LOGINKaia’s POV.
The air in the Great Hall had turned thick enough to choke on. Every eye was a needle, stitching me to the spot where the Alpha’s son had just committed social suicide by touching me. My father’s eyes flared with a warning so potent it made my knees want to buckle. He didn't move from his seat, but his knuckles were white where they gripped the edge of the table. To him, this was a security breach. A stain on the Beta’s reputation. I didn't wait for the formal dismissal. I turned on my heel, the silver tray clattering onto the table, and walked out of the Great Hall. I didn't run. But as soon as thedoors closed behind me, I let out a breath I hadn't realized I was holding. I made it halfway to the Omega quarters when a hand clamped onto my shoulder, spinning me around. I already knew the grip. It was too rough to be a stranger’s, too familiar to be anyone but blood. "What the hell was that, Kaia?" Jace hissed. My brother’s face was twisted in a mixture of disgust and genuine confusion. "Did you do something? Did you scent him? Use some Omega trick to get his attention?" I shoved his hand off. "I was carrying meat, Jace. Unless he has a fetish for roast beef, I didn't do anything." "Don't lie to me," he snarled, stepping into my space to use his height as a weapon. "The Alpha’s son doesn't just walk up to a... a girl like you and start whispering in her ear. He’s the future of this pack. You’re a servant who happens to share my last name. If you’re trying to social climb by playing the 'misunderstood Omega,' stop. You'll get us all exiled." "A girl like me?" I repeated, my voice dropping an octave. I stepped closer, refusing to let him intimidate me. "You mean a girl who can out-spar you three days out of five? Or a girl who actually does the work while you preen for the Alpha? If Killian Blackwood wants to talk to me, maybe it’s because he’s bored of looking at the same vapid faces you spend your time with." Jace’s eyes flashed gold. For a second, I thought he might actually strike me. "You’re delusional. He was mocking you. He has to be. Stay away from him, Kaia. That’s not a request from your brother. It’s an order from your future Beta." He turned and stormed back toward the lights and laughter of the hall. I stood in the dark, my hands trembling. Not from fear, but from the exhausting effort of holding back the wolf that wanted to tear the arrogance right out of his throat. *** I couldn't go to sleep. My skin felt too tight, my blood too hot. I headed for the training grounds on the edge of the forest. At midnight, it was deserted, illuminated only by the pale, cold light of the moon. This was my true home. Not the kitchens, not the omega’s Quarters , but the dirt and the wooden posts. I didn't bother with a shirt. I stripped down to my sports bra and leggings, letting the biting night air hit my skin. I needed the cold to numb the memory of Killian’s thumb against my jaw. I began my routine. Strike. Pivot. Elbow. The heavy bag swung with a groan. I poured every ounce of my frustration into it. Strike for my father’s silence. Strike for Jace’s cruelty. Strike for the elders who looked at my curves and saw a liability. I was moving in a blur of sweat and motion, my breathing coming in harsh, rhythmic rasps. In the dark, I didn't have to be "plus-sized" or "Omega." I felt the power in my calves as I launched into a roundhouse kick, the impact vibrating through my entire frame. "Your form is slightly off on the follow-through." I spun around, my heart leaping into my throat. I dropped into a defensive crouch, my fists up, my wolf snarling at the surface. Killian was leaning against a tree. He had shed his formal jacket, his white shirt unbuttoned at the collar, sleeves rolled up to reveal forearms corded with muscle and etched with dark tattoos. He looked less like a prince now and more like a predator who had found his favorite hunting ground. "You're following me," I said, not moving from my stance. "That’s a crime, isn't it? An Alpha stalking an Omega?" "I’m not stalking," he said, stepping into the moonlight. His eyes weren't on my face; they were tracking the sweat glistening on my collarbone, the rise and fall of my chest. "I’m observing. And I’m not an Alpha yet. I’m just a man who couldn't sleep” "Then go for a run," I snapped. "The woods are that way." "I like it here," he murmured, walking toward me. He didn't stop until he was just outside my striking range. "Why do you train so hard, Kaia? No one is going to let you on the front lines. They’ve already decided what you are." "I don't train for them," I said, my voice shaking despite my best efforts. "I train so that when the world tries to crush me, I’m the one who doesn't break." Killian’s gaze darkened. He reached out, and