Chapter 2

The resonance didn't hurt the way physical pain hurts. It was deeper than that. It went straight into the blood, into the soul core, and it began to pull.

The projection screen lit up in the center of the hall.

The crowd went quiet.

The first memory surfaced. Three days after Seraphine died.

I was on my knees in this same hall. The guards hadn't needed to drag me — I had walked in myself, still thinking there was a way to explain, still thinking someone would listen. Silver-laced restraints. The elder standing above me, his voice carrying to every corner.

"Give us the name. Give us the name and this ends."

In the hall tonight, someone hurled a burning torch at the platform. It grazed my arm. Fire bit into skin. I didn't move.

"Traitor. Ten years she's been sitting on this."

"Seraphine trusted her completely. She was the only one Seraphine trusted."

The memory shifted.

Two weeks before Seraphine died. She was standing between me and a group of senior Covenant members who had decided I'd been asking too many questions about Soren's old records.

"She's with me," she said. Her voice was very calm. "Whatever your concern is, bring it to Lucian. Not to her."

After they left she turned around and looked at me for a long moment.

"What are you looking for, Vera?"

"Inconsistencies," I said.

She studied me. Seraphine had always been able to see further into me than I was comfortable with. "In Soren's records. Specifically."

It wasn't a question.

"Yes."

She was quiet for a moment. Then: "Be careful. Whatever you find — be careful how you carry it."

She didn't know then. She died before I could tell her what I'd found. And by the time she'd found her own way to the truth, I was already too late.

The hall erupted.

"Seraphine defended her right up until the end. Look where it got her."

"She stood between this traitor and the consequences and paid for it with her life."

"She knew where the evidence was and she walked right into it. Because of you."

Cael made a sound like something had broken inside him.

He lunged at the screen and pressed his palms flat against his mother's image.

"Mom." His voice had gone to almost nothing. "Come back. Please come back."

Lucian watched.

He stood at the edge of the platform with his hands behind his back and he watched Cael's small palms slide down the projection of his mother's face, and he said nothing, and he did not move.

I had never seen him do that before. In all the years I'd known him, in every difficult moment, he had always been the one who stepped into the space between a person and the thing that was hurting them.

He wasn't doing that tonight.

I looked at his face.

And for the first time since he had walked into the hall, I was afraid. Not of what he'd ordered done to me. Of what this had already cost him, and what he didn't know yet about what was still coming.

The memory continued playing.

The screen shifted again — earlier, the castle's lower library. Seraphine sitting across from me with her feet tucked under her, working through a glass of blood-wine and pretending to read.

"You and Lucian had another fight," she said finally.

"He cancelled again. Covenant business."

"He always has a reason." She turned a page without reading it. "That doesn't mean he doesn't care."

"I know he cares."

"Do you?" She looked up. "Because the way you two keep circling each other, I think you're both waiting for the other one to blink first. And neither of you is going to."

She closed the book. "Vera. He found us in an alley with nothing. He turned us. He built his entire schedule around making sure we were safe for the first three years because he didn't trust anyone else to do it." A pause. "Whatever he is to you right now, don't throw that away over pride."

I hadn't answered.

In the hall now, someone near the back called out: "She's playing old home videos to buy sympathy."

"Seraphine is dead ten years and this is the first time anyone's had to drag information out of you. How do you live with that?"

I watched the screen. I watched Seraphine's face — tipped back, completely unguarded, the way she only ever was when it was just the two of us.

Cael made a small, destroyed sound. He had stopped trying to touch the screen. He just stood there with his arms at his sides, staring at his mother's face.