The Family He Lost While Choosing Another

When the junior training hall blew, I was in the family medical building organizing Nico's latest physical reports.

That morning, when I dropped him off, he had tugged on my hand and asked whether his father would come watch him after training. I had straightened his collar and said maybe.

Not long after, the door to the medical building burst open.

"The hall blew. There are still kids inside."

The files slipped from my hands.

Nico was down there.

By the time I reached the training hall, the place was already chaos. The alarms were screaming. The air was thick with smoke, dust, and the sharp burned-metal smell of a drill gone wrong. I shoved through the crowd and ran inside.

I found Nico in the innermost corridor.

He was curled behind a fallen metal barrier, his face smeared black with ash. There were cuts along his arms and calves from flying debris, and one side of his shoulder had been badly burned. The moment he saw me, he stumbled into my arms, shaking so hard I could feel it through both our clothes.

I held him and looked down at his injuries. I was about to carry him out when he clutched at my shirt and refused to let go.

His voice was shaking.

"Does Dad just not want me?"

I went still.

Between sobs, he told me Dante had been the first one in. Nico thought his father had come for him. He had called out again and again, but Dante had run right past him and gone straight for Leo.

I carried him out, and when we reached the main corridor, I finally saw Dante.

He was standing near the exit with soot streaked up both arms. Claire was beside him. Leo was wrapped in a thermal blanket with nothing worse than a scrape on his forehead. Claire was still holding Dante's hand, crying as she thanked him for getting Leo out first.

Then Nico moved in my arms and lifted his head.

"Dad," he called softly.

Dante heard him.

He looked over. His eyes landed on Nico's face, stayed there for less than a second, and moved away. Then he told someone to take Leo upstairs to the private clinic and have Claire driven back to the main house.

He never came over.

He never asked how badly Nico was hurt.

I stood there with my son in my arms and felt the cold spread through me.

By the time we got to the treatment room, Nico still had not cried. He only went red-eyed and silent when I started treating the burn on his shoulder. Then he asked, "Is it because I'm not good enough that he doesn't like me?"

My hands stopped.

I wanted to tell him no. I wanted to tell him none of this was his fault.

But I couldn't say any of it.

Because I didn't believe it either.

Dante had been back in New York for less than two months, but for the four years before that, he had been running the Chicago side of the family business, and Claire and Leo had been there the whole time. He had not come back for Nico and me. He came back because Claire said she wanted to return with her son.

So he brought them home, settled them in, and put Leo into the training slot that should have belonged to Nico.

Even today, when my son had been crying for him in the smoke, he still chose another child first.

I lowered my head, wrapped the last layer of bandage around Nico's shoulder, and touched his burning forehead.

"This is not your fault," I said. "If something like this ever happens again, call for me first."

He looked up at me with wet eyes.

"Will you come?"

I held him close.

"I will always come."