When I answered it, it was Kiran on the other end. I quietly left the rowdy pub to take it with me and went outside.
"Hi," I said, sounding as unassuming as I could manage. I secretly hoped that my guilt at envisioning another man wouldn't be obvious to everyone else. "How is the newborn doing?""He's doing well and had a productive day at the nursery. I was in bed by seven, so you didn't really miss out on anything.""Aw, I really do miss him. Tomorrow night, I'm going to make an effort to call and tell him a tale before bed. Because my workplace had recently arranged for some networking drinks to take place tonight, I am obliged to go with all of the most eligible farmers in Edinburgh. There is no response. What exactly was the matter with my husband?He was unharmed until he eventually uttered, "Sounds like hell." "I will let you proceed with the rest of your evening then. Remember that you're supposed to work, so don't go too wild.""What exactly are you trying to say with that?" Was he aware of what happened the night before?"Well, I don't believe they would take too kindly to couches being left on their lawns," you may say. "It's just not in their nature."I chuckled, relieved, and responded, "No, you're correct."Before stepping back inside the pub, which was unusually crowded for a weeknight, I stopped to catch my breath by leaning against the cool wall and taking a few deep breaths. I maneuvered my way through the masses until I found Rory; he was the only one still seated at the table I had departed a few minutes earlier. There was no sign of Kerry or the others anywhere in the area. At first, I was hesitant, but as he caught sight of me, I stepped forward to approach him."Hey, does anyone know where everyone is?" When I was finally near enough to him, I asked him. He gave a shrug but was silent otherwise."Listen, if you're still angry about what happened last night, I'm sorry. I've been known to do some wild things when I've been drinking.Stonewalling me in the process, he maintained his silence while maintaining eye contact with me. When I stopped and thought about it, he hadn't actually spoken to me directly the whole night. What exactly was he playing at? A few minutes later, when the others came with drinks and the conversation started, I felt a sense of relief wash over me. The reality of the brick wall that was out with us, combined with the sensual and forbidden thoughts that I was having, had me in desperate need of a drink. I had told myself that I wouldn't drink as much tonight.And drink we did, drink, drink and drink. While Kerry and I were laughing it up on the dance floor, I yelled to her, "Oh hell, I'm so going to regret this in the morning." I noticed Rory chatting with a female near the bar at one point throughout the night, but later I saw her alone, and Rory was nowhere to be seen. Rory had almost vanished for the majority of the evening."Would it bother you if I went back with John?" While Kerry was crashing into me at the bar, she asked me the question. "Rory is here now, and you and he should be able to go back to the barn together, shouldn't you?""What? But you can't trust me since I'm so intoxicated. I completely lose my habitability, and Mr. Moody's posterior is hot. If he's around me, he won't be safe."Yep." Kerry gave me a nod, giggling as she glanced away from me.And he's been standing right here next to me, hasn't he?" I added. I hesitantly shifted my attention to the figure standing nearby, and as Rory and I locked eyes, he gave a little nod of acknowledgment. I was intoxicated, so I laughed it off, although I was only mildly ashamed. Before I could say no, Kerry planted a peck on my cheek and then quickly retreated into the crowd. I was taken aback. After everyone else had departed, it was only me and the brick wall, both of whom seemed to have had quite a bit to drink."Sexy am I?" It was the first time that he had spoken directly to me all night, so I leaned closer to him so that he could brush his finger down my cheek in response to his question.I followed it up by saying, "Yes, you're sexy, I'm married," hoping it would put him off. Although he let out a loud sigh, he kept stroking his fingers softly over the strands of hair covering my cheek. I attempted to reawaken my senses by closing my eyes, but his odor was so alluring and entrancing that I found myself moving closer to get a better whiff. He stepped closer to me, allowing his odor to fill my nose. I had never been strong enough to be able to resist hunger before, but this one was driving me crazy. On a gloomy day, he was like a warm doughnut that I wanted to eat completely.His hand grabbed mine, and he led me out of the bar. I followed him through the crowd, and our fingers got entangled as we walked; Kiran had only ever held my hand before, and it didn't seem as sexy as it did at that moment.When we went outdoors, the cool air combined with the alcohol in my system caused a shiver to go down my entire body. At the same time, I could feel the alcohol sparking within me as it interacted with the cold air. We continued walking together with our hands connected while we looked for a taxi, but none of us spoke. My pulse quickened when he tightened his grip, and my thoughts became fixated on his hard hand. It was the only thing my attention could focus on at the time. Finally, we could hail a cab and hopped into the back together. Even though there was plenty of room, we chose to sit quite closely together, with one side of my body tracking his from my arms all the way down to my legs. I felt