ALPHA REXThere are times I remember vividly more than the time I was locked up. Times I relived every single day. Times that hurt a thousand folds more than being kept in a cage like a beast…♠️♠️♠️PAST“Please…let me stay.” I was on my knees, my barely matured caps kissing the ground in front of her. I was young…innocent…scared but I’d heard it and I didn’t want it for myself.I’d heard her and my father arguing about it the night before. I had trouble sleeping and so I left my bed to go get her to sing me a song like she used to. A native song that she says is the song of future warriors. I barely understood. You couldn’t blame a small-minded pup who just loved to hear his mother sing him a song to sleep and didn’t care about the significance of the song. I had found her with him where I stood, looking through the small creak in their door that they probably didn’t take note of or even their voices that were raised so high in argument, no one living under this roof could miss i
EUDORA. Other than my shame, there was nothing to take with me as I left the Angels and Banes pack. I would have said I was leaving just the way I came if my already broken heart wasn’t shattered completely and the pieces scattered carelessly in places where they couldn’t be easily found. When I came here, I was in a little bubble of my own uncertainty. I was empty inside, broken and unsure of what life would throw at me next. So no, I wasn’t leaving the same way I came here. My heart, as broken as it was, was full now. Here, I found friendship in the most unlikely way. Found kindness in an elderly woman who was the second person to think me “special” after Conan. In the midst of it all, I found brutality like no other but when I went down on my knees and looked into those silver eyes…and saw the little flicker of emotion that could have been easily missed, I had the conviction that I could pull through whatever brutal treatment I would get. I was convinced that all I needed wa
ALPHA REXThe first breath of fresh air was a satisfying one. It was pure and uncontaminated and the perfect reminder of how life used to be before the disaster that was the Omega. I passed by her room this morning before I left the house. Lillian was there, cleaning up the last traces of the girl like I instructed her to. Zena on the other hand didn’t show up at the table for breakfast as she already knew about the departure of the Omega in the early hours of the morning. “She didn’t say goodbye.” Logan told me when we met up, ready to go for another round of torturing our prisoner to give me what I wanted. “At least she did one thing right.” I said, shrugging. If my sister was so attached to her, it was only right that she left without causing more pain. I despised her but I would give credit for that one thing. “Do you not feel anything for her at all? You said you’d found her with Zena, does that not tell you something? Zena hasn’t opened up to anyone in years.” Logan walked
ALPHA REX. The number of times I asked my prisoner about what I already knew proved the singular point that I wasn’t willing to accept that someone I had just tossed out of my pack somehow, has something to do with a revolution I was still confused about.“I told you everything I know! Please…please…let me go now.”The screams and yells of the man followed my move out of the room with Logan following dutifully behind me. I didn’t care what the men did with him, I already got what I wanted from him even though it was not in the least satisfying. If anything, it made me want to trash the whole club. I just couldn’t wrap my head around anything especially where the Omega was concerned. What was it about her? Why was she…why was she everywhere in my face?“You look angry.” Logan said quietly, stating the very obvious.“No shit, Sherlock.” I grumbled at him. “This is about her right?”“Isn’t everything about her now?” I snapped. Everything revolved around her yet I couldn’t figure out
EUDORA. I was no stranger to the dark. It was what my life was…an endless tunnel of darkness with not even a glimmer of light at the end of it. Whenever it felt like I was slowly stumbling my way out of the tunnel, my eyes catching on to the traces of light it can find, the road out of the tunnel then gets darker with every turn.I was in darkness. Literally. The world around me was dark and once again, the moon goddess was too cruel to bestow the lights of the moon over the large expanse of forest I was in. The sky was void of even stars and I had to strain my eyes to be sure if what was in front of me was a huge tree with lots of branches or a monster with thousands of eyes and the same number of arms out to get me. After Logan dropped me off, I had been lost at first. I stood and looked around, thinking of where to go next from there. My mind was as blank as a sheet of paper. It didn’t help that even on a really bright day, the forest around the Angels and Banes pack was scar
EUDORA.“I need you.”Three words and it’s just Alpha Rex saying them with the usual pointed look in his eyes, making it difficult to properly make sense of the words and why he said them like they were just another set of words he always flings around at me. I barely got the chance to say anything after what he said and even if I did, my brain failed to make any sense that could send signals to my lips to make them work. It happened fast and now we were in his car, on the way back to the pack. It was surreal and no, it’s not just returning to the pack that made me feel that way but because Alpha Rex came back to get me and now I was seated right beside him while he drove. We rode wordlessly. The few weeks I spent being close enough to him made it clear that he was not a man of many words and especially not to me who he didn’t even like the sight of. The awkward situation dampened my excitement. I was going back to the pack, I was going to meet Zena and Lillian again, I wasn’t just
ALPHA REX. The old Gamma blinked back at me, her mouth opening and closing as evidence of her shock at my words. I expected that much from anyone who knew me and what I was capable of, especially with the events that have happened in the last few days.“Alpha, you want me to train Eudora to take care of you?“I didn’t want to repeat it because it was more bearable to think about it in my head than for me to say it out loud but I was going to be doing that a lot and I needed to get used to it. “Yes, that is exactly what I meant.” I said and added, “She will take over from you as my caregiver.” “But…I thought—”“This changes nothing, Lillian. I still feel the same way about her but I need her around.” I left it at that. Not that the Gamma would question my authority or decision but I was done with the look of pity everyone gives the Omega like I was the bad person here. Granted, I never believed I was good, heck, I’m not even close to it but that doesn’t make it less frustrating tha
EUDORA. The reason I was brought back to the Angels and Banes pack wasn’t officially announced until after a few days when Lillian came into my room, bearing shopping bags in her hands. I ran over to help her with the heavy bags, now just realizing that the Alpha had no maid around the house to handle things like this. I only just realized how much work Lillian did here. “Do you get paid for this?” I asked, more worried about her than I was curious about the loads of bags dumped on my bed.Lillian smiled tenderly, tired lines causing her forehead to crease. I had heard the Alpha talk about her leaving this week and I already knew why. Lillian was retiring. She has until her birthday to be this strong and able to move heavy things around the house.At eighty, she will have no wolf to give her the strength anymore. I was just like that. Give me a few wrinkles and tired eyes and there you have it, a wolf fit for the retirement pack. “The Alpha does send me money but I have had no use