…Xavien POV…
Tortured bliss is what I feel every time she ran circles through my mind last night as I sought the comfort of my bed. Never has one woman consumed my dreams in total ecstasy. I could feel her delicate fingers running down my sculpted chest as she laid spread over my body. In nothing but red lace, she filled the empty space that is now only meant for her. Even though my hands had the desire, I left her untouched. I want to take my time with her; I want to feel her presence and let her linger until she begs.Somehow I think that it is me that is going to do the begging. I will count the seconds as I patiently wait for her to give me her body and soul once again. I want her to not only be with me; I want us to become as one. She shall be the one that will be undoing. She has become my now, my present; she is the driving force that will determine what I do next.And next is me that is scanning the floor from one blonde to the other. There is no...Xavien POV...Life does not always go as you plan. Your best-laid plans are sometimes going to fail. The question is, how do you deal with failure?Well, life is made up of these defining moments; it is up to you have you let these moments affect you, for they shall shape who you are and what you will become.How do you deal with a marriage that you thought was completely stable, a marriage you thought was heaven-born.You cant.I simply don't.I have never known failure in my life, yet though, I have had my share of heartache. Heartache makes up that defining moment. And my choice is never to love again.Yes, it sounds like some country and western song; hey, I can even throw my boots on and dance to it. The sad what is, when something comes to an end, then it comes to an end.Mekayla was, well, yes, as her name says, Mekayla. Mekayla that comes with sunshine, that brings a new day. She was the light of my life. I will not
...Xavien POV...The day has finally arrived.Today the babies are born.Mekayla is completely petrified, pacing the room as she is trying to get into her hospital gown. She has been going to see this doctor, but to me, it does not seem that there is any approvement. Now, I have asked her and the doctor what is going on, but neither of them wants to tell me. And as for Tina, Mekayla has not told her either.Now she is here working herself up, and believe me; I ain't the one telling a pregnant woman that is about to give birth to calm down. Well, not that she would listen because what I say really does not count, for she does keep on reminding me that we have separated. She does not want to understand my perspective, and I don't know what is wrong with her. At this rate, it is not helping us both.So once she has put on that godawful hospital gown, the nurses come to push her bed through to the operating theatre. Not once does she hold my hand as we move thro
…Mekayla POV…I am losing my husband; in fact, I think that I have already lost him. My insecurities have taken me over. I fear that I am not strong enough, or even a good even wife for him, for I cannot keep myself together. I have taken my failure to trust him about how I feel out on him. How is he supposed to have meant to know that I was going through a hard time dealing with what happened? If I only sat down with him, then he would not have left our home.So here I have Tina, that is just as frustrated at me for not wanting to listen, for refusing to go speak to a doctor that will listen. Have I really gone that mad that I find myself in this room? I have trusted no one to help me; why should I trust someone to help me now? Our precious little babies are to be born in a few weeks, and here I cannot control my emotions. Not the hormonal ones, but the ones that will drive you to insanity.I guess I drove the man away from me that I truly did love. I h
...Xavien POV...I have moved back to the ranch and have been here for two weeks now. I can honestly say that I feel more relaxed and myself again. I have been able to do the things that I enjoy and still run my company at the same timeAs for Mekayla, yes, I miss her a lot. We keep in contact regularly, but that is mainly talking about the babies though. I try at all costs not to say anything else to avoid getting into an argument. Well, not that I am saying that the arguments have stopped, for I do get the angry message and then a call out of the blue.It has been a real challenge having to start a new life again when you thought that you had the perfect one. Every time I look at those divorce papers, I really wonder if we did just moved into things too quickly. Perhaps, if I did not insist on us marrying so soon, things would have been different. Who knows? All that I know is that our marriage has not been working.Tina has been struggling to get Mekayla to th
…Mekayla POV...Things between Xavien and me have not been going well. We are constantly fighting, and it just seems to me that he has lost all interest in the babies and me. His work has become more important to him. He is a completely different man; I honestly do not know who he is anymore. In a way, I think that Xavien and me moved too fast, too soon.I know that I am hormonal and that the pregnancy is taking more out of me than I thought it would. I am not coping; the idea of having to bring up two babies scares me. I don't know if I will even be a good mom if I cannot be a good wife. But then again, Xavien himself is not really trying.Instead of us talking this out, we are just running apart. I feel like I am losing my mind. I am falling into a deep depression. I want to have it all, I want to have two beautiful babies, a handsome husband, and a perfect career, but right now, all I have is the fear of bringing these two into the world.It is not like
. ...Xavien POV...I have moved out into the guest room permanently.Things in the Caruso household have gone from tense to nothing at all. Mekayla and me barely talk to each other, and when we do, we find ourselves in an argument. I have stopped counting the number of stupid things that we fight over. That damn cribs are still standing there; Grant told her to sort her shit out and to stop being so unreasonable. Now when I wanted to agree with him, I found a plate come flying towards my head.Mekayla has gone completely insane, and I mean that in the nicest of ways.She is working herself up to a frenzy every day, which the doctor told her to clearly stop doing for her stress levels are not good for the babies. She is going for thirty-four weeks soon, and she is going on like a complete lunatic.I have found any and every reason to stay at work these days, and of course, I am having an affair with Barbara. Well, if I wanted to have an affair, I wo