We shared nice moments that night. I listened to him silently, sipped my beer, smoking and watching the gleaming city lights below, while he talked and talked for hours, blurting everything he wanted to be said. Suddenly I felt that I knew him pretty well, I can understand his emptiness, his vulnerability, while also admiring his strong-willed heart, and realizing that everything he owns and achieves right now just doesn’t fall right upon his lap, but he struggled for every tiny bit of it.
“Sorry, Anita, I dragged you here and made you listen to all this. You must be really bored hearing me talking for hours.” He said, then puffing the smoke out of his mouth, glancing his beautiful blue eyes at me.
“Hey, that’s okay, Clay. You can always tell me everything. It’s really a pleasure to hear all of it, to have you confide everything to me.” I answered after lighting my cigarette.
He took a sip from his bottle and continued, “I don’t know why, but since our first conversation, I feel comfortable when I’m around you. You don’t ask about anything related to my work life, as most of the other people always do, even at the first time they personally talked to me. And I feel that you can accept the real me. People usually only see me as a famous person, and they don't dare to get close to me. They said I am cold, arrogant, unfriendly. But I’m mostly just an awfully quiet person. I never meant to be unfriendly or cold, I just don’t know what to say to people at first. I’m not really good at socializing and often feels difficult to fit in, that’s all.”
“Well, I can understand how you feel. If I were in your position, I probably felt the same. It might be nice if everybody recognizes you everywhere you go at first, but after that, you will feel like you cannot get any freedom because everybody seems too eager to know every single thing about you, but only about your work and achievement, not yourself as a person."
“Yeah, that’s exactly what I’m feeling. But now I go and do my way, and hell with them.”
Tonight I saw another side of Clayton Sommers. He looks like a strong and cold person on the outside at first, but now I can see his other side. Sometimes, he must be hiding in his cold outer appearance, while he actually just felt a little bit uneasy inside.
“Clay, I’m sorry about what I said and what happened when I called you tonight. I really didn't know what to do when I saw your name on the list. Acting with you will be a pleasure for me, I’m sure of it, but I think it will also add quite a lot of pressure. Honestly, I feel giddy and nervous at the same time”.
I blurted out the truth when I think that I just gotta be truthful about the situation. I don’t like to hide something from someone who has just confided so many things to me, because it seems unfair.
“Pressure? Why? If you think about the rumor that you will get because you acted with me, I’m really sorry”, he apologized.
“No. Not about that, actually. I don’t care about any of that, let them talk. But… umm… it’s because… I... I think I kinda... have a little... crush on you. I felt... really… extremely nervous... when I figured out I will act with you.”
There I said it while I was looking at his perfect face and suddenly felt my face burn.
Shoot!
I must be looking awfully embarrassing, and I hide my face with my hands. I’m too shy to look at him right now.
“Hey... Anita… look at me.”
He put his bottle beside him and took my hand from my face. His face looked earnest as his dark blue eyes looking deep into my eyes.
I felt more and more embarrassed, my face felt hotter until I knew I couldn't show my face to him anymore. I turned my face away. Then he took his other hand to grab my face and turned it to see his.
“Anita, please. Look me in the eye when I tell you this”, he said.”I like you too. I don’t really know what I’m feeling right now, is it a crush or what, and how it will turn out to be, but I know I like you. I like talking to you, and being with you just makes me feel like I can always be myself. Do you know why it took two days for me to call you? I wasn’t really that busy, and I was thinking of calling you a few times, but I don’t know what to say if I called you that time. The only reason I could think of was wishing you good luck with the result announcement, so the only appropriate time to be able to call you was this morning, for that reason.”
WHAT??? Oh My Gracious God, is this even real?
Clayton Sommers, the guy who I have always had a crush on since I first saw him smoking at the campus a few months ago, with his cool and perfect appearance, just said those words??
