ANMELDENThe air in the hallway was thick with the scent of expensive floor wax and something more metallic.
I didn’t have a name for it but what I did have for it was a feeling. A terrible reminder I was now a part of this monster’s world. Bane Valak. My feet felt heavy as I followed him, the plush carpet beneath my toes doing nothing to soften the blow of my new reality. Two weeks ago I was getting my hair curled in a high end salon, surrounded by girls who hated me but stuck around because our fathers were rich. I wonder what I would have done back then if I knew that in such short time I could go from being sold to stolen to being turned into…….. a possession. A toy. A ‘princess’. Bane stopped abruptly in front of a pair of towering mahogany doors. He didn't turn to look at me, but I could feel the weight of his presence. It was like a physical pressure against my body. "Listen closely, Princess," he said, his voice a low, rasp that sent a shiver of pure dread down my spine. "My house is not a prison, provided you understand that it is also not a playground. There are rules.” He turned to face me then, “If you violate them, and you’ll find out exactly why your husband is currently a memory." I swallowed hard, my fingers twisting into the hem of the dress he’d had someone leave for me. "I..I understand." He turned then, his dark eyes tracking the movement of my hands before settling on my face. He stepped closer into my personal space, forcing me to tilt my head back just to keep him in view. He was so huge. "First," he began, ticking a finger off. "You do not leave the premises. Not the gates, not the garden walls. To the world, you died with your husband, Raul. If you step outside, I cannot guarantee you will see the light of day” I nodded once, my brain unable to search for the right words to respond with. "Second," he continued, leaning in until I could smell the faint hint of bourbon and cold air on his skin. "You do as you are told. If I send a maid to dress you, you dress. If I tell you to move, you move. My word is absolute. Do you understand me, Princess?” “Yes” "Third," he said, his hand reaching out to catch a stray lock of my hair, tucking it behind my ear. His touch was almost but not quite gentle. He looked me in the eye as he continued speaking. "You will always appear presentable. You are a reflection of this house and me now. I will not have you looking like a victim, even if you may feel like one." His fingers lingered on the shell of my ear, and I felt my breath hitch. He was toying with me. "Fourth," he murmured, his gaze dropping to my lips for a fraction of a second. "No phones. No internet. No tethers to the life that you used to have. However, I am not a savage. You have full access to the library. Read. Learn. Occupy your mind so it doesn't rot with useless hope." Useless hope? I realized that I was in someway I was holding on to useless hope. Hope that someone would come find me and get me out of here. He paused, his grip suddenly tightened on my arm , forcing me to look up directly into the abyss of his eyes. "And fifth, Amaya. The most important rule of all." He leaned down, his breath warm against my ear as he whispered the final command. "You belong to me. To me, and me alone. Not to your dead husband’s ghost. If another man touches you, I will kill him. If you seek out another man, I will make you watch while I do it. Do you understand?" "Yes," I whispered, the word barely a breath. My heart was beating so fast that I wouldn’t be shocked if he could hear it all the way from where he stood. "Good." He released my arm, turned and pushed the heavy mahogany doors open. What I saw next was a library that was staggering. Even that had to be an understatement. The walls were lined from floor to ceiling with leather-bound books, a rolling ladder tucked into a corner, and a massive velvet chaise lounge sitting in the center of the room. Even better, it was right under a crystal chandelier. It was a sanctuary made of gold and paper, like the most beautiful cell in the world. He stepped back, gesturing for me to enter. I walked in, the silence of the room swallowing the sound of my footsteps. I waited for him to say something else. Maybe a parting threat, some form of mockery, but when I turned around, he was already leaving. He quietly pulled the doors shut. The click of the lock echoing through the room was the final blow. I stood in the center of the room, alone, surrounded by the wisdom of centuries and the stories of a thousand lives. I should have been glad. But I felt my knees finally give out. I collapsed onto the thick Persian rug, the weight of the last twenty-four hours crashing over me like a tidal wave. I didn't look at the books, I couldn’t bring myself to think of them mattered. I just buried my face in my hands and let out a jagged, broken sob. I sat there and cried. I cried for the girl who thought her wedding day would be the start of a life, even if it was going to be a miserable one. I cried for the husband I hadn't loved but who had been slaughtered before my eyes. I cried because I had looked into Bane Valak’s eyes and seen a man who wanted to break me and own the every single piece. I cried because I’m so scared.The report from the kitchen had reached me within ten minutes of the event. Regina had been the one to tell me, a sharp, satisfied smirk on her face as she described the "baptism of fire." Even I was beyond shocked. I didn’t expect that from the fragile, pale-skinned woman that looked like she could be broken by the wind.Still, I felt bad for her.This wasn’t a thing she would do under normal circumstances. Perhaps, the violence I had exposed her to had broken her.Discipline was the backbone of this estate, and while the girls’ tongues were foul, I hadn't expected Amaya to be the one to lash them.She was probably mourning her loss of innocence. I went to her room intending to offer a cold sort of comfort. I pushed the door open, my words already formed. "Princess, I heard about the kitchen. Sofia and Maria will be dealt with and…..” The words died in my throat when my eyes landed on her. She wasn't on the chaise and She wasn't hiding in the shadows either.She was