for a moment, I thought he was going to touch me again. Instead, he grabbed the punching bag, stilling its swing. "Show me," he said. I blinked. "What?" "Spar with me. No ranks. No titles. Just... this." "I can't spar with you," I said, a hysterical laugh bubbling up. "If I leave a mark on you, my father will have me locked in the cellar. If you hurt me, it’s a diplomatic incident." "I won't hurt you," he said, his voice dropping to a low, dangerous rumble. "And as for the marks... I think I’d like to see what kind of mark you’d leave." It was madness. It was the quickest way to get myself exiled or worse. But looking at him, I realized he was the only person in this pack who wasn't looking down at me. He was looking at me. I didn't say a word. I simply lunged. I moved fast, aiming a low kick at his lead leg, but he was faster. He caught my shin, his hand like a manacle. I used the momentum to pivot, swinging my elbow toward his chin. He ducked, his laughter a soft, dark sound in the night. We moved through the dirt in a violent, beautiful dance. He was stronger, yes—his Alpha blood gave him an edge I couldn't match in raw power but I was lower to the ground, faster with my movement. I managed to get inside his guard, my shoulder slamming into his chest. For a second, the weight of me caught him off balance. We tumbled to the ground, rolling through the frost-covered grass. I ended up on top, my knees pinning his biceps, my hands pressing against his shoulders. We were both gasping for air. I had the Alpha’s son pinned. His eyes were wide, the gold in them burning like twin suns. His scent was overwhelming now—the woodsmoke and rain were joined by the scent of arousal. "Yield," I whispered, my hair falling around us like a curtain. Killian didn't answer. He shifted, his hand moving with a speed I couldn't track. Before I could react, he had flipped us. Now, I was the one pinned to the ground, his massive frame hovering over mine. His thighs settled between mine, his hips pressing into the soft curve of my stomach. The contact was too much, a jolt of desire that made my toes curl into the dirt. "You’re magnificent," he rasped, his face inches from mine. "They try to hide you away because they're afraid, Kaia. They see a girl who can't be controlled, who takes up space and demands to be seen.” "I'm an Omega," I breathed, my heart shattering at the way he looked at me. "I'm nothing." "You are everything," he countered. He leaned down, his forehead resting against mine. "The rules say I can't touch you. The laws say I should find a 'pure' mate to secure my line. But I’ve spent my whole life being what they wanted. And right now? I only want what’s forbidden." His hand slid from the dirt, his fingers tangling in my hair. He pulled back just enough to look me in the eye. "Tell me to stop, Kaia," he whispered. "Tell me you don't feel this pull, this tether between our souls, and I’ll walk away. I’ll never speak to you again." I looked at him—the dangerous, beautiful prince of the pack and then I looked at the life of shadows waiting for me tomorrow. I didn't tell him to stop. I reached up, my fingers tracing the scar on his eyebrow, before sliding down to the nape of his neck. I pulled him down, closing the distance until our lips were a breath apart. "Don't you dare walk away," I whispered. And then, he kissed me.PILOGUE — Ten Years Laterkaia's POVOn a Saturday morning in late spring, Asha came to find me at the school.She was ten years old and had been training formally since she was seven, which was the age she had decided she was ready and had presented her case to me with the specific organized precision of someone who had grown up watching Pella build arguments and had absorbed the method entirely. I had said yes because she was ready and because I had learned from Pella that telling someone they were ready before they had convinced themselves they were did not work, and by seven Asha had convinced herself thoroughly.She found me at the fence of the original training ground, the one that had started everything, watching the Saturday morning free session where students came without a formal curriculum and worked on whatever they were working on. There were forty-three students in the school's current cohort, which was the largest it had ever been, and on Saturday mornings a good third
