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“So you’re telling me you were there because you were applying for a job? In that kind of place, really?” I bit my lower lip and looked down. Dra. Vallero sighed deeply, and shame immediately washed over me. She used to be my classmate back in high school, now she’s successful, living comfortably, while I… well, look at me. “How about your son? How’s he doing? I just came back to the Philippines, and I was planning to visit you soon. I didn’t expect to see you in a place like that,” she asked again. My chest tightened, and I couldn’t answer right away. Dra. Vallero was actually the one who helped deliver my baby. I had no money for the hospital and no one with me at the time. Thankfully, she happened to be on duty and helped me even though I didn’t know how I’d pay for anything. She even covered part of my bills after I gave birth, so my debt didn’t grow too big. I was supposed to thank her back then, but I later heard she went abroad before I could even talk to her again. So she never found out that… “My son’s gone.” “What? What do you mean gone? Did his father take him away from you?” I bit my lip and gave her a faint, bitter smile. “H-He died when he was two. Dengue,” I said softly. Her lips parted slightly in shock, and I quickly looked away as I exhaled deeply. “I-I’m sorry. I didn’t know,” she murmured. I pulled her coat tighter around me—the one she’d lent earlier when she saw how short my clothes were. She had also invited me to grab coffee nearby so we could talk. I was going to refuse at first; I could only afford 3-in-1 coffee anyway. But she insisted, saying it was her treat, so of course, I went along. “It’s fine. Hardly anyone from our batch even knows. The others… well, they don’t care,” I said quietly. “But Lyana…” “When did you come back, by the way?” I quickly changed the topic, looking up at her. “Are you here for work or just a vacation?” I couldn’t help feeling envious. She could just hop on a plane without worrying if she’d have something to eat the next day. Must be nice. She gave a small smile, though I could tell it was forced. “I came back for work. My cousin hired me, he said they needed my help, so I returned even though I was busy abroad,” she explained. “What kind of work? Are you still a doctor?” She hesitated for a moment, as if unsure whether to answer. Then she let out a nervous laugh. “N-Not exactly. I’m no longer working in a government hospital. Uh… I work for an agency. As a doctor.” “Really? What kind of agency?” I asked curiously. Maybe she knew of a job opening I could apply for. I was supposed to pick up Thirdy from Auntie’s tomorrow, so I needed some assurance that I’d have work soon. Just enough to give me a little peace of mind. She still didn’t answer right away, like she was carefully choosing her words. Finally, she sighed and leaned closer. “I work for a surrogacy agency in California,” she said in a low voice. My brows knitted in confusion. “Surro… what? What kind of job is that?” The word sounded familiar, but since I’m no doctor, and definitely not as smart as she is, I couldn’t recall exactly what it meant. Maybe I’d heard it once at school? Or in a hospital? I wasn’t sure. “It’s hard to explain, but basically… w-we look for women who can carry a baby—” My eyes widened, and I clamped a hand over my mouth. “Is that illegal?” The words slipped out before I could stop them. She didn’t look offended, probably used to that question by now. She calmly shook her head. “It’s legal in other countries. It’s not illegal here either, but since the Philippines is considered conservative, it’s not common,” she explained. I slowly lowered my hand and nodded. “So… what do those women do, exactly? Is it like a real job? Since you said it’s an agency.” “Well, we help couples who can’t have children due to infertility or medical conditions. We assist them through gestational surrogacy, meaning the egg cell of the woman and the sperm cell of the man are implanted into the surrogate mother’s womb. For same-sex couples, we help them too, by finding an egg or sperm donor. The baby grows in the surrogate’s womb until birth.” My mouth fell open at her explanation. Maybe I was just slow, but it took me a moment to fully grasp what she said. “I-Is that even possible?” I asked in disbelief. She nodded. “It is. We’ve helped a lot of couples already. The agency and the surrogate mother are both compensated, depending on the contract,” she said. Compensated? “You mean… those women make money off the babies—” “It’s not like that,” she interrupted quickly, making me look up at her again. “They’re helping couples have children. The payment is compensation for that help. It’s a fair exchange, they support you financially, and you help them start a family. But of course, it still depends on the surrogate’s mindset.” I slowly nodded, finally understanding what she meant. “That’s… actually amazing. I didn’t know something like that was possible,” I commented. “Lyana?” “Hmm?” I casually sipped the coffee she’d bought me. “What is it?” “Your baby… he was healthy when you gave birth, right? No complications?” I frowned a little but nodded. “Yeah. He was healthy. My pregnancy was fine too. I wasn’t even sensitive back then. He only got sick because of… dengue.” My voice trailed off as I looked down. “You mentioned before that your relationship with the baby’s father was short, right? H-How many times before you…” “Before?” “Before you conceived?” I nearly spat out my drink at her question, snapping my head up to glare at her. “I-I mean, I’m just curious. If it only happened once, then that means you… well, you get pregnant easily.” I stared at her for a moment, dumbfounded, before I managed to speak. “Why are you asking me that kind of question?” “You need a job, right? For your brother?” Though confused, I still nodded. I really did need one, especially now that I was getting Thirdy back. He was my only priority. “I need it badly,” I said firmly. “In that case…” She met my eyes, and I suddenly felt uneasy, sensing that whatever she was about to say would change something. I was about to look away when she finally spoke again. “Would you like to be a surrogate?”FIVE“What do you mean I have to pay? Excuse me, miss. I was driving carefully! Your brother suddenly crossed the road out of nowhere. It’s not my fault your brother was stupid enough to—”“Finish that sentence,” I cut in sharply, my voice low and serious, “and you’ll be the next one lying here beside my brother’s hospital bed.”I exhaled loudly, trying to steady my breath, before glancing at Thirdy, who had just stopped crying. There was a bandage wrapped around his head from the accident, but thank God it wasn’t as bad as I’d feared.“L-Lyana, well, the thing is…” Auntie started hesitantly. “Th-Thirdy was kind of at fault. H-He crossed the road without looking, and then…”“Oh? You heard the old lady herself,” the driver said smugly, his tone dripping with arrogance. I closed my eyes for a moment, forcing myself to calm down.When I opened them again, I lifted an eyebrow. “You’re the one who hit my brother. And tell me, who’s the one in the hospital right now? Your car?” I shot back.
