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Sylvia Fenris' POV *************************************************************
"Ooh, I am telling you guys, I caught a glimpse of him outside the Headmaster's Blackwood's office. He is so hot! With long legs and dark hair, he looked like a mirage. The entire school is buzzing!" Nina gushes, fanning her face dramatically with her hand. She is talking about the new student that just joined the Crescent moon Academy, two weeks into the session. It is almost midnight and Nina has been going on and on about this hot new student since dinner. Thoros Myr. The alpha heir of the banished Bloodstone Clan. I wasn't born yet when the whole business went down. And it is such high political business that it wasn't exactly common knowledge amongst the other clans outside of the Crescent moon ruling clan. Even within the Crescent moon Clan, the full information was restricted to the Apex pack. The actual pack that orchestrated the power takeover and are now currently ruling the entire Pacific Northwestern dynasty of werewolves containing hundreds of clans and hundreds and hundreds of packs. But what I know about the Bloodstone Clan and the reason for their banishment was that they were betraying us to the humans in some way. I am unclear how or why or if there was actual proof, but their banishment seemed reasonable. They had been putting the lives and continued secrecy of the werewolves dynasty on this side of the Pacific northwest in jeopardy. "Nina, what were you doing at Headmaster Blackwood's office?" Maria chips in, quietly from her bed, asking the important question. Maria doesn't talk much, in fact, she is such a direct opposite of Nina that they kind of balance each other out. I am glad for the diversion because I am getting sick of this Thoros Myr talk. It was all everyone talked about at dinner. Everybody around me was so enamored with this stranger that no one noticed what was eating me up inside and it is making me develop a negative bias against him. He might be hot all he wants but I hate him already. It is my birthday today and it started on a great note. My friends gave me gifts and made a little fanfare about it earlier on in the day. Edwina, my best friend who I have known since we were little girls baked me a cake and sewed me a gorgeous dress for the full moon bonfire party that is happening this Friday. Maria wrote me a beautiful poem and Nina gave me a haircut she claimed would make me more beautiful for Rand, maybe it would aid in taking our relationship to the next level, she said with a lewd wink that made me blush. Rand Thor, the Alpha-Heir of the Crescent moon Clan and my fated mate. Rand, who hasn't wished me a happy birthday all day. At lunch, I lied to my friends when they asked. I told them he had wished me but we couldn't meet since he was so busy with his classes. I lied and told them we were going to see each other at night when he was done for the day. As Alpha-Heir, Rand has a more tasking training schedule. Asides the classes he takes with the rest of our year, he also gets extra lessons with his private tutors hired by his father, the Alpha of the dynasty. They can be grueling, accompanied by the added pressure to do well. I hate myself for making excuses for him because if I am being honest, Rand has been distant since we got admitted to the academy. Something changed with him and there was no way to find out what it was if he wouldn't even talk about it with me. I suspect it has to do with the increased pressure of proving himself to the dynasty as worthy of being the next Alpha after his powerful, widely respected father. "What do you think I was doing there, Maria?" Nina bites back at her cousin. Edwina snorts her laughter but Nina is glaring at Maria from her bed. Nina was always having to be called to the Headmaster's office. In just the two weeks we have been here, she has flounced so many rules and stretched the rigid limits of how much fun was allowed by the academy. Mostly involving her association with boys and being caught out late at night. Nina claims to love the adrenaline rush of testing her limits with the academy's rules, but we know she is genuinely scared of getting expelled. Her family counts on her graduating the academy with great grades and upgrading their pack's hierarchy. "What did you do this time, Nina?" Edwina asks, laughing. The room is dimly lit, large enough for two double beds with enough space so it doesn't feel cramped. Sparsely decorated since we would be moving out after our first year into the more permanent personal rooms in the other dormitories belonging to seniors. "Nothing!" Nina snaps, though her tone suggests she was smiling down there in her bunk, nestled in by her stuffed animals. "Yeah right." Edwina teases. "Back to Thoros, do you guys have any idea why he is back? According to the talks across the school, his family remains exiled. But since it happened before he was born, there was a clause that made it okay for him to return to the territory. And now he is here in the Crescent moon of all places. Isn't that peculiar?" Nina asks, her voice is conspiratorial and quieter, when nobody says anything, she calls my name sharply, I am pulled from my thoughts about Rand and all the ways he was breaking my heart. "What is it?" I ask her, keeping the irritation out of my tone. "Rand should have an idea. Have you asked him?" She asks, having no idea the turmoil ongoing in my chest at the mention of my fated mate's name. "An idea about what?" I am so lost, I hadn't been paying much attention to the conversation. My heart feels like it is being weighted by something heavy at the mention of Rand. Not bothering to wish me a happy birthday seems like a preview of what the rest of our lives would look like as Alpha and Luna. Him, prioritising his responsibilities over me. Me, heartbroken and always needing to prove my worth to him. That wasn't what I had in mind for my future as his Luna. "Thoros Myr. Why is he here." Nina provides gently, I can sense her pricked curiosity from my opposite top bunk across the room. The other two are quiet, maybe they are also waiting for an answer or asleep already. The former is more likely. "I don't know." I say, the defensiveness in my tone is unmistakable. "Sylvia, are you okay?" Edwina calls up to me, we share the bunk bed with her on the bottom one. The room is quiet. I am glad for the dim light, because if my friends can see my face right now, it will betray my emotions. "Yeah, why not?" I clear my throat but the slight tremble only makes itself more noticeable. "You don't sound good. Is there something wrong? With