I walked back to my dorm very late after everyone finished auditioning because I wanted to see how my friends and upperclassmen doing at their auditions. It was a little past midnight. Luckily my dorm wasn’t far, so I don’t have to rely on public transportation. As I walked alone right beside the campus gate, thinking about what had happened earlier, I saw a black Camaro slowly passed and pull over a few yards in front of me.
Then, a guy came out. I recognized his silhouette from afar. It was Clayton, and he walked closer before talking to me.
“ Hey, do you need a lift?”.
“Nope, that’s okay. My dorm’s just three blocks away”, I said.
“Well, then, I can take you there”, he answered.
“No, really, you don’t need to. I can walk”.
“ I cannot let a woman I know walk alone in the dark like this. It’s past midnight!”
“No problem, I am already used to this, been doing it for more than a year. It’s safe”.
“No, I insisted. I’m not gonna give it up this time. Please, let me take you to your dorm”, he insisted and then smiled.
I scoffed a bit and then rolling my eyes and smiled, “Yeah well, I guess we’re just two of a kind. You are definitely a stubborn one!”
“Strong-willed, I’ll say. But, right back at’cha!”. He said when chuckled then opened the passenger door for me.
The first few minutes he drove me home, I was silent as this situation felt so unreal. I am inside Clayton’s car, and he took me back to the dorm!!! I am internally screaming, squealing, and jumping happily, but thanks to my acting abilities, those unladylike, cheesy inner me were kept locked inside safely. I put my calm and composed persona for him to see,
“Anita… Can I give a comment on your previous audition?”, he broke the silence between us.
I feel a little surprised but quickly get myself back and answered, “Sure, tell away…”
“At first I thought, “Hey, this girl is good”. You got Lucy’s emotion well, and portray her feelings nicely. But, when you started to sing, I was like ‘Whoa, this girl sure CAN sing!’. Seriously, your voice is amazing!”
“Well, thank you, Mr. Judge. I’m really flattered”. I smiled awkwardly.
“You’re welcome, that was an honest review”, he replied with a wide smile. Gosh, he was looking really good tonight. And looking at him driving from his passenger seat, inside his car, is an angle I have never dreamed of.
He stopped his car in front of my dorm after I gave him the direction. I said thanks for giving me a ride home. And then the magical moment happened.
“Anita…”, he called me with his deep, raspy voice.
“Yes?”
“Can I… call you sometime?”
Did he just ASKED if he could call me sometimes?? YES, he ASKED for my NUMBERS!!!!
With all the composure and coolness left in me, I answered, “Sure…”.
I gave him my number but I didn’t ask for his.
Well, a kind of dating expert once said, “If you asked to give your number, just give it. Don’t ask him back. Wait for 3 days, if he doesn't call, then he’s not interested.”
I usually didn’t even hesitate to ask for the guy's number, but I think I’m not going to do it this time. I don't want to end up calling him first and make him think that I chased him (Which is actually true! But I really don’t wanna look too eager, not this time).
After I got out of his car and waved goodbye, I hurried back to my room on the 2nd floor and woke Sasha, my roommate, best friend, and also my childhood friend. We have known each other since we were 10, and we ran away from the lousy little town together. She doesn't go to the same college as me, but the University located closer to the dorm. I told every single thing that happened to me, especially about Clayton, and she was really eager to hear other updates, any time of the day.
“Sasha, wake up!! I just got home from the theater auditions, and you’re not gonna believe what I’m going to tell!!”.
“Uuuuuugghh… you get Lucy’s part??” said Sasha while yawned and scratched her cheek.
“I don’t know about it yet. The results will be announced on Thursday. But it’s better than that!”“What?”, asked Sasha, puzzled while getting her glasses and wear them.
“CLAYTON!!”
“What?? Did he talked to you again?? Today?“, she said with an enthusiastic voice. I bet she’s fully awake now.
