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The Choice I Cannot Undo

Author: Katie Haddad
last update publish date: 2026-04-07 21:03:09

Nyxara POV

I have erased people before.

Entire moments.

Entire connections.

Entire lives from memory.

It was always easy.

Until now.

Rowan’s breathing changes first.

Subtle.

Uneven.

But wrong.

I notice it immediately.

Of course I do.

Because I have been listening to it since the moment we stopped moving—tracking the rhythm of it, measuring the space between each inhale, each exhale, calculating how long his body could sustain itself before the silver inside him began to win.

I
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