To say Sebastian and I’s flirty actions had spurred his mother on was an understatement. We had successfully spent the morning together, checking out a house that needed repairs. I wouldn’t exactly call it a romantic outing, but we were still together at least. We had gotten a little caught up with the mother living there, listening to her tell us how her house had gotten ransacked and her living room wall had gotten almost entirely destroyed. Apparently a pair of rouges had somehow gotten through the border and all the way to where the pack houses were. That had pissed Sebastain off; he’d actually excused himself to go yell at some guards. He came back though, looking like he felt slightly better. We had personally made sure plans were put into motion to fix her house, since she had two young children who were depending on her to provide for them, and I sympathized with that.When we were leaving her house, however, walking back to Sebastain’s to get lunch, we were ambushed by Se
…Luna?” I shake my head a little as I realize I’m being spoken to. Which makes sense, because I was the one zoning out in the middle of my conversation with one of the pack guards. I had kind of maybe escaped a little this morning. Sebastian and I went to our own rooms last night, and I don’t know about him, but I slept like shit. I couldn’t stop thinking about what we’d done, again. Flip flopping between how good it had felt, and how much I wanted to do it again, to feeling guilt for having fun while I was forcibly separated from my kids. I had finally given up around five am, heading downstairs dressed. I might as well get going on my day if my mind isn’t going to let me sleep. I’d glanced the back of Sebastian in the kitchen when I’d gone down, and panicked. I’d run out the front door and sneaked away before I could even think about how childish I was acting.I mean, come on, I am a grown woman with two kids already, and all I had done is slept with my mate. My manipulative, c
I returned back to Sebastain’s house after a couple hours of letting my wolf run around and hunt a little. I was mostly thinking of what I was supposed to do now while I let her stretch her legs. It made me feel... something that it seemed like my mate might be changing a little. After all, he was talking to May about wanting to cease his attacks on Killian. I didn’t figure everything out, but I came to the conclusion that I do in fact have feelings for Sebastain. I could keep denying it all I wanted, but every time I was around him it was like I went into a weird frenzy. I wanted his eyes on me and me alone, I wanted to talk to him, and touch him. When he spoke I listened, and when he moved I watched. There may still be feelings of hate in there for the way he ripped my kids away from me, but the passion I felt for him was starting to overshadow that. I also know I’m not quite over Killian yet. We went through a lot together, and literally have two children. I can’t let go of the
I’m sitting in the backyard area of Sebastain’s house, on one of the patio chairs he has around a table. He’d come out and tried talking to me a little, but honestly I just kind of wanted to be alone. I was feeling like a shitty mother, and the only thing that would make me feel better was hugging my kids, but I couldn’t do that right now. So I was just sitting out here, watching the wind blow the leaves in the trees and trying to stop my aching heart. I glance up when I hear a chair scooting out and someone sitting down. I had expected it to be Sebastain to be honest, so I’m very surprised when I look up and meet eyes with Camilla. “Hello.” I say cautiously. She gives me a tight smile. “I heard you threw Serena around.” She asks, her eyes scanning me over. I grimace, but nod. I’m shocked when her face spreads into a smile. “I bet that felt good.” She says. I laugh a little, and shrug. I couldn’t lie, it was kind of satisfying to show her how I really felt about her. “She deserve
The week after the incident with Serena was weirdly quiet. Every morning I half expected to wake up with gum stuck in my hair or something, and I’d always check my surroundings when I approached the staircase. Didn’t want to end up getting pushed down by the bitter mother in law like I was in a cheesy day time TV show. Sebastian hung around me a lot, and I can’t lie, I kind of liked it. But he also was still going on dates with Camilla, which was bothering me more and more each day. If he didn’t plan on being with her anyways, why was he still hanging around her? He had told his mother he had no interest in her, but for some reason he was still entertaining her. One morning, I was sitting at the kitchen island, eating a bagel. Sebastian comes down the stairs and joins me, ruffling my hair a little as he passes by me to the fridge. “I have a surprise for you today.” He says to me. I turn around to look at him and raise a brow. He smiles a little and moves to sit beside me with a
I am more than aware I am losing Everly every day she spends with Sebastain. There was a part of me that hoped she would wait for me when I realized she was the one who would be staying behind, that the things he had done for would overpower the pull of the mate bond. But there was a bigger part of me that knew from the start it would be impossible for her to stay completely away from him, especially considering the whole reason he was keeping her here was to make sure he got an heir one day. There was no way he wasn’t laying it on thick with her to try and get back into her good graces.I could see it when I approached the pair with the twins in my arms. She looked guilty, and had taken a step away from Sebastain like she had been caught doing something. And the way he kissed her forehead when he was leaving? She hadn’t even tried to stop him or move away. It was hard to be mad about my assumptions, since I’d been the one to actually cheat when we were still together. I had to rem