After that, we just looked at each other awkwardly for a few moments. I really don’t know what to say, so I'm just trying to grab my beer. My hands are shaking a bit from the nervousness, and also freezing because of the dropped temperature after midnight, until it almost feels numb. I clumsily knocked the beer bottle over when I tried to reach it, and it wetted my jeans and his trousers. Shoot, what am I doing??!! I instantly stood up, grabbed my handbag for tissues and wiped all the beer in my jeans, and gave the remaining tissues to Clayton, who also stood up and wiped his jeans. The accident turns out to be so comical, and he burst out laughing all of a sudden while seeing me bent down while trying to wipe the spilling on the rocks with tissues in panic. “Anita, leave it, don’t mop the rocks…”, he said while chuckling. I can’t help to hide my smile then chuckled with him awkwardly. While he’s still laughing, he stretched his arm towards me, pulled
And we were watching the sunrise. Clay was right, it was really beautiful. First, a glint of purple burst into the horizon looked like a colored mist, and then changes into orange, and finally, the yellow lights come peeking out, the sun slowly rose along from the edge of the horizon. It was really a breath-taking view, and he was holding me close while we were watching it. After everything turned to light, I realized that from today onwards, I would see him with a whole different perspective. It would be from a different angle, as from now I would see him as someone I admired, someone I would always try to understand, and someone I would really like to be with. He looks careless and arrogant but nice and sensitive inside, he seems cold but rather caring, good sense of humor, and of course, a great kisser. A little before 6 am, he asked if I had class this morning. I said I’ll have a class at 11, and I suggested we grab something on the way back because I am totally
Today would be the first rehearsal for the play. And it also meant I could meet Clayton at the campus!! Yaaaay!! I woke up very early today, and I couldn’t wait to meet him. I took a longer time in the shower, washed my hair, and used chocolate-scented body butter that Sasha gave me last month. While I was busy picking clothes that I’m going to wear, Sasha looks at me from her bed and smiles. “I never saw you picking clothes for so long until now. Usually, t-shirts and jeans did just well for going to the campus. What’s up? Got a date with Clayton again today?” she asked, a teasing smile curled on her voluptuous lips. “Not a date, Sass… Today is the first rehearsal, remember?” I answered. “Aaaah… the first rehearsal. Are the neck-biting scenes going to be rehearsed today as well??”, she teased further while curling her beautiful wavy red hair with her index finger. “OMG Saasssss... Thanks for reminding me about that thing. Now I’m nervous.” Sa
Just as I predicted, I was bombarded with questions from the girls after I grabbed my lunch and sat at their table. They asked why Pax called me (I said he wanted to talk about the play), why was Clay there (I don’t know, they were just sitting together), and what was Clayton saying to me (Nothing, he just said hi and see you later).Huff, I think Pax and Clay were right. It’s better for me and Clay to act like strangers in public, or at least just a friend that’s not too close, so I won’t get this kind of question every single day, over and over again.Then it’s finally time for the awaited rehearsal. I walked into the hall cheerfully. When I arrived, Clayton was sitting beside Pax on the first row, reading his script. He already took his jacket and shoes off, preparing to do the warm-up session. When I said hi, he finally tilted his face up and looked at me. He greeted me and tapped a seat beside him. When I sat down beside him, he close
Well, I regretted my decision to wear an off-shoulder t-shirt today. If I wear higher collared tees, maybe it won’t be this bad, cause I wouldn’t be able to felt his warm breath on my neck and shoulder. I looked to the audience seats where Trey sat, then smiled apologetically and mouthed “Sorry”. The other theater club members who lined up for the next scene finished their warm-up session and watched our rehearsal closely. Some of them started to grin and giggled at us, and I know they must have sensed something going on between me and "the cast of Count Dracula". Clayton looked at my blushed face and then chuckled. He then holds my shoulders from behind and whispers, “You never told me that your neck is very sensitive”.I answered awkwardly, still in a whispery voice “How am I supposed to tell you? You never asked.” Then he suddenly lowered his head until his mouth almost touched my ear and answered in a lower, deeper whisper, “Maybe I just don’t get
He drove his car to the seaside area, where all the posh hangout places, high-end malls, and biggest houses in the town are located. He stopped his car in front of a simple, modern black iron gate. The fence also circled the premises in front of boxwood hedge bushes, both around 7-8 feet tall, ensuring security and privacy. From the gate, I can see a big front lawn covered with nice thick, tidy grass, a few kept shrubs, and big trees that hid the house from curbside sight.He opened the gate with a remote and parked his car in front of the house before came out and opened the passenger side of the car for me. It is a modern minimalist medium-sized, square, dark gray and black building, maybe two and a half or three-floored, with a touch of wood for the floor, and natural stone cladding covering some of the lower outer walls and balcony pillars. The house looks empty and dark, and from looking at the simple unframed glass windows, all the lights are off. The night breeze is ex
Suddenly I felt Clayton’s heart beat faster. Our breath became heavier while holding each other tightly. I looked up at his face, and before I even realized completely what was going on, our lips were glued together. He kissed me much more passionately than before, almost rough. I rubbed his back and fondled his long hair. His hand somehow finds a way to get into my tees and caresses the skin on my back, sending good goosebumps all over me. A few moments after, I felt my bra unbuttoned, and his hand slid forward to my bare breast inside the shirt. I felt his fingers graze the lower side of my breast, then move upwards to brush and play with the tips. I sighed inside our kisses and felt my body temperature rising.After a while, our kissing stopped and we looked at each other's eyes then found each other’s blazing passion in our mutual gaze. “Grab everything, let’s go upstairs”, he said while exhaling his breath deeply. We grabbed our bags and scripts q
I woke up feeling a bit disoriented for a second when I opened my eyes and found out that I didn’t sleep in my dorm room as usual, and was not wearing anything except the blanket on top of me. Then I remembered things that happened last night and smiled. I turned around and saw Clayton, still sleeping peacefully on the other side of the bed. His wavy hair looks messy but somehow still framed his face perfectly, and his sleeping pose looked really tempting. laying on his back with one of his toned arms behind his head, apart from the fact that he’s also naked.I looked at the bedside table, peeking into his watch because there’s no wall clock in his bedroom. It was almost 12 pm. I stood up and looked around to find my clothes, grab my oversized shirt, and put it on. I was thinking of waking him up, but my second thought said that I won’t be able to do it because I just didn’t have the heart to ruin his peaceful slumber.I decided to go down