FOUR“H-Huh? Surrogate?” I asked in disbelief, pointing at myself. “M-Me?”She nodded slowly and motioned for me to come closer. Though confused, I still obeyed and stepped toward her.“It’s a secret, okay? The truth is, I went to that bar because I know Mamita. I was going to ask her help in finding a surrogate—”“But didn’t you say you already have an agency?” I cut her off. “Why not just look for one there? What if the person you get has HIV or something? You’ll just put yourself in danger.”She quickly gestured for me to lower my voice. We were still in a coffee shop, and anyone might overhear our conversation. I nodded in understanding.“In our agency, the supposed parents have to be the ones to go there themselves,” she explained. “But in my cousin’s case, they can’t leave the country. The family mustn’t know. Her husband doesn’t want to tell anyone that she can’t get pregnant, so…”“If they can’t go abroad, then just bring the surrogate here,” I interrupted again.She shook her
THREE“So you’re telling me you were there because you were applying for a job? In that kind of place, really?”I bit my lower lip and looked down. Dra. Vallero sighed deeply, and shame immediately washed over me. She used to be my classmate back in high school, now she’s successful, living comfortably, while I… well, look at me.“How about your son? How’s he doing? I just came back to the Philippines, and I was planning to visit you soon. I didn’t expect to see you in a place like that,” she asked again.My chest tightened, and I couldn’t answer right away. Dra. Vallero was actually the one who helped deliver my baby. I had no money for the hospital and no one with me at the time. Thankfully, she happened to be on duty and helped me even though I didn’t know how I’d pay for anything. She even covered part of my bills after I gave birth, so my debt didn’t grow too big.I was supposed to thank her back then, but I later heard she went abroad before I could even talk to her again. So sh
TWO“What kind of dancing is that, Lyana? You look like a lamp post, for heaven’s sake!”My temper flared the moment Jasrylle said that. Instead of looking at the mirror, I turned sharply to her. “I told you I have no idea how to do this kind of thing, didn’t I? You said I could handle it—”“I said just sway your hips a little! But with what you’re doing, you look like a pig being butchered. My God, you’re stressing me out,” she complained, fanning herself dramatically. “Girl, seriously. You’re not a dancer… you’re a human lamppost! Or are you made of bamboo, huh?”I rolled my eyes and massaged my temples in frustration. We’d been practicing all afternoon because she said she’d take me to the bar where she worked tonight to introduce me to her boss. According to her, “Mamita” always asked applicants to give a sample performance before hiring anyone, and since dancing was what I was applying for, I had no choice but to learn.“What now? I told you, I don’t know how to dance. You can se
ONE“I heard Gab got arrested,” Jasrylle said just as I was taking a sip of water.I froze mid-drink, sighed heavily, and shrugged. “Really?” was all I managed to say.“Serves him right. That bastard. Even calling him a monster feels too kind. He left you when you needed him most, didn’t even help when your child got sick. If only he had helped, maybe…”She stopped mid-sentence when I let out another deep sigh. Realizing she’d gone too far, she shut her mouth and fake-coughed. “Sorry. I didn’t mean to bring that up again. It just pisses me off, you know? That jerk deserves to rot in jail. He’s heartless. And spineless too,” she added, still fuming.I stayed quiet. I wanted to curse him too—but I’d done enough of that every night, whispering my hatred to the dark because of what he did to my ch—my child.I was only twenty when I got pregnant with my ex-boyfriend, Gab. I still don’t know if I was just naive back then or born a fool for falling for a man like him. He came from a rich fam