euphoric since I was in such close proximity to him.Before I could even get out of the cab, his hands were on me; then, he backed me up and shoved me violently into the wall of his house. I jarred my shoulder, bringing me back to reality for a split second. However, after that, I ignored my more sensible side, like a parent who stays up too late. I knew that I would be kicking myself for doing it in the morning, but gosh, it sure felt wonderful right now. At that moment, I had never desired anything more than I did as he moved in to kiss me, and I saw his lips get closer to mine. I wanted to put my tongue on his wet lower lip and taste him. I wanted to taste him. I hadn't felt the want to do it until the trip home in the cab, but I couldn't wait to run my hands over his body.Then I thought of Lucas and Kiran; before being with Kiran, I had never done anything similar to what I was doing now; in fact, since I had been with Kiran, I hadn't even looked at another man. When Rory's lips finally touched mine, I quickly drew away and smacked him across the face with both hands. My palm burned as it moved from his face to my lips, which he had only moments before violated. He took a few steps back in surprise, heavily breathing as he stood straight to keep the moonlight from reaching the area behind him. His shadow looked like a rabid werewolf on the wall next to me.I yelled out, "I can't believe I'm married!"He did not talk at any point; rather, he ran his hands over the short hair on his head and continued to breathe in a deep and loud manner. His gaze was drawn downward toward the earth. It appeared as though he was engaged in a struggle with his own thoughts, and the anxious movement of his feet on the mud below us reflected this."I'm married," I said over and over again.And then an odd event occurred over which I had no feeling of control. I charged at him and brought his face close to mine as I did so. I gave him a passionate, passionate, and sexual kiss, unlike any other kiss I had ever given to anybody else. As he loosened up, he wrapped his arms around me and pulled me into a more intimate position. It seemed as though we were physically incapable of coming much closer to one another. I could taste the delicious alcohol on his breath via his tongue in my mouth. I desired him, and I desired every part of him. As his hands searched beneath my top, he kissed the back of my neck and moved down to my shoulders. My hands gently stroked his body, and when I tugged at his top to remove it, he elevated his arms so I could do so. As I kissed his tanned chest, I let my tongue and fingers explore every inch of his upper body. I was completely captivated. Because we were standing so close to one another at this point, I could feel the bulge in his trousers pressing up against me.He disengaged himself from the tangled situation. "Let's head in," he said to himself. I tried to turn back, but it was too late; I will always blame the drink, but there was more to it. He was like a narcotic to me, and I couldn't get enough of him.When we entered his bedroom, I began to feel dizzy, and when we were inside, I immediately sank into his bed, and I believed that I had fallen asleep there.I open my eyes and have no idea where I am, but I do know that I am not in my own house, and within moments, the events of the previous evening flood back into my mind. The potential harm I may have caused sends shivers through my body. In addition to the fact that I am still wearing my top, my lower half also appears to be whole. The question is whether I dare turn back and see my current location. And what I am doing here, or who I am with.With trepidation, I tilt my head away from the wall, but all I can see is a cozy bed and a wall. There's a glass of orange juice next to my bed and dark navy sheets that smell like Rory when I flip over. When the thought occurs to me, "What if it's poisoned?" I sit up and drink the juice in one sitting. He may lock me up in a farmhouse and beat the soles of my feet into submission, like in the movie "Misery." I return the remaining liquid to its place and step back onto the hardwood floor. Our room's window looks out into the barn where we're st
I remain silent and allow him to elaborate on his "favor." From how he walks and moves, I can tell he is uncomfortable asking for help."I need some extra time to do the farm evaluation. Here we go, then! I wish he had been more interested in Coprophilia."Why is that?" I lose it; I can't keep my temper from flaring. I had a sudden pang of guilt, wondering whether he tried to sleep with me to get this favor.To the papers before him, he averts his gaze. I'm not in the best place mentally; my dad passed away a month ago, and I've been left to cope with everything on my own.I knew a farm was changing ownership, but I didn't know it was this one. There was no acceptable reason to fall behind in work; problems at home were not acceptable, nor were the inherent dangers of working on a farm.The speaker said, "Look, I don't believe we can - "Just ignore my question; it's none of my business. Perhaps a disastrous first evaluation is needed to prove to everyone that "I can do this."As his