“MORE THAN THAT!! He judged the audition, as a guest judge, praised me about it while driving me here, and then asked for my number!!” I blurted everything to her very fast.
“Whaaaat? OH MY GOD !!! That’s great…”, she jumped and hugged me. She looked very surprised and happy to hear that. “But wait!!! WAIT!! In details, NOW!”
I chuckled and dragged her to sit on her bed as I told the whole story while walking around the room, cleansing my face and get changed into a sleeping gown. I told her everything, describing it as detailed as I could. She loves to hear everything in detail, and analyze the littlest things, the tiniest gestures. She is a very good listener, best friend, relationship advisor, and roommate.
“Well, by the way the things are going, all looks very good. First, he informed you that he would be there at the audition, showed that he did remember the details of your previous convo. Second, wishing you good luck, showing that he cares for your performance, and rooting for you to do your best. Third, give commentary about the audition. He did show that he really took a good watch and appreciate your effort, and praise you for the good performance, in private. Fourth, and the best, asking numbers mean that he wanted you to move from the girl I know on campus, an underclassman, to a friend and probably even more. So, let’s cross our fingers and hope he will call you soon!”. She said after I finished the detailed situations.
Thursday morning, three days after. I woke up in the morning feeling really tired and nervous. I was between giddy and anxious about the result that will be announced in the afternoon. Also, those magical moments I had with Clayton feels slowly fades away, because ever since he asked my number on Monday night, I didn’t meet him anywhere, and he didn’t contact me in any way. He must be working, having interviews, photoshoots, or something. He’s busy and a public figure, anyways. Don't get your hopes up too high, silly girl. Well, fortunately, I somehow know I can’t expect that much, he most likely hasn’t had any interest in me, as more than acquaintances, or someone he barely more than knew each other a little. Maybe he just asked for my number so he can add me to his phone contacts as someone in the sophomore year. But on the other hand, being inside his phone contact is already something though. Soon after I stepped out of the shower, my phone rang. It
I didn’t call him, at last, all afternoon, or even text. I didn’t know what to say to him, with all these things that I had known and my mixed feelings were so getting in the way. But after a few hours thinking alone in my room that evening, while waiting for Sasha to come back from her campus activities and give me advice, I think I have to be true to myself, and to him. Even though it was almost 10 pm. I called the number that called me this morning. “Evening, Clay, this is Anita,” I said as soon as he picked up the call. “Hey, I was waiting for your call all afternoon. How were the casting announcements?” “Yes, I got the role. But there’s something I must ask you. Why didn’t you tell me that you’re also going to perform? I saw your name in the leading role”. Damn, I can’t help myself from sounding a bit upset. “So, my name is on the list? Sorry, I didn’t mean to hide this from you, Anita, but after the audition, Pax said they still didn’t h
I freeze and stare at my phone for a few seconds. Suddenly I realized what his last sentences mean and jumped out of bed. WHAT? Oh my God!! Did he just say he’ll pick me up in 20 minutes??? I hurried and got changed. I opened my closet and picked something to wear. What am I going to wear??? Jeans and something warmer? Sweater? Jacket? Coat? I didn’t even know what he meant by picking me up, and where we would go. Probably I should wear something I usually wear to campus, but maybe a little bit nicer and warmer? Maybe not a sweater because it won’t be nicer or flattering at all, and I will definitely drown in coats. Ugh, the “perks” of being a shortie. And where the hell is Sasha when I really really need her?? I picked dark grey tight jeans and black knitted tank tops, then layered it with a light grey thicker knitted cardigan. Moisturized my face, brushed some powder, a bit of neutral-toned eye shadow, eyeliner, and lip tint. I grabbed my bag, empti