The shadows in my room had grown long and skeletal, but I didn’t mind it much. I was too exhausted to even bother. I hadn't moved from the chaise lounge in hours. I was still wearing the dress I had on in the kitchen but now it had the microscopic red speck of blood on the hem. I couldn't bring myself to touch it, let alone change out of it. It felt like a second skin made of my own shame. Every time I closed my eyes, I heard the SNAP of the leather. I saw the way Sofia’s skin had puckered and split and I saw the raw, primal terror in Maria’s eyes. It was the same terror I had carried since the day I met Raul, and since the night he was killed. I had become the thing I hated. I had used a weapon to silence a voice. A soft, rhythmic knock sounded at the door. I didn't answer. I didn't want to see Sofia’s replacement. I didn't want to see the new, sharpened fear in the staff's eyes. "Amaya. Open the door." It was Regina. I didn’t want to see her
The kitchen was so silent I could hear the frantic, shallow breathing of the two women cowering before us. Sofia’s eyes were darting toward the door, her hands shaking so violently the hem of her apron fluttered. "I... Signora Regina, we didn't... we weren't..." Sofia stammered, her voice thin and reedy. "You weren't what?" Regina stepped forward, her heels clicking like a countdown. "You weren't slandering the woman my brother has placed under his personal protection? You weren't calling a guest of this house a 'hole' for his amusement?" My stomach turned. "Regina, please," I whispered, reaching for her arm. "It’s okay. They were just talking. Let’s just go." I looked at Maria, whose face was twisted in terror. For a second, I felt a wave of pity. I wanted to plead for them, to be the bigger person, to show the mercy I wished had been shown to me. But then, I remembered the guard’s rough hands, the cold steel of his knife. I had been a target of harm and yet t
The halls of the Valak estate were usually a vacuum of sound.It was always so very silent.Like it had been designed to swallow the secrets of the men who walked them. But as I rounded the corner near the service entrance to the kitchens, the silence was broken by the sharp, rhythmic clatter of silverware.There was also the little laughter and conversation of unseen voices of the female house staff.I slowed my pace, my hand and ears hovering near the cold stone wall. Usually, the staff fell silent when I approached, their eyes dropping to the floor in a practiced display of the "Bane Protocol." But they didn't hear me this time. The thick velvet rug muffled my footsteps, and the door to the pantry was propped open just enough to let their words leak out."Did you see the ugly dress she wore yesterday?" a voice sneered. I recognized it immediately. It was Sofia. The same girl who had brought me chamomile tea with a look of faux-sympathy. "She thinks she’s a queen because the
The hotel room in Milan was perfect. I sat by the window, the city lights blurred by a steady, relentless drizzle. My laptop was open, glowing with spreadsheets of shipments and laundered accounts, but my mind was three hundred miles south. There was a sharp, rhythmic knock at the door. I didn't ask that was; I reached for the Beretta on the nightstand. "It’s Luca," a muffled voice said through the wood. I lowered the weapon but didn't put it away. "Enter." The door opened, and one of my most trusted couriers stepped in, his coat slick with rain. He didn't say a word. He simply reached into his inner pocket and pulled out a small, square envelope. It was slightly crumpled at the edges, smelling faintly of the lavender sachets Amaya’s maids favored. "The Little Bird was early today," Luca said, a ghost of a smirk playing on his lips. He was one of the few who knew of my friendship with Amaya.He knew that if he spoke a word of this to Bane, I would skin him alive. And he
The fireplace in my bedroom was never allowed to go out.Which was fine by me for the most part.For some reason, even during the hot afternoons, I still felt chilly. It was probably a psychological issue but that was a different issue. I sat next to the fireplace that Bane had provided, the silk of my sleeves whispering against my thighs. In my hand was a piece of heavy, cream-colored parchment. It felt heavy, just as he had promised. It also felt like a risky secret. “Dear Little Bird,”the letter began. I traced Nathaniel’s handwritten words with my thumb. It was so neat. Almost like he had formal training on Calligraphy.We had agreed on the monikers during the second day of his absence. He was THE GHOST, and I was LITTLE BIRD. It was a childish precaution, a layer of thin glass between us and the crushing weight of the Valak name, but it was the only way we could breathe. Plus, as wonderful as having a friend felt, I knew thatIf a guard intercepted a letter from "Nath
The silence of the library was no longer heavy; it felt expectant. I had gone to a corner to feast on my newly acquired books but I could hardly focus on them. My mind kept going back to Nathaniel Valak who was on a different side of the library. At least he was until he found what he was
The velvet curtains of my suite were pulled back, allowing the sun to spill across the floor. It’s been a week since the incident with the guard and for the first time I had been brought to this place, I didn’t wake up with the immediate urge to vomit. The weight of everything that happened
The hallway to the East wing felt longer than usual or maybe that was just me dragging my feet.I never would admit this out loud but going to see Amaya made me feel nervous.I have done all that I can to change that and get over whatever was wrong with me when it came to her.However, I fear tha
The iron door of the holding cell groaned on its hinges, a tortured sound that set the tone for the room beyond. I stepped into the dim, subterranean space. The smell of damp concrete and metallic blood hit me instantly. In the center of the room, strapped to a heavy wooden chair, was the ma