“How was your day?” I glance up at Sebastian as he sets a cup of tea in front of where I sit at the table in the back area of his house.It was seven in the evening now, Killian and the twins had left a couple hours ago. Not before he reminded me plenty of times how we were meant to be together, and to not forget about what we have while he works to get me back.I had walked back to Sebastain’s slowly and quietly, just thinking about everything Killian had said to me today. “Oh… it was good.” I say carefully. I wasn’t actually with either man, but I still felt like I was two timing both of them. I definitely had feelings for both, and it came through when I was interacting with them. I couldn’t help it. “It was nice seeing the twins.” I add. “Yeah? Must have been hard to send them off.” He says as he sits next to me with his own cup of coffee. I roll my eyes at his obvious attempt to entice me into keeping them here with me. If the day ever came where I felt comfortable leaving my
The day it would be decided who would be staying with Sebastain and becoming his Luna was tomorrow. It had been three days since Sebastain and I had our little conversation, and I gotta be honest, it was becoming more and more clear to me I had upset him more than he’d let on.I hadn’t seen him at all the day after; apparently he’d been busy with committee work all day, and would be for the following days. Or so he said. I believed him at first, since the same members who had questioned my motives behind wanting Sebastain now were starting to pop back up. I had seen Serena leading them somewhere when they’d first arrived, I’m assuming to the guests' houses. She had been smiling and chatting them all up, ever in schmooze mode.But on the second night, I had left my room to use the bathroom around eleven o’clock. I hadn’t been noticed, but I had seen Sebastain and Camilla leaving, both wearing nice clothes, and their arms were hooked together. I still remember how it had felt when my
“You’re kidding, right?” Beatrice asks me after a moment of staring at me with a slack jaw. I consider, then shake my head “Seems like a weird thing to kid about.” I say earnestly.She laughs a little incredulously, shaking her head. “Why?” She finally asks. I shrug a little. “Well, I don’t know you well enough quite yet to completely hand it over to you, but from what I’ve seen so far, I’m at the very least interested.” She looks like she’s having a hard time believing my words, which I really don’t understand. She seems strong, physically and mentally. Seems smart and knowledgeable about her pack. People seem to listen to her, respect and look up to her. I still wanted to get to know her a little better to make sure she wasn’t going to make the personality shift all my previous candidates had made. But there was really good potential in her, that much I could tell for sure.“This just seems… out of nowhere.” She says, sitting back in her seat a little.“I mean, not really. I’ve b
We walked into my office, Beatrice close behind as I held the door open for her. She mutters a quiet “thanks” and I move behind the desk as she plops into the chair on the other side.“So.” I say once we’re sat. “Tell me about yourself.” She raises her eyebrow a little, like she was expecting something else, which I’m sure she was. “Uh. I mean… What do you want to know?”She rubs at the back of her neck a little, looking suddenly awkward. “Anything. Where you grew up. What your parents are like, what you spend your time doing.” “Well. I grew up here, in Sebastian's pack. He… found me, after my pack was wiped out by a group of rogues.” Her face changes a little when she brings up her former Alpha, contorting into a pained, regretful expression. “I think I was seven when he found me. He was barely a teenager himself, but I still remember how big he had seemed to me when he’d first found me tucked away in a bush. I don’t even know how long I’d been hiding, but he’d said it looked like
I guess the universe was getting bored with toying with me, because two days after I’d had to boot Andrew, my most promising candidate yet made themselves known. A woman. Her name was Beatrice Longfall. Though her connection to her once royal bloodline was weak at this point, it still shone through when she was working and leading her pack mates.Apparently, she’d been off with a few others for a while now, looking for Sebastain. To no avail. Her and the twelve pack members who had been with her didn’t look pleased when they’d returned, irritated almost. They all just said they couldn’t find him, but I wondered if that was true. What if they had found him, and he had refused to come back? I’m sure that stubborn pride of his wouldn’t allow it, even if it’s what made sense. I didn’t pry too much though. I first saw her leading a group of guards out to the borders, her walking in front as they all strode behind her. All it had taken was one snap of her fingers, and they were all shift
I sigh heavily, letting another file I’d built for a new potential Alpha fall into the trash can. This one’s name had been Andrew Powell, a long residing pack member with good combat skills. When I'd asked around about him, all anyone had to say was good things, and everyone seemed to know him. With that in mind, I had eagerly pursued him, and of course, he was just as eager to accept the challenge.He’d started off great, doing his best to make a good impression. Then it was like something changed, and he let the mask drop. He started acting like he already had the Alpha title, parading around telling everyone what to do. So this morning, I’d brought him into what I was currently using as an office, and told him he was no longer being considered for the Alpha position. Of course he had gotten pissed, started telling me I wasn’t even qualified to make this kind of decision, and that maybe he would just take the title without my blessing. At least I knew now I was right in my choice.