We shared nice moments that night. I listened to him silently, sipped my beer, smoking and watching the gleaming city lights below, while he talked and talked for hours, blurting everything he wanted to be said. Suddenly I felt that I knew him pretty well, I can understand his emptiness, his vulnerability, while also admiring his strong-willed heart, and realizing that everything he owns and achieves right now just doesn’t fall right upon his lap, but he struggled for every tiny bit of it. “Sorry, Anita, I dragged you here and made you listen to all this. You must be really bored hearing me talking for hours.” He said, then puffing the smoke out of his mouth, glancing his beautiful blue eyes at me. “Hey, that’s okay, Clay. You can always tell me everything. It’s really a pleasure to hear all of it, to have you confide everything to me.” I answered after lighting my cigarette. He took a sip from his bottle and continued, “I don’t know why, but since our
After that, we just looked at each other awkwardly for a few moments. I really don’t know what to say, so I'm just trying to grab my beer. My hands are shaking a bit from the nervousness, and also freezing because of the dropped temperature after midnight, until it almost feels numb. I clumsily knocked the beer bottle over when I tried to reach it, and it wetted my jeans and his trousers. Shoot, what am I doing??!! I instantly stood up, grabbed my handbag for tissues and wiped all the beer in my jeans, and gave the remaining tissues to Clayton, who also stood up and wiped his jeans. The accident turns out to be so comical, and he burst out laughing all of a sudden while seeing me bent down while trying to wipe the spilling on the rocks with tissues in panic. “Anita, leave it, don’t mop the rocks…”, he said while chuckling. I can’t help to hide my smile then chuckled with him awkwardly. While he’s still laughing, he stretched his arm towards me, pulled
And we were watching the sunrise. Clay was right, it was really beautiful. First, a glint of purple burst into the horizon looked like a colored mist, and then changes into orange, and finally, the yellow lights come peeking out, the sun slowly rose along from the edge of the horizon. It was really a breath-taking view, and he was holding me close while we were watching it. After everything turned to light, I realized that from today onwards, I would see him with a whole different perspective. It would be from a different angle, as from now I would see him as someone I admired, someone I would always try to understand, and someone I would really like to be with. He looks careless and arrogant but nice and sensitive inside, he seems cold but rather caring, good sense of humor, and of course, a great kisser. A little before 6 am, he asked if I had class this morning. I said I’ll have a class at 11, and I suggested we grab something on the way back because I am totally
Today would be the first rehearsal for the play. And it also meant I could meet Clayton at the campus!! Yaaaay!! I woke up very early today, and I couldn’t wait to meet him. I took a longer time in the shower, washed my hair, and used chocolate-scented body butter that Sasha gave me last month. While I was busy picking clothes that I’m going to wear, Sasha looks at me from her bed and smiles. “I never saw you picking clothes for so long until now. Usually, t-shirts and jeans did just well for going to the campus. What’s up? Got a date with Clayton again today?” she asked, a teasing smile curled on her voluptuous lips. “Not a date, Sass… Today is the first rehearsal, remember?” I answered. “Aaaah… the first rehearsal. Are the neck-biting scenes going to be rehearsed today as well??”, she teased further while curling her beautiful wavy red hair with her index finger. “OMG Saasssss... Thanks for reminding me about that thing. Now I’m nervous.” Sa
Just as I predicted, I was bombarded with questions from the girls after I grabbed my lunch and sat at their table. They asked why Pax called me (I said he wanted to talk about the play), why was Clay there (I don’t know, they were just sitting together), and what was Clayton saying to me (Nothing, he just said hi and see you later).Huff, I think Pax and Clay were right. It’s better for me and Clay to act like strangers in public, or at least just a friend that’s not too close, so I won’t get this kind of question every single day, over and over again.Then it’s finally time for the awaited rehearsal. I walked into the hall cheerfully. When I arrived, Clayton was sitting beside Pax on the first row, reading his script. He already took his jacket and shoes off, preparing to do the warm-up session. When I said hi, he finally tilted his face up and looked at me. He greeted me and tapped a seat beside him. When I sat down beside him, he close