
Cedric was already gone by the time I had woken up, but that had only given me a small window to breathe. As soon as I came down the stairs, one of his omegas was already waiting for me. I don’t know who this one is, but she seems to be annoyed with her task of babysitting me. None of the omegas seems to like being around me all that much, although I can't think of why.Or maybe I can. I have been unreasonable towards them since day one. Perhaps even a little rude and unbearing, but that’s only because I never wanted to be dragged into this place and held hostage. Surely they can understand that?I offer her a small nod of greeting and glance around before asking, “where’s Cedric?”“The alpha,” the omega corrects me as she huffs. “And he’s dealing with a matter right now… he’ll be back,” she tells me, shaking her head. “Just go eat, or whatever…” she then mumbles, watching my every move.I give her the side-eye before slowly making my way to the kitchen. She follows me, but I can tell
I can’t believe they have dragged me into an early morning shift to help decorate the inner packhouse. Under any normal circumstances, it would have thrilled me to get inside. It would be a chance to sneak off and visit Kai. However, I can’t sneak off with how busy they’ve had me working.We’re almost done now, but some hiccups have caused us to have some delays and now we might not get done before the guests arrive. That’s when I notice an omega run in looking for someone - anyone who might pay her attention.I don’t have time to pay her too much attention and it isn’t my place to help the pack anymore, as I am a mere prison guard rather than the beta. However, after a while, she is gone again and in her place, Kai comes meandering in through the door.I don’t know what I’ve done to be so lucky, but I can’t help but get excited to see Kai. Although I need to keep it on the down low, I know what I need
Oh. Fuck. I can’t believe I just did that! Of all the things to do, I accidentally said Cedric’s name instead of Dereck’s. He has stopped kissing me and is now staring at me in disbelief. I have to think of something quick! “W-what? W-why did you stop?” I ask, trying my best to pretend I didn’t just mix up the names at all. I mean Cedric and Dereck sound alike, right? He won’t misunderstand, right? “You just called me-” “Dereck!” I call out his name, perhaps a little too loudly. He blinks at me with a perplexed expression. “I think I hear someone coming!” I lied. There’s no way he is going to believe me, not when he looks at me like this. I push Dereck off of me and quickly make my way to the door. My face is so hot that I know my fluster will be easy for anyone to notice. I need to get away from Dereck before he starts asking me questions. There is no way on the dark side of the moon that I can talk about the things Cedric does to me! Especia
I’m too dumbfounded to even chase after Kai. He just called me Cedric and then tried to pretend he didn’t and fled. Why did he call me the alpha’s name instead of my own? Is this why Kai has been acting so strange ever since coming here? Has Cedric said or done something to him?The more I think about everything that I’ve noticed lately, the odd question about scents, the more I need to sort this out. I take a deep breath in and calm my frustrations as much as I can. If I accuse Cedric of forcing himself on Kai and it turns out I am wrong, then he will not only know we have been sneaking around behind his back but who knows what else he will do?There has to be an explanation for this, and I need to get to the bottom of it. I can’t act jealous or rash right now. If this is all a misunderstanding, then Kai needs me to stay safe and not risk the ire of the alpha. However, I can't just ignore this either. The fact that Kai ran off means there