Biggest Fan

Unknown POV

I love The Fab F.O.U.R. I'm their biggest fan.

I have followed them from the beginning of their careers. They are the most perfect girls to ever exist. They all bring something different to the table. 

Fiona brings the cool element. You can never tell what she's thinking and she always has a calm demeanor. She's always been the hardest to crack. Olivia brings a lightness to the band. She's so caring and never has a bad thought about anyone. She's the ray of sunshine. Uma brings the sexy, badassness to the group. She's fearless and wild. The absolute perfect front woman. And Raquel brings an innocence to the group. She looks so pure, but the girl can deliver a guitar riff that could shake a stadium.

They're perfect.

I knew everything there was to know about them. 

Fiona had a hard life growing up. She had a sick dad and a mom who didn't give her much thought. She lost her father when she was thirteen. Her dad and her had the purest of relationships. He was her best friend. He had taught her how to play piano and then later how to handle a keyboard when Uma started talking about starting a band. He was sure she would be a star. She lost everything the day that he died. Her mother checked out completely after that. All the other girls were there for her. They took turns having Fiona at their house. They supported her the whole time.

Olivia's life was less tragic. She was a child of the most amicable divorce in history and yet she still took blame for what happened. That blame turned into her needing to control everything and that control turned into a severe eating disorder. It wasn't supposed to happen. Just one person telling her she wasn't as thin as she used to be and she spiraled. It got so bad she almost died last year. If Uma hadn't found her passed out, who knows what would have happened. The girls supported her in recovery.

Uma's life seemed the best from the outside. A rich and successful mother, great looks. Even coming out was easy for her. When she realized she was bisexual she shouted it to the world and received nothing but love in return. She didn't ever want for anything. Only she did. She wanted her father. Uma's mother only ever told her that her father was Greek and she had given her his last name. The only other thing she had to say was that he was bad news. Still Uma wanted to find him. She felt like a piece of her was missing. That she could never truly know herself if she didn't know where she came from. That's why her relationships always went so horribly. She was looking for pieces of her father in all of these people. But she never found him.

Raquel had the strictest upbringing. She was from Vietnamese family that valued tradition and culture above everything else. From a young age she felt very different and when she was thirteen she figured out why. She fell in love with Uma. It's hard to tell what got her there. All the sleepovers and special looks and kisses that Uma loved giving out. Raquel tried her hardest to push down her feelings for girls, but finally gave in when she was seventeen and had her first girlfriend. It went terribly. Elaine was controlling and obsessive and wanted Raquel all to herself. Raquel couldn't handle it and ended things. She's now convinced a relationship with a woman could never work.

I knew everything about their manager too. J.T. Edwards. He was a special guy. He had dated all of the girls at some point. He dated Olivia first in middle school. It lasted two weeks and Olivia ended it for another guy. He then dated Raquel in freshman year of high school. She was really trying to convince herself she was straight, but she hated kissing him so she ended it after a month. Then in sophomore year he dated Fiona for six months. It was a fine relationship, but J.T. fell for someone else. Uma. They dated for a year. They lost their virginity to each other, but Uma ended it so he could be their manager and things wouldn't be weird.

The band always came first.

The girls had grown so much and yet they still had their issues. 

Fiona was struggling financially and academically. I watched slowly as her grades slipped and she became more and more overwhelmed. Of course she thought she could handle it. She found a way to make money that she never wanted anyone else to know about. But I knew. She hated having to call him every time things went bad but she also loved having that fall back.

Olivia was slowly relapsing and no one was noticing. I did. I could see how she would go the bathroom after every meal and she started bringing salads to lunch. I want to tell someone, but I want to believe Olivia is strong enough to overcome this. Also the last time I interfered in their lives, things went badly. I had to let her figure this out on her own. Still maybe I would send her an email about therapy.

Uma's life was being turned upside down. She might have a sister. Well not might, she does. I'd already done my research and Zora is for sure her sister on her dad's side. I don't want Uma to learn more about her father and meet him. He's not a good man. He wouldn't appreciate how perfect she was. He wouldn't give her the security and closure she thought he could. Again, this is something I had to let Uma figure out on her own. I'm sure she would.

Raquel had it bad. She's forced herself into a seemingly heterosexual relationship. Her parents set her up with David and thought it was easy as that. What they didn't realize was that David Tran could never make her happy. It wasn't possible. She wanted a woman. Well one woman if you want to get technical. I wish there was a way to get those two together. They would bring out the best in one another and the band would thrive.

I now hear they're adding a fifth member to the band. I don't know how I felt about that. I had gotten so used to my four girls. I loved them more than anything. Did I have room for another person in my heart? I would have to see.

If not it might be time to meddle once again. I was trying to stop with that though. Although eventually things got better last time, they had to get worse first. I didn't want to put my girls through turmoil again. I loved them.

After all, I'm their biggest fan.