The wait was killing. So much so, that I paced the hospital room where we waited enough to drill a hole through the floor."Lucas, worrying is not going to do anything for you right now," Mia pointed out, from where she sat next to the window. She had arrived, apologetic and tear-filled a few hours ago, and knowing the real reason Chris had to leave, it was easier to let my anger with my sister and sister-in-law slide. I could not even do this without them anyways. My family was the only people I could show my real emotions to and right now, I felt dreadful. Every 'what if' in the book had gone through my mind, been refined, declined, and revisited. Thankfully, Lilian was kind enough to stay with the kids back at the villa, the last thing I needed was to have my kids within these hospital walls now.That woul
I woke up with a jolt, breath coming down in heaving pants and my body nearly trembling. I could faintly register the warmth of something in my palm, small, delicate, smooth. Shaking my head I adjusted my eyes to the lighting in the room, taking a moment to regain composure, to remember that it was just a nightmare and I was still here sitting next to Chris in her hospital room—the same spot I had occupied in the last 12 days—and that the fullness in my palm was from where my hand held on to hers.It was a nightmare, just a dream, yet it felt like anything but so. Too real, maybe because that nightmare was a mirror of what my life was right now. It had nearly been two weeks and while her vitals were looking okay, Chris had still not shown any sign of waking up anytime soon, neither the cops nor my men had ground on where Sarah was, and my life was
ChrisIt had to be the worst proposal in the history of proposals. Yet, with every word he spoke, he guided me slowly and slowly, bringing me out of the darkness that had trapped me since I heard him screaming my name through the phone."In every universe, I choose you too,"And just like that, the invisible bars of a cage I had been trying to flee for what felt like an eternity came crashing down.The bright light from above me was nearly blinding as my eyes opened slowly, causing them to shut back close. In a flinching moment, I tightened my grip on the warm hand where mine rested. It was his. Even through my unconsciousness, I could recognize that hand, holding mine every single day, never letting go.
It was a nightmare of that night all over again, it had to be. Except, that coldness in his eyes, the dread that seeped through my veins when he spoke, the way my body trembled at the sight of him—it was all too real. This was really happening again, and there was no one to save me."B-baron?" I squealed, wishing I had the powers I so desperately needed to disappear."Yes sweetie," he slurred, showing off his brown stained crooked teeth in an evil smile. "I'm back for you, I know you missed me."Paralyzed with fear, I did the first thing I could think of, but a heavy hand closed over my mouth before I could let the first scream out. "No, you don't," Baron growled, blocking every airway with his large rough palm.
Lucas It was the third night I had to spend at the station, trying to understand what little Italian I knew as I helped the cops find the mastermind that had turned my entire world into a whirlwind. The third night I spent doing anything else but taking care of her. Not like she'd let me. Not like she'd speak to me. Not like she'd look at me. In a way, pouring my efforts into finding Sarah was my way of distracting myself from the bitter truth that I failed her. That I failed them both. Chris may never forgive me for this, and while that hurt like hell, the pain of knowing I could never forgive myself was on a whole different level. My chest squeezed at a fresh memory of Chris under that bastard with his disgusting hands around her, taking her breath. No level of restraint could have prevented me from tearing him apart limb by fucking limb. To give him a lesson not only on how to treat a woman but more importantly, to make sure his eyes never did so much as look at mine in any way,
ChrisMy conversation with Lucas opened a fresh can of worms. One filled with guilt and self-hate and regret. As had been the case since my arrival from the hospital, Lucas' side of the bed was as smooth and cold as I left it when I went to bed last night, succumbing to the pills pumped into my body daily. From the countless arrays of guestrooms in this mansion, I was sure he would have no issues finding a place to sleep.Not like I had asked him to leave though. Not like I would not leap with joy if he came back to our bed. Our contact in the last two weeks had been limited to tentative touches and brief glances. As much as I yearned for Lucas and I to go back to where we were before our world was thrown into a whirlwind, when he had proposed to me I knew I deserved it. I deserved his dismissal for killing our child. But even despite that, Lucas remained a gentleman, only out of politeness of course, because that was who he was. A man that would never abandon me, even though I could
I had not realized just how much I needed to breathe fresh air that was not sullied by a mixture of stale air, pills from the doctor, and a large dose of my sadness. For what first like the first time in forever, the sight of food did not make my stomach churn, or at least it did in the right way. The scent of freshly made orange juice and blueberry danishes set out on the picnic table only made my mouth water and my empty stomach growl. I turned to my best friend the closest thing I had to a sister with a smile. "You planned this?" Of course, she did. I had to be the luckiest human on the planet to have everyone I had in my life now. She rounded the table, taking her seat with a knowing smile. "I was hopeful that today would be a good day." I tilted my head, a fresh wave of guilt pulling at my chest. I had been so drowned in my sadness that I had completely neglected everyone, myself included. "I'm so sorry for shutting you out too, Bess." She shook her head tersely, "Nope, we ar
It was hard to tell how long we lay there, with me half-naked and asleep in Lucas' arms. But when I woke up to the light scruff of grass against my knee, the red-orange of the sky told me we had been there in that position for quite a while."I'm sorry," Lucas rasped, and I realized we had shifted from the position we were in when I fell asleep. Lucas sat with his back against the wall of the maze, holding me to himself. It was the closest we had been to each other, with the obvious exemption of how intimate we had been before I drifted asleep. "I didn't mean to wake you up,""How long did I sleep?" I asked, with quite an idea in mind."Not long enough, you needed the rest." he stroked my head as he spoke."You should have woken me," I gave a brief chuckle, followed by a wince at the numbness in my hands as I attempted to pull myself away from him and sit up.Lucas held on to me tighter though, tutting and shaking his head as he did. "I don't want you to leave just yet, stay here in m