Rand? You guys couldn't meet, right?" Edwina has the uncanny ability to read me correctly, but she has it slightly wrong this time around. She thinks I am sad because I couldn't see Rand when the truth is that he didn't care. The clock strikes midnight and my heart sinks. I get up, my friends are quiet, waiting for me and I know I will only just lie to them again. "I am fine. I am going to meet him right now." I lie as I climb down the bed. I can't sleep and I can't think, I feel stuffy and it feels like if I continue staying in one spot, my heart could stop beating. Nina shoots up from her bed, her interest piqued at the mention of a clandestine midnight meeting, something that she was slowly becoming an expert on. "Ooh! Go get it, Sylvia!" She croons.Sylvia Fenris' POV ***********************************************I woke to unfamiliar warmth and the low murmur of voices I didn't recognize.For a moment, I thought I was still dreaming, a soft bed, sunlight through a window I had never seen, the smell of woodsmoke and pine instead of academy linen. Then pain registered, sharp and everywhere, my paws and my feet all bandaged, my whole body aching like I had been dragged through the entire forest, which, I realized slowly, was not far from the truth. Every muscle protested when I tried to move even slightly, small fires lighting up in my shoulders, my ribs and the soles of my feet."She is awake."I turned my head toward the voice and found a woman I did not know, older, with kind eyes and a healer's careful hands, sitting beside the bed, a basin of water and clean cloth on the table beside her. Behind her, stood two men I recognized instantly by the crest stitched into their collars, the crest my history classes had taught
Sylvia Fenris' POV************************************************I didn't tell my friends about the note. I burned it in the candle flame instead, watching the paper curl black at the edges and crumble to ash on my windowsill, and told myself it was a cruel prank. Some jealous classmate with too much time and too little conscience, nothing more. It was easier to believe that than to sit with the alternative, that someone with real resources and real intent wanted me gone from this school, and maybe from this world entirely. I went about my days like nothing had changed, forcing smiles at breakfast, forcing my hands steady during training, pretending the note was just paper and ash and nothing more.I almost believed that too, until three nights later.I was walking back from the training barn after a late session with Coach Aldric later than usual, the sky already dark and starless, clouds pressing low over the academy grounds like a held breath.I felt it before I hear
Sylvia Fenris’ POV ************************************************************************************ I kept out of his way for a week, tried never to have anything to do with him even though a part of me still desired him. It was not as easy as I expected. He seemed to be avoiding me as well, we would appear at the edges of classrooms, and never quite look me in the eye, like he was giving me room to hate him properly. Part of me was thankful for the distance because it will help in quenching whatever burning desires I once had for him, but another part, more stubborn and less sizable, kept scanning the crowded hallways for a glimpse of dark hair and stormy eyes, and each time I caught myself doing it, I hated myself a little more. So, I trained instead, harder than ever, forcing my body until my muscles cried out and my wolf was finally responding to my call without question. Coach Aldric told me I was improving faster than anyone he had taught in a decade, and I clung
Sylvia Fenris’ POV ************************************************************************************ “You lie.” “You lie.” The words came out shaky, my whole body suddenly cold despite the warmth of the morning sun climbing over the fence posts. “You couldn't have done it. Everybody knows you weren't born when the banishment happened,” I said. “You said so yourself," he said with an apologetic voice. I said each word louder, panic and denial blending until they were indistinguishable. "No, the banishment,” I continued. His eyes locked with mine. He wouldn't let me look away from what he was about to say. “But your mother didn’t die when they banished her, Sylvia. She died six years back. In a skirmish on the border. I was fifteen years old. Old enough to fight in a war I didn’t understand, yet young enough to still believe everything my father told me about the people who exiled us, he continued. “Six years ago?” I asked. “I was told my whole life that my mother
Sylvia Fenris’ POV ************************************************************************************ I don’t remember the walk back to my dorm. I remember Edwina's hand on my back, Nina cursing Rand's name with words that would have gotten her expelled if a teacher had heard, and Maria saying nothing at all, just sitting close enough that I knew she was there. They took turns bringing me water, tea, and a blanket, as if I had been physically wounded badly, I really felt the humiliation in front of the entire academy. It was as if I should have possessed the power to reverse everything. In a sense, I had been rejected. Public rejection is more than heartbreak. Honestly, it hurts a lot. That’s a mark. An open wound for the world to see. Though the wound will heal, the scar will always be there to remind me of it. By the next morning, half the students wouldn't look me in the eyes, and the other half looked at me with open pity, which was somehow worse for me to endure. Pity mea
Sylvia Fenris’ POV ************************************************************************************ By breakfast, the whole dining hall knew what happened the previous night. I knew it the moment I walked in, the way the conversation dropped and eyes darted towards me and away again, fast and guilty. Like I was something shameful they didn't want to be caught looking at. Suddenly, the long tables of students I had known for years felt like a gauntlet. Before I could even sit down, Nina grabbed my arm. "Is it true?" she hissed, pulling me down on the bench beside her, eyes bright with a mix of scandal and worry I hadn't seen in her before. "You kissed Thoros Myr?" “Where did you get that?” Nina asked. My stomach dropped through the floor. I didn't tell anybody. I hadn't even admitted it to myself yet. Everywhere, Sylvia. It’s all over. At least Edwina's face was pale with worry, not judgment, and that was the only thing that kept me upright. “Rand's friends are