Kaia's POVThe last night of the year I could not sleep.Not from worry, not from anything unresolved. The specific wakefulness of someone whose life is so full that the body sometimes cannot hold it all in sleep and has to be awake to contain it properly.Killian was asleep beside me, deeply and completely, the way he slept when nothing had been left unfinished. Asha was asleep in her cradle with the committed quality she brought to sleep in the long stretches she had been doing for the past two months, the deep even breathing that I had stopped holding my breath around.I got up quietly and wrapped myself in the thick wool I kept at the end of the bed for exactly this kind of waking, and I picked up Asha, who stirred and then settled against my chest without fully waking, and I went out into the cold.The night was the specific clear cold of the year's last night, the sky enormous above the territory, more stars visible than in any other season because the air had no weight of warmt
Kaia's POVOn an afternoon in late autumn Rhea asked me to come to the garden for what she called a conversation and what turned out to be the last formal thing she taught me, meaning the last time she sat me down with the specific intention of giving me something I needed to have.The garden was going to its winter state. The plants cut back and the beds covered and the stone bench cold enough that we kept our jackets on. The sky was flat and grey with the quality of late autumn that was not unpleasant but was honest, the season not pretending to be anything other than what it was.She looked at me for a long moment when we sat down and I let her look, because Rhea's looking was never idle and always arrived somewhere."I want to say some things to you directly," she said. "Not because you don't know them. Because I want you to have them from me, in your own memory, said in this garden where most of the important things between us have been said.""Say them," I said."You did everyth
Kaia's POVKillian finished the first map room notebook on a Wednesday in late autumn and came home with the closed notebook in his hand and set it on the kitchen table between us and we both looked at it for a moment.It was full. Two years of specific moments, written down before the edges could blur, the whole record of everything since the Bond Test held in the careful hand he used for things that mattered."Get another one tonight," I said."I was going to," he replied. "I wanted to tell you first. I wanted someone else to know that the first one is finished."I picked it up. The leather was already worn at the corners from two years of being taken out and put back, the pages dense with the close writing he used when he had a great deal to fit in. I could not read it from outside, just felt the weight of it, the specific heft of a record that had been kept faithfully."Does it have the Wednesday teas?" I asked."Several of them," he said. "Different ones for different reasons.""
Killian's POVThe correspondence notebook reached twenty packs on a Thursday afternoon and Pella told me about it in the most Pella way available, which was to set the open notebook on the map room table without preamble when she came to collect the quarterly reporting documents, point to the new entry, and wait.I looked at the twentieth pack. Looked at the page before it, the nineteenth. Looked at the full sweep of the notebook, the neat columns and the open questions sections and the status summaries she maintained at the back."Twenty packs," I said."Twenty-three wolves actively training," she replied. "Fourteen in packs with established infrastructure. Nine in packs where the designation updates have happened but nothing's been built yet.""You track the gap between policy and practice," I said."The gap is where the work is," she answered, with the plain certainty of someone who had spent two years corresponding with wolves who lived in the gap. "Updating a record without chang
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Kaia's POVPain was information.That was the first thing I had taught myself, in the years of training alone in the dark. When you hurt, you didn't panic. You listened. Pain told you where you were damaged and how badly, what you could still use and what you needed to protect. Pain was data, and d
Killian's POVI had spent six years at war. I had learned to read a battlefield the way other men read maps — calmly, without the luxury of feeling. You looked at what was happening. You calculated. You acted. Feeling came later, in the dark, when there was nothing left to do about it.That was the
The kiss didn’t just taste like rebellion; it tasted like an ending.When Killian’s lips finally parted from mine, He was still hovering over me, his weight a delicious, grounding pressure that my wolf was currently purring for—a sound I hadn’t known she was capable of making.He looked down at me,
Kaia’s POV.The scent of damp earth and pine needles always felt like a second skin, but today, it was choked out by the metallic tang of sweat and the bruised ego of a warrior twice my size.I shifted my weight, feeling the familiar, power in my thighs. People in the Silver Moon pack saw "plus-siz