Was this how Everly felt when I had been unfaithful in our marriage? Did she too feel this sadness, this envy, this anger?All I could think about was hearing those words from her, “I’m pregnant. And it’s not yours.” Over and over again like a broken record.Pure, unfiltered rage courses through my veins as I stomped out of our house, swinging the door open so hard it cracked against the wall behind it. I ignored the stares from the pack members I’d had outside with Ella and Eli, and didn't stop to answer their questions of where I was going and if I was okay. The twins would be fine with them for a little, maybe better than if they were left in my care.Because I was anything but okay. My woman was pregnant with another man’s child, and I had a very good feeling on who’s it was. I could tell by her hesitation, the tone in her voice. It was that bastard’s, Sebastain’s. The image of them screwing pissed me off, and made bile rise in my throat. I didn’t even want to think about them
“Hey, babe. How’d it go today?” Killian’s voice says in my ear through my phone. I swallowed thickly at his question, clenching the phone in my hand so tightly I was scared it was going to break. This was the part I was dreading. Killian and I were just reconnecting, and now I was about to tell him I was going to be gone for some undetermined amount of time. Not to mention… There was a baby growing in me right now. What if I was gone for months? I would show back up with a swollen belly. That would be nothing if not jarring. I mean, it’s not like I had cheated on him or anything. But I still felt guilty, horrible even, at the life growing inside of me. “It was okay.” I say, then fall silent. I know he’s waiting for me to tell him more, what I chose to do, because I hadn’t even told him my plan. It was kind of a last minute call. That, and I’m too weak. He had hugged me with such warmth before I left, kissing my cheek and telling me he couldn't wait for me to come home. “Uhm. I gues
Three days later…For some reason, Sebastian’s pack land looked different to me this time around. It seemed less foreign, for sure. I had lived there for a while, and spent plenty of time wandering around. Less intimidating, maybe, now that I knew there was no scheming man waiting around the corner. I walked behind Adam and a couple other committee members who had tagged along, a woman named Marlin, a man named Thomas. This morning, Adam and them had shown up at my door, and told me we would be travelling here today, to announce my decision to the pack and appoint a new Alpha if my choice was to leave. He told me I could have them fight me or each other, do a poll, whatever I felt was the best call to pick the new leader. Sebastian didn’t have an official Beta, so while that would normally be the first logical choice, unfortunately it wasn’t an option this time around. Strangely enough, none of them had asked what I was going to do yet today. Adam kept eyeing me, like he was doubti
Since returning to Kilian’s pack things had been… different. I was happy to be back with Killian and our kids. We were finally together, able to raise them side by side. I wasn’t having to look over my shoulder because I had to be on guard all the time, and Killian was paying me more attention than ever before. Apart from that, there were a few more serious things going on. For example, Sebastian’s pack was left without an Alpha. The committee members were breathing down my neck, telling me I either needed to relinquish my position over to someone else, or step up and take charge of the dozens of wolves looking for a leader. And don’t even get me started on Felix’s pack. They weren’t in my top list of priorities, I can't lie. Most of them had run off, only a few of the new members who had been forced into Felix’s pack had stuck around. Honestly, I had kind of been hoping Sebastain would show back up. I would be more than happy to hand his pack back over. I didn’t want it. I hadn’t
The ride back to Killian’s pack was mostly quiet; he’d ask me something every once in a while, about the twins or his pack. But I think we both had a lot on our minds. I know I did. The car had dropped us as close to the pack lands as it could, and we walked the rest of the way. “God, I’m glad to be back in these woods.” Killian said as we walked along. He had his face tilted to look at the tops of the trees, and was smiling a little for the first time in what felt like forever. It was kind of cute, the way he was acting like he was literally being recharged just by being in his woods again. “What are you smiling at?” He asks me, bumping his shoulder against mine a little. I shake my head, and look up at him. “Just… happy we both got to come back here together.” I say. “Did you miss this place at all?” He asks, looking down at me. I nod a little. “Yeah, I guess I did. Or really I missed the good memories I had attached to it.” He nods along. “Like… Do you remember that one nigh