I see Rory driving his tractor in the field next to the huge house as I wave Kerry goodbye from my car. I drive there to inquire about the best time to lend a hand. I am confident in my plan as I head out to the field. I'm not an idiot; I realize this is completely against my values and morals. I'm a judgmental married woman who can't fathom the allure of extramarital affairs for both sexes. I felt sorry for the kids caught in the crossfire and angry at the homewreckers who had intervened and enabled it to happen.But as I draw nearer and watch the grin spread over Rory's face as he recognizes me, I remember why I can't say no. He pulls over to the side of the road beside the fence and parks the tractor. As I climb the fence to look at him closer, I groan and roll my eyes at the logical part of my brain.As in, "When would you like me to drop by?" I ask.In an hour, we can all sit down for a meal together."Oh, ok." Here, I'm just experimenting with fire. I give him a smile back and w
My heart is racing, and I feel queasy when I knock on the farmhouse door. I am about to lose it as Rory walks through the door wearing nothing but pants. I take a few deep breaths, one in each nostril, and slowly follow him into his kitchen. I'm amazed at his cooking skills right now. He is a present that keeps on giving.I'm assuming you're a spaghetti fan.I give a polite nod, covering up how amazed I really am. To cover his broad shoulders, he walks over to the chair his t-shirt is draped over and does so. Don't worry about me; I nearly always end up talking out loud. He responds, and I can tell by the look on my face that I am not pleased.He excuses his absence of a t-shirt by saying sheepishly, "I didn't want to get spaghetti sauce on it."I can't help but remark, "It smells great." As I cross the sizzling pan, the aroma fills my lungs. Can we skip the small talk and get right to business? I am interested as to how much of a time commitment it will take to organize all of his pa
He tosses the noodle back into the pot, splashing it all over his white tee.“Shit!” They hear him howling.So, I go over to his side of the counter again. Is everything well with you? I ask. His lovely white shirt is now stained with crimson sauce.His head shakes in disapproval. He finally snaps, "See, this is what I was trying to prevent." To which the respondent enquired, "You have a son?"To what end were you avoiding me? Which came first, the flaming tomato sauce or the reality that I'm a happily married mother of two?Both," he says with a chuckle. He removes his tee shirt again, and the sight of his half-naked figure makes me weak in the knees. I should be escaping from his deceptive grins and teasing remarks as quickly as possible. There's no doubt in my mind that he has feelings for me; after all, we wouldn't have come here if we weren't both hoping for a certain outcome. As he hands me the bowl of spaghetti, I bite down hard on my lower lip. I can't bring myself to sit down
Rory approaches me and stands next to me. He greets you with a kind "hello" and a slightly seductive tone.Uncomfortably, I offer a grin. “Hello.”As he mutters softly in Scottish, his powerful palm flicks a strand of my hair away from my face.My body tensely stiffens. Why ask that question if you don't have to get up early. As fear grows within me, I wonder.In an intimate gesture, he slides his finger to my lower lip and strokes it. His "shhhhhhh" draws me closer to him, and his warm breath on my face sends shivers down my spine. The pace of my breath quickens to match his, and we're both moving to the same beat in an instant. We each stare at one another silently, taking in the details of their faces. His brown eyes were dark and deep as they stared into my blue ones, who craved every part of him. His accent and low voice make me even hotter. He says in a low voice, "You do something to me, and I simply can't stop myself."As I try to think of a response, he presses his lips to mi
He leans over and kisses me briefly on the side of the face before dragging himself out of bed. I watch him get dressed in his boxer shorts and T-shirt from under the covers. I'm going to presume he'll get his jeans from downstairs on his way out.This time he leans in and kisses my face. Thanks for last night, he adds as his smile grows cheekier as he continues to stare at me.Don't bring it up. Oh, and keep your mouth shut around Kerry. Don't forget that I'm a married woman."In agreement, he gives a little nod. Do you think I'd forget?When I hear his footsteps leaving the barn, I know it's safe to unwind. I get comfort in the fact that his scent is still there in my bedroom by snuggling up to the pillow he left behind.Suddenly, Kerry appears beside my sleeping body, brandishing a belt. She screams, "You disgusting Hoe," as she brings me out of my stupor. Insanity, what is this?I awaken with a rubbing of the eyes and a sitting up. "What's the deal?" Sluggishly, I inquire.To para
It had been so long since I had touched Lucas's smooth skin or run my fingers through his curly hair, and I missed him more than words could express. A week without him seemed like too much to bear. Again, I dialed Kiran's number, and this time he answered. I didn't bother with a video call because it was beyond Lucas' bedtime, and I hadn't missed Kiran's face. Only 10 minutes were spent on the phone while Kiran updated me on Ben's progress in retrieving the sofa. Even though we were never the madly in love sort of couple, it was distressing to see how far apart we had gotten.The phone conversation solidified my resolve to end my marriage for good. For reasons unrelated to Rory, I never expected we would develop romantic feelings for one another. I had come to terms with Kiran and I being fundamentally incompatible and that we should never have been married for social reasons.When I needed a pick-me-up, I put on a tearjerker. I had just finished sobbing into my bowl of cereal while